Chapter 28

I know, what I did to Monica was not acceptable. Until now, the guilt that I'm feeling is still lingering inside of me. Am I really violent? Does my reason valid for doing it to her? I nearly killed her, Bullet told me.

After I lose my consciousness, I opened my eyes in the hospital room. Just the sound of the machine, snore of someone. I looked around me as I seek for someone I want to see. I want to see Bullet. I want him beside me…

After remembering what I have done, my tears fell. I didn't know that I can be that violent with someone. I know, she did to me was horrible, it's a sex video, it's not a joke but what I did to her was monstrous. Maybe I'm not really valid to be called human.

Did I regret beating her up? Yes and no. I just want her to know that I'm not the Milda she knew. I can fight for myself too. But I over do it, I'd let my emotions eat me and take control of my mind.

I sniff. "God… Sorry for doing it. I know that my reasons will never be valid to do that to her…