I sighed then looked at the clock hanging in the wall of my apartment.Should I go? But why would I? No one's expecting me there...Oh there's Bullet! But I don't know if he's serious.Who would want me to be their companion, I'm useless.I made up my mind, I wouldn't go, I don't wanna.Monica will be happy for sure, but my stalker, geez, such a huge word. I don't know if he will be there or who he is, I'm afraid but if let them play me, I just confirmed that I'm such a loser that indeed true.I prepared myself to go to work, the venues at the hotel owned by the boss, we are just working half a day today because of the event.I sighed when I received a box, I'm just thankful that I'm a little bit accustomed to what's happening.Just picture and letters, sometimes, I just found myself smiling while reading one of the letter. There's a fear in me but I can't help to appreciate my senders gift everyday.I combed my curly hair while waiting for the elevators door to open, it's like a Deja
I told Emerald the venue of the party. I'm nervous as hell! This is the first time that I'll attend our every year party.Before, I didn't even think twice if I'll go, but now's different. There's so many things that's happening to my life now that even me, didn't know if it's really happening."Enjoy your night, my goddess cuz!" Said Emerald then laughed like she's losing her mind.I just shake my head and get out of her car. She insisted to drive me here. Now, my problem is, how could I get home wearing this dress?I balanced myself and breath deeply. Do I manage to wear this heels long? I wish.I slowly walked inside and sighed again. As I step my foot inside many eyes turned to look at me. Oh geez! Shit man, I'm nervous!I cleared my throat and avoid their eyes. I continue to walk. I'm looking around if Bullet is already here. I don't have friends so I can't stop in a table and acted like we know each other while it's the other way around.Does anyone recognized me as grandma Mild
We continue to talk like nothing happened. I'm still wondering in Bullet's attitude. I found out that he is friends with Blake Francisco who's now busy flirting with other girls.We ate and talk and ate and vice versa. I'm very comfortable with him, but I realized something.Does my stalker is here too? He wants me to go here and wear his 'gift', but where is he? It's not that I want to see him and let him do wicked things to me again. I'm just confuse..."So, you have a cousin?" Bullet's question wake me up."Yeah. My only family left." I nodded.He pick a grape. "Say ah," he said to me.I felt my cheeks heating up and before he figure it out. I ate the grape. He smirked at me and continue to drink his wine.I munched the fruit. "How many glass did you drink?"He just shrugged and continue to drink. I rolled my eyes because of his attitude again."You want some?" He asked. Pointing to his wine.I shake my head. "No. I don't drink."when the party start with the M.C.'S jolly voice, I
My heart was aching because of unknown emotion or I just don't want to name?It's been a week since that incident happened. He drove me home but didn't even talked to me. After that, a week had passed, but still no Bullet. He didn't show up and I'm kinda missing him.I know that I didn't do anything wrong or did I? I don't know. But one things I know, there's something wrong about Bullet. He's confusing the hell out of me. I couldn't even eat properly and focused to my work because he occupied my mind!So to make it short, it's a hella week. Plus that Monica's always giving me a furious gaze. It's frustrating that I can't even tell my thoughts and feelings to anyone because even friend, I don't have one.But today's different. Monica's in good mood that really a first time since I worked here. There's something that make her glow and blush.This is the first time that she didn't have me her work to finish and didn't visit my cubicle to trash talk me.Well I don't care about her. I jus
This is just another day but not normal. Every Sunday, I considered it as my rest for all the pain. I just focus my mind with my lord.I dress myself with a blue below the knee dress. Always remember, that if you're going to a sacred place like church, you should wear something presentable because, if you can't respect the Lord with your cloths, then you're not fully respecting him.The Lord may not command you to wear something formal but you should know it. As I get to sit, I cried because I know, I made a lot of mistake this past few weeks, and that's because of Bullet. I'm sorry for not thinking right just because of a man. I'm sorry because I think, I'm changing myself just to be accepted.I wiped my tears and continue to say sorry. I want my old self. In just a span of time, Bullet immediately made a havoc in my life. And I'm kinda regretful because I let him in...Because of what happened to me, I promise to not change myself for someone or just to be acceptable, 'cause the Lor
I dialed Emerald's number, she answered it on the first ring. She's using her phone, i think?"Milda!!" She yelled my name. I suddenly want to roll my eyes. She's really the energetic."No 'hi?' or 'hello?',"She just laughed. "And please, no need to shout my name cousin." I plead."Haha. Just teasing you. So, why did you call? Need my help?" I heard some noisy, I think utensils? Is she eating?"What's that noise?" I asked, curiously."Oh, I'm eating my breakfast. How 'bout you? Did you eat already?" She's the one asking now. Where this conversation going? I want to tell her my reason, she's just so talkative."Yes. Uhm, can I ask you something?" I started."You're already asking. Duh." Then she laughed.I scratched my forehead. This is the reason why I don't want to talk to her. She's just so playful! And very energetic."Are you free today?" I said direct to the point.I heard her hum. "Yeah. Why?""I want to introduce you to someone… Is it okay to you?" Hesitantly, I asked.Silence.
I didn't got a proper sleep because of that. I sighed and look at the resignation letter that I made. I'm still scared and trembling. I don't know if I could face him not crying.In our company, if you want to resign, you need to go exactly at the boss, so he would agree and sign the papers. He is the boss so he holds the power. But how could I face him? Should I act that I didn't know that he is my stalker? How come? All I could remember that we only meet once, and then in the party. That's all.I wear a hoodie to cover my kiss marks. He left a lot. My eyes are swollen because of crying. When he left, I just cry my heart out. I didn't even bother to chased him because I know, I can't catch him.When I arrived at the company. There's just a few employees. Good, 'cause I can't face them. Hoping to see the boss, I immediately go to the elevator and punched the Top floor. I waited a minute and when the elevator stops, I breathed so hard. I hold the tears that forming into my eyes.You ca
I'm thankful that Bullet stop from beating Brandon. God, how could Brandon can laughed at this moment. He's red because of blood from his face. He's eyes we're swollen and turning into violet, but it's like he's not feeling anything."Are you okay, Brandon?" I came to him and helped him get up. We sat at the sofa. Bullet is just looking at us with his dark expression.I'm sweating bullets to, I'm afraid that he will attack Brandon again. It was like I was seeing the different Bullet awhile ago. He so scary."Why did you do that, Bullet? He didn't do anything to me. We're friends…" I explained.He's brow arch in a sarcastic way. There's this dangerous smirk plastered on his face. "He didn't? For you yes, but for me, he did a lot! Fucking Carson. I'll kill him!" He was about to come to Brandon again when I stopped him. Brandon just laughed.I hold Bullet's arms, restraining him to do more. "That's enough Bullet, you're being irrational. He's a friend, he helped me--""I'm the only one w