ALANA’S POV
For one, I definitely did not have a weak wolf, and even though his wolf was stronger than mine by an arm’s length, I could still put up a fight with him.
Most of time when Lucian was too busy for me, I was usually at the training fields with Caleb. He was a Gamma and third in command to the Alpha, Lucian, and was my best friend, the only one who had ever stood up for me all through.
Right from when it was Lucian, me, him and Diana, he’s always been my anchor, and I wouldn’t replace him for anyone else in the world.
So If Lucian thinks he’s going to bully me again and force me into doing what I didn’t feel comfortable with, he better think again because I will rather die by his hands instead.
I could see the surprise in his eyes at my retort before he quickly concealed it with anger, leaving me stunned as to why I had never bothered to look into his eyes to let his real feelings give him away there.
He suddenly grabbed my neck and forced my head to the wall, my chin raised, my chest heaving as I felt his hot breath down on my neck.
His aura was imminent and I felt my knees grow weak at the intense gaze emanating from his deadly eyes, but I still stood my ground.
“Do I need to remind you who I am and who you are… “
I laugh, finding everything quite humorous.
For years, I had thought that we would actually get along and he would learn to love me. For eight years. Eight years. And he happened to get Diana pregnant. He had given me so many signs that he didn’t love me and never will, but tonight proved that he had been serious, and I was so stupid to have wasted eight years of my life loving someone who would never love me back.
I saw another expression flash across his eyes as he stepped back, away from me, his gaze still trained on my face as I lean away from the wall, still chuckling with a bitter expression on my face, rubbing my neck which now had the mark of his claws around.
“I know who you are Lucian…” I said, raising my head to lock eyes with him, seeing how hard he tried to conceal the real expression in his eyes, but I had seen the shock, probably at my reaction. He was really expecting me to be easily manipulated and intimidated into conceding to such an abomination, wasn’t he?
“You are my mate and I am your Luna,” he looked like he wanted to say something, but I cut in, clearly letting him know I wasn’t finished yet. “Your ONLY Luna. It’s always been one Luna to one Alpha, and that’s how it’s going to be Lucian.”
“Diana is pregnant with my child… “ He growled threateningly, and I swear I just want wanted to skid out of the place and into my room which I considered a safe haven, but I wasn’t going to just avoid this topic. He was planning on making Diana his second Luna. My face was already in the mud, how much farther did he plan on embarrassing me?
“You don’t see me getting younger these days do you Alana? I need an heir. I need someone to pass down the Alpha bloodline to.”
“And you decided to make Diana birth your heir?” I asked in a careful tone like I was trying to understand what he was saying. So what was I? A freaking goddamn pencil?
“Eight years Alana, and what do you have to show for it? Not a single child in this house! You’re not even pregnant, Alana.”
“Oh excuse me for not getting pregnant out of the blue when you haven’t even touched me in the past three years. I had vibrators and other stuff like that to help me reach climax since my mate wasn’t willing to even share a room with me!” I yell at the top of my voice, and I suddenly slammed my hand over my mouth when I realized what I said, seeing the horrified look he shot me.
Fuck.
Me and my big mouth. But I shrugged internally. What was I supposed to do when I was horny or in heat and Lucian wasn’t willing to touch me? I couldn’t die out of sexual frustration, could I?
There was awkward silence In the room after that, and I bit my lip, for the first time, silently urging him to say something. The tension in the room was so thick, I could cut through It with a knife.
“We’ve been intimate before Alana. Not once, not twice, not thrice and yet…”
“Five times” I suddenly said, cutting him half way through his sentence. That usually annoyed him when I did that, but tonight it was like I had mixed barcadi, tequila and vodka and drank them all together, and I wasn’t afraid of death any more. Nothing could be more painful than hearing your best friend had stabbed you in the back at your most vunerable moment.
“What?” With a frown, he asked.
I raised my hand with a painful smirk in my face.
“We’ve fucked five times Lucian. And the last time was three years ago.”
“That’s not….”
“The first time was basically for fulfilling all righteousness for the mate ritual, and the other four, I had to literally drop to my knees naked and beg you to fuck me. The second and third were from behind, and you left me there without a release, and the fourth one, you were drunk and I used that to my advantage… The fifth one happened to be on my birthday last three years which you forgot, but I got down on my knees, horny and begging to just fuck me for a minute, and that was what you did Lucian..”
Lucian just stared at me with his mouth open like I had broke to him the most shocking news ever and he was finding it quite hard to believe, but yet it was still true and he couldn’t deny it.
“Admit it. You just didn’t want me bearing your child because you hate me!”
ALANA’S POVWhen I couldn’t get a word out of Lucian, I just shook my head.“I’m so stupid ..” the tears which I had been trying really hard to hold in causally rolled down my cheeks. “I’m so stupid ..” I whispered again, this time, a pained chuckle escaping my lips as I turn away to leave.This time, Lucian doesn’t follow me, and when I reach the stairs, about to climb up, I turn to see Lucian still standing there, his eyes fixed on me.“Diana will bear her child out of wedlock, because she will not and can never be your Luna.”I don’t wait for a reaction and I turn and skidded upstairs, my hands gripping the railings tight.I was so blinded by the tears in my eyes that I don’t see where exactly I was headed to until I bump into someone.Sniffing, I rub my eyes and my eyes grew cold seeing Diana standing there, wondering what she was doing on my floor.The worry in her eyes sickened me, and I so badly wanted to give her a piece of my mind, but I respected the fact that she was pregna
LUCIAN’S POVI was sitting down in the dining room, wondering if the person I had just had a conversation with was still the same Alana I knew. The timid, vunerable, intimidated woman who crouched before me In fear.I thought this conversation would go a lot smoother than I thought. Break the news to her, get her to concede to Diana being the second Luna and that was it. I didn’t expect that she’d straight up snap at me. I could see the rage burning in her eyes and it was then I realized she had probably taken a stand on her decision and was not going to make Diana, Luna.For the first time tonight, I actually found myself questioning my actions towards Alana these past few years. The part about vibrators stunned me to the bone marrow. I was bound to get horny, and I usually wanked off or spent the night with Diana. I had assumed Alana might have hooked up with other guys behind my back. Not that I cared, but I felt a funny tug in my heart when she blurted out that for three years str
LUCIAN’S POVI freeze and turn when I felt a soft, small hand wrapped around mine, sending soothing shivers up my spine.My eyes met with Diana’s obsidian black eyes before she patted the back of my palm tenderly.“You know how Alana can be when she’s angry.. so please let her be. I’m sure she’ll be over it by tomorrow.”“She knows you’re pregnant and the first thing she tries to do is kill you? Do you think that’s forgiveable Diana? I could have lost you and the baby or either one of you.”Diana looked horrified, and I was sure she hadn’t known that Alana knew about us or about her pregnancy until now.“H- how did she find out.” Her voice was now a hushed whisper, like she was expecting Alana to step out of the shadows.“I had to tell her, Diana. Remember the meeting with the elders? I can’t have you bear my child out of wedlock.”“Well, with how things went with you two, I don’t think she’s willing to accept me as her co-Luna.” Diana shrugged dejectedly and that fueled up the hate a
ALANA'S POVMy eyes widened on meeting his, and he happened to see how shocked and frightened I was, because the moment I scooched back against the door, he leaned back. I turned to see what I was sitting up against, and when I saw the door, It brought back so many memories that I ended up covering my face in embarassment. He must have seen the tears and must have realized that I'm just a pathetic person who's strong on the outside and pretended not to be hurt by his actions, when I actually come into my room to bitch and mourn over him. "Are you okay? I was worried when I wanted to come in and check in on you, so I followed through the window… " I blinked when I heard him speak, and just for a second, I pinched myself internally to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Maybe it was Caleb but I was just visualizing him as Lucian. But it's not like I was blind. I could clearly see Lucian kneeling right Infront of me with worry in his eyes as he looked at me, probably waiting for an answer.
ALANA'S POV "Apologize? Did we fight?" I chuckle like I was crazy as I said to him. Help me moon goddess, I had already forgotten everything that had happened Tonight. He looked at me warily like I had already gone mad, but soon, he led me to the bed, and I giggle like a high school girl as I drop down on my back while he held me down and pulled my shoes off. Once he was done, I lay there and watched as he stood over me and began taking off his shirt. It was so mighty darn attractive watching my muscles flex without any effort as he drew the shirt down his body and tossed it to the ground. And the way his muscular contours contracted.. fuck! I was getting wet staring at him already.Arghh! I hated him so much.. why did he have to be so handsome and have such an amazing body I knew I couldn't have because he didn't even like me. I could have the best figure in the world and he wouldn't be attracted to me. "Lucian… " I suddenly call out, dramatically placing my hand against my fore
ALANA'S POVHe tried to pull me back, but I drew closer with a smirk on my face. "Hey… you wanted to spend the night here with me right? So what's the big deal if I want us to fuck right now?" "Alana, you're drunk.. " "And horny.. " I cut in abruptly. "what? Are you nervous? Are you worried that what we're doing is considered cheating since you have a another woman who is pregnant with your child.. " He tried to speak, but I placed a finger against his lips with my lips pouted as I whispered. "Shhh… you don't have to say anything." I drew my hand down and slowly leaned forward so that our lips were barely an inch apart, my eyes slowly scanned him right from his dark blue eyes down to his lips. "This can be our little secret okay?" And without warning, I grad the back of his neck and pull him in closer for a kiss, taking him off guard. When I finally got a taste of his lips again which I had gotten a taste of on very rare occasions, I exploded. My wetness was running down my legs
Alana’s POVMy eyes were awaken by the sudden ray of the sun that bounced off my face, I placed my hand over my eyes while trying to adjust to the sudden brightness that filled my room,I rolled to the other end of my bed and just as I had thought Lucian had left me after such a good night, I began to wonder if I was a fool to let him have sex with me but then again I enjoyed every moment of his fingers caressing my clitros and the feeling of his dick filling the void of my pussy that I had long to fill.“Hey beautiful.” I was stunned at whose voice I heard and the word that was said, I turned in shock, I was shocked that my nose did not just pick up his scent from the surroundings. “My love how was your night?!.” He asked, my eyes fluttering in shock, was this some kind of a dream?!, or was it a nightmare that was going to turn bad the moment I believed or was it true?.“Are you okay?!.” He approached me, I watched him walk in slow motion. It was like my wildest dream was coming alive
Alana’s POVWe arrived at the river bank and a picnic was set up, I could already see them both fallin all over each other, my stomach grumble loudly, I could tell I was hungry and at the same time I was angry to see her with him.I walked ahead of them and took the best spot as my sit .“Alana, can you please move to the side so Diana can sit there?!.” My eyes widened. What was this?.A date for both of them?.“She can sit elsewhere.” I frowned at him and rolled my eyes.“No she can’t!!.” His beast was growling at me loudly, my head spinned and began to ache.I may have been with them physically but my mind was far away as I meditated on what Caleb had said, maybe he was right, maybe I shouldn’t be here, what if this was all a set up?. With thoughts swimming in my head see and my mind collapsing and restructuring; I could not find the possible answer to all my thoughts, my wolf was restless just as I was.‘I hope I am not in the lion's den.’ I thought.“Alanna…, Alanna!!.” I heard th