Chapter 5

I look around before stepping out in my house. Every day, I feel like someone's watching me, my every move. It's very uncomfortable and scary at the same time.

I don't know the motive of my so called frankster. Every day, means every box that was loaded of my pictures and pictures and pictures!

It affected my every day life...

As I got to work I remembered the day that I saw the man...

I know, I saw that smirk already, I just can't recall exactly whom I saw it.

As the hours passed by, everyone's just talking about the Anniversary Ball of the company. They're very excited about what will happen and excited to show off their best gowns and dresses.

While me, I am getting scared because I know that someone was following my every step. I hope that it wont affect my daily routine.

The dress that I received is still here... I don't know what to do with it, I don't have plan to attend but my guts telling me to go. And I don't know why.

No one's touching the box, maybe one of them is the frankster, no one's talking about it.

I look at the box and sigh deeply. I don't really know what to do.

It's now my out, it's very tiring because I did all their works again! My back hurts, my stomach's aching because I'm very hungry.

I'm planning to eat at the 7/11 again. Just cup noodles and siopao! Shit, it's been a long time since I last ate a siopao. It's my favorite...

I sat on the nearest chair and wait for my noodles to cook and eat my siopao. I even closed my eyes when the food touches my tongue, it's heaven dude...

Suddenly, I felt the shiver run down my spine.

He's here.

Shit he's here!

I look around and stands up. I need to get out of here, no, I want to get out of here! I want to go home and crawl on my bed. My home is the only safe place for me...

I was about to step when I felt a sharp object pointing at my waist, it's only a second when I realized what is it.

It's a knife... Much smaller

My body got froze and I can't breath properly... Shit... Help me, help me please.

Suddenly an arms encircled around my waist, because of the closeness, I could feel his body in my back.

It's a he.

My hands become sweaty when he sniff my hair.

He's crazy!!

Why don't I see someone aside from us?!

Why's no one's here?!

Where's the guard? Where is he?

I wanted to move, but I can't, everytime I tried, he's pointing the knife harder on me.

It lasted a minute when he releases me, I thought I could see his face when he pointed the object again to me.

"Don't you dare look at me... Just be an obedient baby and go home hmm? " His voice is husky but I know, something's wrong. Maybe he's using a voice changer.

Even his scent, I can't smell it! Why?! Why can't I pick a small identification to know him?!

He releases me again but whispered that don't look back and just walk calmly and naturally.

He even said that don't forget to eat my food.

I don't know what to do, what to think, and what to say!

My body and mind's still in shock!

Who wouldn't, right?

Someone just harassed me in public! He even threatened my life in pointing a sharp object in me!

My god... What's happening to my life?

Why... Why couldn't I live normally, like... Others.

I'm dying to experience that and now!

I don't really know what to think.

Is he crazy? Or on drugs?

Can't he see that I'm ugly...

Why he did that to me…?

Does it fun to make fun of me?

Suddenly... My eyes got watered and my tears just rolled down my cheeks.

All I want is to got home and lay on my bed...

I wish that this is just a nightmare...

This kind of scenario, it's not normal, I need someone to comfort me telling me that it'll be alright and I'm safe now...

Funny how miserable my life is. Being bullied in my work, being harassed and having a frankster pervert stalker I guess.

I need a family right now but I don't have any except from my cousin. She is the only one I have but she's far.

Will someone love me for who I am? Because deep inside I'm dying to be treated as human and hoping to be accepted.

And I know, my only wish won't happen. I am unacceptable, ugly and I don't belong with anything...

Now, my only wish for you my lord is to grant this wish of mine. Let me vanish. I want to leave this place that full of judgement without knowing who they're judging.

I want to vanish...