Duke povJonathan and I began training our boys for their future which I knew would be stressful. It was tedious both both excelled at learning for their positions. "good job boys",we finished the training and headed home. Next week was paperwork training which I knew both would hate. We don't always fight which I know both like to do. We train everyday to stay strong but learning the full beta and alpha positions comes with work you will hate. I don't know what I'm going ti do when I finally hand over the reigns since I've been in this position since I was eighteen. "I'm hungry ",both mumbled."we ate before training ",I'm shocked."growing boy dad",is said as they run off. I get a frantic dad mom fell before I'm racing to my mate scared shit less. Busting in the door I brace myself for the worst. "I'm okay I swear",I hear her as Lucas panics."don't move!",he screams at her. "you did not just yell at me young man",she pipes back."yes I did your being stubborn you fell hard, Luca
Kat povStanding at our annual exchange I watched mates find each other. Smiles graced every face every face but mine. I was downright miserable as I stood watching everyone pair off. I really didn't care if I ever found my mate because to me it was overrated. "you will find him baby I have a good feeling this year",My mom said kissing my cheek. She was more excited than me because I'd rather be alone forever. I saw how my dad hurt her and it almost seemed like he hated her at times. He was in love with another when they found each other. Then after mating he rejected her and ran off with his mistress. Mom just raised me the best she could and was awesome the whole time."totally",I said rolling my eyes. I would rather have teeth pulled then deal with a mate. I stood quietly watching every other she wolf look and most find their mates and they all looked happy as hell. I sighed as I shifted on my feet. I just wanted my bed and some sleep. Suddenly everything went quiet and murmurs b
Kat povWe drove for hours till we arrived at the Fury pack and I held in a gasp at how huge the pack house and grounds were. Jonathan has a huge amount of land and houses were scattered all over. We walked in and I heard voices everywhere. The new LunaShe is so pretty.I'm glad he found her but Laura was better.Lisa would of made a great Luna.We needed a Luna.Hopefully she does a good job.Taking a deep breath I followed Jonathan through to my room which was seperate from his. His disgusted eyes looked me over as he sat my bags down. He looked ready to puke as he looked at me. I felt ready to puke as I took in my surroundings. "the ceremony is tonight and we mark each other then. Dress in a loose top and drawstring pants. You will sleep with me tonight after I need pups",He says walking away leaving me stunned and worried. I had to sleep with him tonight after the ceremony. I sighed and unpacked worried that sex was gonna be brutal. It would hurt my mom said but your mate will
Kat pov"you need to eat kat",He says watching me as I pick at my cuticles. I focus on my nails the food makes me want to puke. Looking at him makes me sick to my stomach. Looking at him at all will end with me in tears."not hungry Jonathan",I offer not looking up at him. He disgust me so why look up and see the hate he has for me. I hear him sigh as he sits beside me. I flinch. I fucking flinch hard and want to flee. Why is he sitting near me?"well you need to eat in case your pregnant",He growls. Wow how thoughtful I think looking at the food. I don't want to be pregnant. "I will eat when I'm hungry right now I just want to go relax in my room",I say looking at the wall. He goes to touch me and I jump up and hustle away. Fuck him I dealt with his terrible shit yesterday. I make to my room before the heartache hits I let him have my virginity and I got nothing in return. My vagina still hurts and my heart feels broken. I'm still bleeding something Dina my wolf has been healing she
Kat povI'm laying on my bed clutching my pillow while Jonathan lays behind me. I am still upset and my tears have long since stopped but him laying behind me touching me is killing me. His hands rub at my body trying to soothe but I just tense up more. I don't say anything as he rubs at me and even the tenderness is fake to me.We don't speak and I don't turn to face him. I don't want to face him. If I look at him I'm going to lose my shit."I'm sorry Kat I really am I regret taking you so rough. Please give me a chance to show you I'm not that heartless",He says stroking my hair. Do I forgive him or do I stay afraid longer cause what he did was callous and horrible. It was beyond disgusting and I can't see him being gentle not with me. He is just lying."I...I...",I say but nothing comes out. I can't speak cause I still hear him moaning her name every time I close my eyes. I feel sick. The brutal thrust and how horrible that moment felt. It hurt so bad and I hated every moment of it
Kat povWe fall asleep but I wake later easing away to use the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and gasp on my body is love bites and hickies. I do my business and wash my hands as I turn I run into Jonathan with a squeal. He steadies me and I flinch."you scared me",I said holding a hand over my chest. He chuckled. A chuckle that would excite me if I didn't know how mean he was before. Now I have to navigate this new life and try to deal with it. I have to basically give him what he wants because as mates you make sacrifices for them. You give them your body and you give it willingly even if it hurts you."sorry baby I woke you were gone I got worried ",He said gathering me close. I blushed but I also stiffened up. This could be an act I tell my wolf.He has been nothing but affectionate but a small part doubts him. He said hateful stuff and when he took my virginity he did it in a vile way. I will always doubt everything now. I know he loves his dead mate and I know he alway
Kat povI lay staring at the monitor as the doctor goes over stuff about alpha and Luna pregancies. Johnathan takes my hand as I lay staring at our baby. I look at him in worry cause he told me I have to stand up to members that may have an issue with me. Dina growls in my head already her hackles rising. She knows most could attack once finding out I'm pregnant. She knows I'm on my own and scared. She knows I'm doubtful of his intentions. "So eat more and get rest Luna the pup will be here in two months",he says wiping the gel off. I nod and sit up. I'm thinking of a way out I have to. I have to run if it comes to it.Once she leaves Johnathan holds me and kisses my head. I keep my arms at my side. He got what he wanted and I'm stuck reeling. He is getting an heir and a small part thinks he is imagining it is her carrying his pup and not me. This small part is slowly killing me mentally. "If the pack doesn't want me I'm leaving",I utter looking up at him. He looks hurt but also wor
Kat povI wake snuggled to my mate and stretch. He pulls me closer and kisses my neck. "good morning baby",he says licking my mark. I moan as his hands wander my body. He kisses my lips after kissing everywhere else getting me excited. When he thrusted in I arch whimpering his name. I'm already healed but I'm still tender. Getting use to a huge cock is gonna take a long time."Johnathan ",I moan. I touch him but I'm still unsure of everything. I feel unsure about everything and it is thanks to his behavior the first time. "fuck baby you feel good",he growls thrusting easy inside me. He is nothing but gentle but what if he is just pretending.He takes my body till I'm absolutely boneless and ready to sleep all day. I snuggle up go him and yawn. I'm exhausted. He exhausted me."Sleepy baby?",he chuckles. He knows damn well I am he fucked me to exhaustion. He kisses my lips as I look at him. I look at him still unsure if this will blow up in my face at any moment. "Your a boob",I stat