Chapter 5

Avery was that kind of friend that we wouldn’t talk for weeks or months at a time. But the second we did, it was like no time had passed.

“THAT PIECE OF SHIT DID WHAT?!?!”

She and Jared always got along, but as a typical best friend she was always on my side and looking out for my interests. She wasn’t afraid to call him out if or when needed. She never did like that he partied so much. But it was honestly part of his job and never bothered me. It wasn’t always like that. We were together before he got the big job. He was always down to Earth and treated me well… I guess up until the part that he cheated on me.

“Look Becca, I know you haven’t had time to process all of this. But trust and loyalty are HUGE to you. I can’t imagine that this doesn’t change everything for you.” She was right. How could I trust him after this? I don’t know if I could.

“I just don’t know what to do Aves. I have two choices here. Forgive him and we live out our happily ever after OR I don’t forgive him and I have to piece myself together after this mess.” I left out the proposal part of tonight since it just seemed extra sad at this point.

“Becca, just tell him you need time. If he knows you at all, he will understand. You aren’t someone who really makes careless decisions. You have a thought process.” And she was right. Calling Avery was definitely the right decision. She can talk sense into me when I don’t seem to have any at all.

We hung up the phone.

I had even more voice messages on my phone than before. I decided to not listen to them.. but I would call Jared. I needed to tell him I needed time and space.

It took everything I had to type his name into my phone to call him. Every second that passed by made me realize how angry I was with him…how much he hurt me especially knowing what has happened in my past.

I pushed the call button. It barely rang once before he picked up.

“Where are you? I’ve been looking everywhere for you. Did you get my messages?? Jared paused waiting for an answer.

“I seen your messages, but I have not listened to them yet. Jared, I honestly just need some time and space to think about everything.” There. I said it. It wasn’t that hard.

“Becca, I’m so sorry. Please just let me come and I can explain this more and we can maybe work this out. You have no idea how sorry I truly am.”

His words sounded like ice to me.

“I need space.” I calmly but firmly said again.

The line got quiet. It seemed like minutes passed by.

“Aright.” Jared said. “But please know that I do love you, truly.”

“I know.” I spoke softly. “Bye Jared.”

I hung up the phone. I started to cry again.