Chapter 2: Fateful Encounter

Chapter 2: Fateful Encounter

“I have set out to fulfill that mission. To find an unsuspecting baby Daddy, that is why I’ve been in this bar for the past hour, this has been the third bar for tonigh and it is the fifth week, I am losing hope, I realized that planning is easy but executing the plan is different level of difficult.I am not used to this environment, flirting is not something I know how to do,those who approach me just doesn’t fit the bill and they are too drunk, they remind me of my father, full of ego,and drunk, it is starting to feel like this is not the right".

I have spent quite a lot of effort already and not a single guy, is pleasant enough for me, this plan has become a total joke, what was I thinking? I was willing to act like a pick up girl to get what I want? But I was willing to do it just once if I find the perfect man, I will do it. But will the one I chose would want me? I am not as desirable as the young girls in the club, I don’t giggle like they do, I buy my own drinks, refused anyone who offers me a drink or company, I have dismissed a few already tonight, they might be thinking i am weird already, i am feeling so out of place being in a place like this. I am starting to realize that I am looking for a specimen that doesn’t exist. It’s looking more and more that the experiment will not be successful. My hope is fading little by little, my feeling of embarrassment is growing greater by the second. I feel hopelessness growing inside me. I knew this was wrong from the very start. Maybe i was too confident in my selfand at the same time  too desperate to think it would work and I’ll be able to do it”.

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She had now come to a point of hopelessness after many attempts in the past few nights she’d been trying, all she had gotten from attending this places are people who reminded her of her dad. She is thinking now that she must have chosen the wrong place to execute her plan, but where on earth would she be able to do something like this? this time she is at the point of giving up, she is at the point of accepting that the plan has failed, she will now need to convince herself that maybe this is not for her she will have to start accepting that she will indeed grow alone. And just watch her friends be happy with their own family someday.

Feeling dreadful about the out come of her planning, she decided that tonight is going to be the final night she is going to do this, but she is not going to end it and just give up just like that, she is gonna fail with a big bang, she decide to order stronger drinks and decided that though she did not accomplish anything it doesnt mean she can't celebrate anything!she will go ahead and celebrate this failure. And maybe if she gets drunk enough she will forget about it.

And so she did! As she drinks away, an intense feeling of loneliness suddenly overcame her, it grasped her heart, and she felt the sorrow of  letting go of her dream, a baby of her own will never come true now. And it is her fault, she can blame his dad for everything as much as she wants, but this is her life she should be able to control it and have her way, and have the result she desired the future she dreams of. He could have have tried trusting someone and gave them a chance, she knows not everyone is like her father, she had a few relationships in the past, they were good people, but she never made an effort to try because she was already contented with what she has and just doesn’t allow herself to trust them, he sees his dad in every guy who tries to be close to her and win her over, maybe if she tried harder she could have had at least a single successful relationship and maybe even married. But her mom and her friends were enough for her already, but now her mom is gone, and it seems like her closest friends are gonna go too very soon.

She did not realize by now tears are streaming down her cheeks, and the booze is filling her up, she has not drink that much but she is not used to drinking, so somehow a little amount is getting her drunk too easily. That she can no longer feel the flowing tears on her cheeks anymore. The bar tender approached her and asked if she could be of any assistance, and that woke her up from the trance that she was in, feeling fully embarrassed by her state she tried to smile and wiped her face very quickly. And offered to pay the tab. She gathered herself up and started towards the door where she was gonna go order a taxi cab from the attendant, when suddenly the world around her started spinning she tried to grab on to something

but she ended flailing her hands in the air and she was going down face first, when suddenly a strong arm grabbed her by the waist and helped her get on her feet.

The guy was speaking to her and she could hardly comprehend his words, his hearing is already altered, he seems to be talking in a tunnel, but his face is really handsome a little blurry but handsome

she tried to say something but what came out were slurry sounds.

The guy started to lead her outside and into a car, he was talking to her the whole time, but she couldn’t form proper words in her mouth anymore, she is starting to feel weird, so she closed her eyes. She heard an engine start, and she couldn’t care anymore.