Damien
It's been a month of hell without her, I've been looking everywhere just to find her, para akong naghahanap ng karayom sa napakalawak na palayan, sobrang hirap na halos kahit baliktarin ko na halos ang mundo, I don't even know where she is!Fuck!Even my private investigator can't find anything or just a tiny clue and I don't even know if she would ever come back to me.What the fuck did I do wrong for her to leave me like this, na parang tangang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana.Natutulala nalang ako bigla habang iniisip kung ano ng nangyayari sa kanya ngayon, kung kumain na ba siya o kung anong pinagkakaabalahan niya at kung nasaan siya ngayon, hinahanap niya rin ba ako?Pero di ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit niya ako iniwan ng ganito lalo na itong pregnancy test na nasa kamay kong may dalawang linyang pula.And I do really fucking know what the hell this pregnancy test means, she is carrying my child and right now para na akong mababaliw sa kakahanap sa kanya, I even call her parents to know if she leave some message to them or if she went there but to my dismay she has not.For goodness sake, she doesn't leave me message or anything that says where she went and why she leave me.Frustration and madness is making me insane right now, nasabunot ko nalamang ang buhok ko bago huminga ng malalim saka tinungga ang bote ng alak bago ko ito itinapon sa kung saan, hinaplos ko ang picture frame ng asawa ko at hinawakan kong muli ang pregnancy test.I am happy because I am now going to be a dad pero hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula kung patuloy akong maglulugmok dito sa opisina at ipahanap sa mga tao ko ang mag ina ko.I need to act now, as soon as possible I need to find her.But I remember something that made her run away from me, thinking about that made me realize.I know matagal na iyon, siguro bago pa kami noon ikasal may sinabi ako sa kanya, and my eyes went wide when some of flashbacks hit me on my head."Hon, ayaw mo pa bang magka anak tayo pakatapos nating ikasal?""No, I can't have kids not yet"Naguguluhan man ay nagulat pa din ako sa mga ala alang napag dugtong dugtong ko na lubos kong pinagsisisihan ngayon.I know now kung bakit niya ako iniwan pero di pa rin ako sure kung iyon ba talaga ang dahilan ng kanyang pag alis.That night before our wedding I told her a dumb thing that I don't want a baby yet and damn that shit.I am a jerk I know, kung gaano ako kagago para hindi tanggapin ang dinadala niya, pero di ibig sabihin nun na aalis nalang siya ng hindi ako pinapaliwanag ang sa side ko para maintindihan niya at basta ng wala man lang pasabing umalis, it was just fuck!That was back then in the past hindi pa kami kasal kaya nireready ko palang noon ang sarili ko and I do research on how to take care of my wife from being pregnant, sinabi ko iyong mga katagang "ayoko pa" kasi nagreready palang ako ng sarili ko for that, I just wanted to be a better father and husband and a house that she could call her home, our home.But now that I realize it I'm a biggest jerk at hindi ko na mababawi pa ang mga katagang iyon na nasabi ko na and I think I need a better explanation for this misunderstandings.Before that I need to find her because I need her to listen to me and how much I miss her. I do care about her being pregnant to my child, I do because she's my wife, ayoko ng maghintay pa sa mga investigator ko, ayoko ng malugmok sa mga report nilang wala namang mga silbi. If they can't find her, I shall do it on my own, by force or not I definitely find and capture her for making me like this."George my wife, you can run and hide away but you don't know who really is your husband" I smile putting the pregnancy test at the table, rushing some message on my investigators to send the result of the search but I fond none except for my private investigator, I just gonna call him later.["Sir, Miss Amera wants to see you"]My intercom made a noise after my secretary announce I have a visitor not just a visitor."Tell her to go away"Isa pa sa mga problema ko ang babaeng ito na ayaw tumigil sa kakapunta dito sa opisina ko, she's been pestering me because my wife left me.["Sir, she said may appointment daw po siya sainyo ngayon, and based on my data she really has one in this afternoon"]"Cancel it"["But sir-"]"Call the security if she don't want-"Hindi ko na natapos pa ang mga sasabihin ko sa secretarya ko dahil bigla nalang bumukas ang pintuan ng opisina ko upang iluwa noon ang mukha ni Amera, napamura nalamang ako ng magsimula na siyang mag inarte sa harapan ko."What do you want""You, darling Damien iniwan kana ng asawa mo and you need me-""Out"I don't want to repeat myself so I point the open door to her, telling her to get her fucking butt out of my office before I force her to do so."Damien I-"I look at her coldly, she just used her company name to make an appointment to me, for her to snake around here to my office but she only give me a teary eyed na para bang nagpapaawa saaking wag siyang paalisin at halos idikit na niya ang sariling katawan sa braso ko. It irritates me so I press the intercom again."You want me to do this the hard way then""Damien, I love you-""Just forget it, I am a married man Amera this is your final warning and this is the last time you'll step on this company"Pumasok na ang mga security upang ilabas na si Amera na halos nakakairita na dahil nga sa nakadikit pa rin siya sakin, I hate it when woman got near me this close except for my wife, I feel disgusted kaya naman pumunta agad ako sa banyo to freshen up.Looking at the mirror after washing my face is not shocking to me at all, I grew stumble that almost like a beard, I remember George hate this kind of facial from me and keep saying to me that she like only the stumble not a bearded husband.How could I take care my self now when she's not even here that I miss her this much that I don't really care anymore, I know I missed sleep nowadays but who cares, I want my wife.Clicking my tongue and loosened my necktie to breath out the madness that's gonna blow, this really fuck up.Fetching up my phone to make a call and walking back to sit on my swivel chair, dialing my private investigator that shortly pick up."Where?"["Barcelona, Italy."]Hanging up the phone at itatago ko na sana ng mahagip ng mga mata ko ang screen ng phone ko, our wedding picture still on my phone screen wallpaper, looking at her here, reminds me of how she really is happy with her gorgeous and elegant smile I've ever seen since the first time we meet, and when my phone went black I snap, i can't calm down for just a seconds."Barcelona" I murmured and gets up for me to take a step on finding my wife on my own now, tracking where she left a trail is a good sign for me to find her in a blink.Walking fast and telling my secretary Darwin to clean all my meetings this week because this gonna take me long weekend to totally captured her.My beautiful wife is kind hearted, a silent type to obey me in every word I say but I never seen her get mad even when I push her into her limits she never give me a reaction but now I don't know.Like I would imagine it that the woman I know will surely be fearless and totally a demon killer, Nah! she's so quite to be like that.But I would surely expect that my wife will be more dangerous than I am, parang alam ko na ang mangyayari sakin kapag nagpakita agad ako sa kanya, rejection.Driving fast is not my thing but if my wife is on the run I think you might relate to me, I love my wife so much that I don't want to lose her and leave me this second time, No not on my watch but I wish she'd explain to me why the hell she'll leave me like that, oh god, I'm going crazy!Tinudo ko na ang bilis ng motor kong gamit kahit na may mga humahabol na saking police dahil sa maximum na ang bilis ng sasakyan ko.Wala akong paki alam, hinahabol ko rin naman ang asawa ko kaya bahala kayong maghabol sakin dadagdag pa kayo sa problema kaya naman kahit na mahirap iwasan ang mga nakasunod ay natakasan ko pa rin sila, I know I am not in my country to be like this but fucking hell, so what if I am in Rome.Fuck them!Just when I'm about to stop on the grand canal and rialto bridge of venice in barcelona I saw her, nagzoom in agad ang mga mata ko sa kanya na halos nakalimutan ko ng iliko ang motor ko upang tumalon ito sa tubig habang ako nama'y natulala sa asawa kong gulat na nakatingin sakin habang ako ay nahuhulog."Georgina"to be continued...I saw her right there, right the fuck infront of me at kaunti nalang abot ko na siya pero bullshit!I messed up at ngayon para akong tangang nakatunganga sa harap ng laptop ko at naghihintay ng update mula sa private investigator ko na hanggang ngayon wala pang lead kung saan na naman nagsuot ang asawa ko, hindi na nga ako nakakapag bihis dahil gusto ko ng malaman kung ano na ba ang mangyayari ngayong nakita niya ako at sa ganoon pang pangyayari.I'm sure she's terrified at natatakot na ngayong alam niya ng hinahanap ko na siya, kahit ako natatakot na rin na baka ayaw na talaga niya magpahanap sakin and It's breaking my godamn heart into pieces just by thinking of it.I pinch my nose in frustration when I read the new email pop out."Fuck!"Punching the table in anger until it bleed but I can't feel any pain I just feel madness boiling within me, I'm so frustrated that my wife don't want me anymore, ayaw na niya akong makita pa, nanghihina akong napaupo sa sahig habang sinasabunutan a
"Go away"Para akong nanigas mula sa kinatatayuan ko habang nakatingin saakin ng napakalamig ang asawa ko.At nakahawak pa siya sa doorknob ng pintuan na para bang anytime sasaraduhan niya ako ng pinto.Pansin ko ring nakamasid ang secretarya ko sa likuran niya na nag piece sign sakin."George-" hindi ko na natuloy pa ang mga sasabihin ko ng pabagsak niya akong saraduhan ng pinto.Halos lahat yata ng mura sinabi ko na at pinilit ko pa ring katukin ang pintuan kung nasaan siya, I'm fucking out of control na halos pagsisipain ko na ang pintuan.I made a ruckus here and I don't fucking care right now kahit pa sinasaway na ako ng mga kapit bahay ng secretarya ko ay wala akong paki alam.I needed to talk to my wife damn it pero ayaw pa rin nila akong pag buksan.Shit, nataranta nalamang ako ng madinig kong may tinawagan ang isa sa mga nakatira dito ng security ay tumakbo na ako paalis ng building."Fuck!"Habang nasa byahe ako pabalik ng sa bahay ni Chris ay narinig kong nag ingay ang cell
Nang makarating ako ay agad akong nag door bell at laking pasasalamat ko ng si John Loid I mean Juanita ang bumukas ng pintuan na agad naman akong pinapasok."How is she""Sleeping, sir may I know what happened?"Nahilamos ko ang mukha ko at umupo sa sofa habang siya nama'y inabutan agad ako ng tubig."Mukhang nakainum ka sir"Pinatong ko ang bulaklak sa tabi ko bago nagsimulang mag kwento sa sekretarya ko kung ano nga bang punot dulo ng lahat pero sinagot niya lang ako na ikinagulat ko sa ugaling binigay niya ngayon sakin."Bobo ka sir"I know it was his response right away and I knew it for myself na gago ako more like what he said bobo but it was back then, nakaraan na iyon bakit pa kailangan ungkatin?Past are painful to bring back for our future, I pinch my nose and look at him na hanggang ngayon parang may gusto yatang sabihin sakin."Sir, I may I be rude now can I ask you something?""Your rude to me for calling me shit, then what is it?""I'm sorry sir pero ganun ka naman po t
Warning strict guidance 🖤Cooking some soup and putting ingredients on the pot pretending that I did not see my wife slowly walking towards me, I smile when I already lure her on her bedroom by just cooking some of her favorites well, hindi ko ito magagawa kung hindi sinabi sakin ni Juanita ang gusto ng asawa ko, hindi ko tuloy mapigilang isipin na tanungin siya noon kung ano ang mga gusto niya at mga paborito niyang kainin, heaving a sigh seeing her right now I wanted to make it right, biting my lower lip and keeping my eyes unnoticed by her and just showing off my skill in kitchen.Pero natigilan ako sa pag lagay ng gulay dahil gulat akong hindi nakagalaw at hindi ko iniexpect na bigla niyang alisin ang space sa aming dalawa, nang bigyan niya ako ng hindi ko inaasahang yakap mula sa likod ko.Her hug is enough for me to recharge, shutting off the stove at hinarap ko siya saakin, I saw her look away when our eyes meet but I only hold her chin for her to look at me in the eyes.I wan
Last night is the best night I ever had in my life with my wife, just thinking of it, maybe I've been drooling right now but all I could do is imagine her face and how she moan my name in the four corners of our room.Her moan is so hot that makes me want her more and more, she even whisper to me that she love me and miss me so damn much. Remembering her face that she make is more deliriously delicious that I can't even control my self to move harder into her.That evening when I request for a quicky from her I thought I might be rejected, kailangan ko pa talagang pilitin siya mapa-Oo ko lang talaga. Pero we got more than just a quicky dahil inumaga na kami at halos tanghali na umalis sa kama at kumain sa kusina. I can't even blink an eye because of that night and I could'nt forget it either. But immediately ruined it by someone and that is the one who's been talking infront, the representator of the day is none other than that Amera the only daughter of Merging company. She's talki
Not easy to argue with a hormonal wife mas tumindi pa yata ang pagkamuhi niya sakin ngayon, I thought okay na kami ayos lang ang relasyon namin bilang mag asawa pero di ko naman inaasahan na biglang bubundol sakin ang mga sinabi niya.Fuck! I have high hopes that she crushed down!And it is freakin' hurt to the bone, I order another liquor and drunk it on the bottle in one go hindi ko nalang pinansin ang mga babaeng lumalapit sakin I don't want them to touch me or talk to me, I just want my wife to talk to me tenderly like when she's not in that attitude.She's sweet and kind loving wife a perfect housewife I have but when it comes to her attitude now I think she was like a time bomb that anytime we argue or just a tiny bit of something or somewhat happen she immidiately blow up like the fucking explosive device."What do we have here, lumulubog ang barko natin a""Hahaha you look like a wreck ship at the bottom of the pacific ocean""More like a titanic na binangga ang ice berg""Shu
My wife Georgina is with me here at our house matapos ko siyang piliting sumama sakin at ipangakong hindi ko na uulitin ang mga ginawa ko noon sa kanya.I thought she can easily obey to me but no nakailang pilit ako sa kanya mapapayag lang siya specially may kondisyon pa siyang sinabi sakin.And that is she wants her freedom as a wife that made me give her that even if I'm the one's going to lose and think na baka iwan niya ako but I trust her and thank her that she give me a chance to be a husband to her.And looking at her right now with her friends and relatives that came up to this party, her party.She's laughing freely but the elegant and sophisticated mannerism is always there that made me smile on how she's doing a great job to hide her mood swings nowadays I look at her stomach that showing a little bit because of our baby's growing, showing it up to our friends made me smile even more."You look like an idiot""Says who?"We just laughed around while drinking beer outside wh
I'm cooking breakfast ng makita kong pinaglalaruan lang ni Georgina ang pancakes niya."Hon, are you alright?""No, I wanted to eat so bad but I just throw it all up later and I'm so sad I would cry" she sniff then started to cry I just turn off the stove and hug her."Shh.. It's okay hon, we can eat outside if you want""No, no I'm okay hon I just want some water or coffee? Oh, my head spinning"Noticing her nausea again in this morning again troubling me big time, I argue with her to go on her OB(obstetrician) together with me but she refuse and she wanted to be all alone to go on her check ups."Gusto ko ng sumama sa susunod mong check ups, please Georgina I wanted to know what to do to help you with that I'm dying to help you hon, hindi ka naman ang mag isang gumawa niyang baby natin diba?"Namula siya sa sinabi ko at nagmomog sa lababo bago sakin lumapit habang nagpupunas ng bibig saka ako hampasin sa braso."Ah! your being sadist now" she's been like this nowadays and she's too