Chapter 109 : Month— Nine

Chrisanna

You know what's the worst part of this phase? I know every bit of change happening in my body and my mind but people around me— who love me— are trying their best to hide those changes I may not see but feel.

I snuggle into Samuel's arms after breaking the kiss and exhaling deeply as his grip tightens. I feel his heart racing, faster than ever.

He thinks I didn't notice anything. But I did feel everything. I felt the sudden change in his voice which he tried to hide. I felt his hands suddenly moving more gently than ever as if he was scared to touch my hair, as if he feared the more he'll mess with them the more they'll come out. He thinks he can prevent them from falling anymore. Maybe. But he can't.

I know everything. I feel everything.

I feel him. He can't hide. He can't lie.

"You're feeling well? We can cancel the date if you want to", he asks me, squeezing my shoulders gently.

"No. I wanna go"

"You sure"

"Hmm", I lift my head and smile at him.

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We spent the rest of