Somewhere on the Past

Despite what I said about him being a constant shadow in my life, he left me out there to decide for myself whether I would stay and wander around or go in and continue sharing my stay there with him. This choice was not difficult. Then I felt cold. A cold that only Gabriel could warm. Only the warmth of his arms could bring comfort to my anguished heart. I went in looking for him and found him in the shower. Even after our misunderstanding I felt free to open the door. I stood in the doorway and watched him, naked, soaping his body on his back. When he realized my presence he turned and faced me. I undressed without any shame, although I had never acted like this in my life. With him I felt free to be natural. I came closer. He looked at me with desire. I knew that I tried at all costs to evade his feelings, but it was a losing war. And that made me feel special. He wouldn't take just anyone to live in his house. This thought made some images go through my head, but I didn't concent