ALANA’S POV
When I couldn’t get a word out of Lucian, I just shook my head.
“I’m so stupid ..” the tears which I had been trying really hard to hold in causally rolled down my cheeks. “I’m so stupid ..” I whispered again, this time, a pained chuckle escaping my lips as I turn away to leave.
This time, Lucian doesn’t follow me, and when I reach the stairs, about to climb up, I turn to see Lucian still standing there, his eyes fixed on me.
“Diana will bear her child out of wedlock, because she will not and can never be your Luna.”
I don’t wait for a reaction and I turn and skidded upstairs, my hands gripping the railings tight.
I was so blinded by the tears in my eyes that I don’t see where exactly I was headed to until I bump into someone.
Sniffing, I rub my eyes and my eyes grew cold seeing Diana standing there, wondering what she was doing on my floor.
The worry in her eyes sickened me, and I so badly wanted to give her a piece of my mind, but I respected the fact that she was pregnant and only intended to side step her and go my way without speaking to her.
“Is it Lucian?” She asked In a whisper, looking into my teary eyes which concealed the genuine hate I habored for her.
I pull my arm from her grip.
“Why do you even care?” I snap at her, realizing that she probably didn’t know I knew her dirty secret was out and that she was the reason I had tears in my eyes.
She sure as hell looked confused at the 360° change of attitude towards her, but I wasn’t sure I wanted to tell her I knew of her pregnancy. I wanted to know just how far she’ll go to keep me in the dark like a fool while pretending she cared about me and Lucian.
Well, I knew who she genuinely cared for now.
“I care because we’re best friends, Alana. What’s wrong? What did Lucian say to you? Did he hit you again?”
I just pushed her away with the side of my arm before walking off, holding in the anger brimming in me like a larva boiling in a volcano, about to erupt. And I feared I might badly hurt Diana if I stayed more than a second with her at that moment.
She-wolfs were mostly vunerable when they were pregnant because they’ll be unable to shift and they’ll need to rest most of the time they were pregnant in other not to stress the baby. Out of ten pregnant she-wolves in labor, only three survived, which showed how crucial it was to ensure a pregnant she wolf did not go through the slightest stress, emotionally, physically or mentally.
I hated Diana now, and I hated she had a baby for Lucian, but I would never stoop so low to hurt the baby growing inside of her because it had done nothing to me. And honestly, that would just be stooping low. Even for someone like me- I could never go that far.
When I enter my room, I shut the door behind me before dropping to the floor, my back sliding against the door as I let all my tears out, my eyes like a well which let out over flowing water from its mouth.
My heart ached so much that I wanted to wring it out my chest and throw it away. But what use will it be if I died now? Lucian would not even shed a single tear. I doubt he would even notice me until after some weeks when I must have rottened up. He’d be happy- obviously, and make Diana his Luna without hesistation, marking and claiming her like he supposed to do to me but didn’t. And they’d have the baby and live happily ever after.
Tears dropping down to my hands which I held out Infront of me, palms facing the sky, I whispered.
“Of all the people to torture… Why me, moon goddess? Why did you have to make someone like him my fated mate? Why did you have to ruin my life? Have I really done anything to you?” My sobs got louder and I just didn’t care if everyone in the mansion heard me. I was so fucking tired of pretending like everything was okay when it was not. “If I have, then I’m sorry. Just please end this. I’m tired. I’m tired of being the stupid, used, under rated pawn in the chess game. I’m tired of being made a fool out of.”
But as usual, I was left with the silence in my room. I would be surprised if the moon goddess had even said anything. She never did. Legends say she watches down on us from the moon, and everything she did, she did for a reason, but how could she stay up there and watch all these things happening to me and not even say a word about it?
I had believe the moon goddess was in existence, and I had prayed to her to give me a mate who would and cherish me, who would accept all my flaws and not even dare to look at another woman behind my back.
But now, I doubted her existence. I doubted if she was even real in the first place because I hated her. I hated her for giving me a mate like Lucian. Couldn’t she see that Lucian already loved someone else? Couldn’t she have made them mates? Why was I so unlucky?
Did the moon goddess just enjoy torturing me this way? Did she mistake me for Diana or something? Wasn’t she as great as Legends had said?
Tears in my eyes, I didn’t know when I slept off, still leaning against my door.
All night I dreamt about Lucian and Diana standing side by side, ludicrous, evil smirks on their faces as they watched me burn in raging flames.
LUCIAN’S POVI was sitting down in the dining room, wondering if the person I had just had a conversation with was still the same Alana I knew. The timid, vunerable, intimidated woman who crouched before me In fear.I thought this conversation would go a lot smoother than I thought. Break the news to her, get her to concede to Diana being the second Luna and that was it. I didn’t expect that she’d straight up snap at me. I could see the rage burning in her eyes and it was then I realized she had probably taken a stand on her decision and was not going to make Diana, Luna.For the first time tonight, I actually found myself questioning my actions towards Alana these past few years. The part about vibrators stunned me to the bone marrow. I was bound to get horny, and I usually wanked off or spent the night with Diana. I had assumed Alana might have hooked up with other guys behind my back. Not that I cared, but I felt a funny tug in my heart when she blurted out that for three years str
LUCIAN’S POVI freeze and turn when I felt a soft, small hand wrapped around mine, sending soothing shivers up my spine.My eyes met with Diana’s obsidian black eyes before she patted the back of my palm tenderly.“You know how Alana can be when she’s angry.. so please let her be. I’m sure she’ll be over it by tomorrow.”“She knows you’re pregnant and the first thing she tries to do is kill you? Do you think that’s forgiveable Diana? I could have lost you and the baby or either one of you.”Diana looked horrified, and I was sure she hadn’t known that Alana knew about us or about her pregnancy until now.“H- how did she find out.” Her voice was now a hushed whisper, like she was expecting Alana to step out of the shadows.“I had to tell her, Diana. Remember the meeting with the elders? I can’t have you bear my child out of wedlock.”“Well, with how things went with you two, I don’t think she’s willing to accept me as her co-Luna.” Diana shrugged dejectedly and that fueled up the hate a
ALANA'S POVMy eyes widened on meeting his, and he happened to see how shocked and frightened I was, because the moment I scooched back against the door, he leaned back. I turned to see what I was sitting up against, and when I saw the door, It brought back so many memories that I ended up covering my face in embarassment. He must have seen the tears and must have realized that I'm just a pathetic person who's strong on the outside and pretended not to be hurt by his actions, when I actually come into my room to bitch and mourn over him. "Are you okay? I was worried when I wanted to come in and check in on you, so I followed through the window… " I blinked when I heard him speak, and just for a second, I pinched myself internally to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Maybe it was Caleb but I was just visualizing him as Lucian. But it's not like I was blind. I could clearly see Lucian kneeling right Infront of me with worry in his eyes as he looked at me, probably waiting for an answer.
ALANA'S POV "Apologize? Did we fight?" I chuckle like I was crazy as I said to him. Help me moon goddess, I had already forgotten everything that had happened Tonight. He looked at me warily like I had already gone mad, but soon, he led me to the bed, and I giggle like a high school girl as I drop down on my back while he held me down and pulled my shoes off. Once he was done, I lay there and watched as he stood over me and began taking off his shirt. It was so mighty darn attractive watching my muscles flex without any effort as he drew the shirt down his body and tossed it to the ground. And the way his muscular contours contracted.. fuck! I was getting wet staring at him already.Arghh! I hated him so much.. why did he have to be so handsome and have such an amazing body I knew I couldn't have because he didn't even like me. I could have the best figure in the world and he wouldn't be attracted to me. "Lucian… " I suddenly call out, dramatically placing my hand against my fore
ALANA'S POVHe tried to pull me back, but I drew closer with a smirk on my face. "Hey… you wanted to spend the night here with me right? So what's the big deal if I want us to fuck right now?" "Alana, you're drunk.. " "And horny.. " I cut in abruptly. "what? Are you nervous? Are you worried that what we're doing is considered cheating since you have a another woman who is pregnant with your child.. " He tried to speak, but I placed a finger against his lips with my lips pouted as I whispered. "Shhh… you don't have to say anything." I drew my hand down and slowly leaned forward so that our lips were barely an inch apart, my eyes slowly scanned him right from his dark blue eyes down to his lips. "This can be our little secret okay?" And without warning, I grad the back of his neck and pull him in closer for a kiss, taking him off guard. When I finally got a taste of his lips again which I had gotten a taste of on very rare occasions, I exploded. My wetness was running down my legs
Alana’s POVMy eyes were awaken by the sudden ray of the sun that bounced off my face, I placed my hand over my eyes while trying to adjust to the sudden brightness that filled my room,I rolled to the other end of my bed and just as I had thought Lucian had left me after such a good night, I began to wonder if I was a fool to let him have sex with me but then again I enjoyed every moment of his fingers caressing my clitros and the feeling of his dick filling the void of my pussy that I had long to fill.“Hey beautiful.” I was stunned at whose voice I heard and the word that was said, I turned in shock, I was shocked that my nose did not just pick up his scent from the surroundings. “My love how was your night?!.” He asked, my eyes fluttering in shock, was this some kind of a dream?!, or was it a nightmare that was going to turn bad the moment I believed or was it true?.“Are you okay?!.” He approached me, I watched him walk in slow motion. It was like my wildest dream was coming alive
Alana’s POVWe arrived at the river bank and a picnic was set up, I could already see them both fallin all over each other, my stomach grumble loudly, I could tell I was hungry and at the same time I was angry to see her with him.I walked ahead of them and took the best spot as my sit .“Alana, can you please move to the side so Diana can sit there?!.” My eyes widened. What was this?.A date for both of them?.“She can sit elsewhere.” I frowned at him and rolled my eyes.“No she can’t!!.” His beast was growling at me loudly, my head spinned and began to ache.I may have been with them physically but my mind was far away as I meditated on what Caleb had said, maybe he was right, maybe I shouldn’t be here, what if this was all a set up?. With thoughts swimming in my head see and my mind collapsing and restructuring; I could not find the possible answer to all my thoughts, my wolf was restless just as I was.‘I hope I am not in the lion's den.’ I thought.“Alanna…, Alanna!!.” I heard th
Alana's POVIt has been two days since I got thrown out like a thief from the pack where my mate was supposed to lead.Lucian didn't even look twice at me as I was hauled out; worse still was the one I had once taken pride in and called my best friend.My crime was going in search of people that would help him after she had thrown him in there.The more I thought of what had happened that day the more suspicious it looked.Lucien was happy with me, he acted so calm and cool…I had my suspicions but then the shitty mate bond made me let my guard down.Tears spilled down freely from my eyes like they had done ever since my status was changed from the Luna of my pack to a rogue on the run.Never have I felt this lonely in life, the hate and betrayal still stung like hell. Being overthrown by the pack that I was supposed to rule as their Luna.No one even believed me, no one even stared at me twice and gave me a reassuring smile.Even Lucian, the one I was supposed to call my Mate, the one