Chapter 15: Alpha's regret

River POV;

Just minutes before midnight, I awoke to complete darkness but the shining digits and hands of the wall clock. My head was foggy, but I recognized the bed, the smell, and the warmth of the room. I was back in my cell-of-bedroom. Back as a prisoner. Throughout my life, I had never felt so helpless and lonely.

I remember when my mother died, I felt that my world would end but the thought of not giving up honoring my mother kept me going. The feeling I felt being back in this bed against my will was nothing like that. Though, it was much uglier. I felt like I just let myself down, failed to protect myself, failed to honor my mother, and live the life she wanted for me.

For the first time, I felt regret. Regret not listening to my sister, she really wanted to keep me safe and protected but I never wanted safe. Safe was boring. I had to be adventurous and stuck my nose in every adrenaline-kicking experience. I regret helping Antonio because if I didn’t, I would be safe with my