Chapter 37

Gideon was nowhere to be seen when I woke up.

And it makes me very nervous.

Natulog ako kagabi kakaiyak nguni't hindi ko namang nagawang sabihin sa kanya ang gusto kong sabihin. Hindi ko nagawang sabihin sa kanya na gusto kong magkaayos na kami dahil natakot ako no'ng sabihin n'yang pagod na s'ya.

I broke down in tears. I cry uncontrollably in his arms, as if that's what I needed before.

Naalala ko kung paano din s'yang umiyak kagabi nguni't matapos noon ay parang ako pa 'yung kailangang patahanin saamin dalawa.

I recall the last thing I said to him last night.

I told him I was tired and that I wanted him to sleep next to me.

I remember how I felt.

I cuddled him because I was scared I'd lose him if I didn't.

But the next morning, he wasn't beside me anymore. Wala na rin s'ya sa kwarto.

"Ma'am!" Tila nagulat si ate Melody nang sumulpot ako sa kusina at naka pajama pa. I brushed my hair using my hands.

Dali-dali pa akong naghilamos kanina.

"Si Gideon?" Tanong ko agad kay ate.

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