Kat pov
We fall asleep but I wake later easing away to use the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and gasp on my body is love bites and hickies. I do my business and wash my hands as I turn I run into Jonathan with a squeal. He steadies me and I flinch."you scared me",I said holding a hand over my chest. He chuckled. A chuckle that would excite me if I didn't know how mean he was before. Now I have to navigate this new life and try to deal with it. I have to basically give him what he wants because as mates you make sacrifices for them. You give them your body and you give it willingly even if it hurts you."sorry baby I woke you were gone I got worried ",He said gathering me close. I blushed but I also stiffened up. This could be an act I tell my wolf.He has been nothing but affectionate but a small part doubts him. He said hateful stuff and when he took my virginity he did it in a vile way. I will always doubt everything now. I know he loves his dead mate and I know he always will. He may have been gentle but a part of me feels he is doing it to get pups from me. I watch him wrap me up in his arms but no I love yous are exchanged. We are still at the beginning of our relationship and I love you will come later. I'm not counting on a I love you because I bet he won't want to say it.We aren't at that part yet I don't think it will happen soon. I kiss him back and let him carry me back to bed. He takes me again and I love it but an inner voice is telling me to keep my heart on guard. Johnathan holds me after and I lay quietly while he rubs gentle hands over my back. I can't hear his wolf and Dina complains she is blocked from hearing him as well. She tried numerous times but he has a wall up. A wall I need to put up to protect myself. I need my own wall to protect my heart from him.Later when he falls asleep I look into his mind and freeze. I can hear all his thoughts,worries and concerns. He still pines over Laura and he goes to her in his dreams. I stand back watching as he loves her with wild abandon. He holds,kisses her and tells her how much he loves her. I just stand watching from the shadows as deep hurt fills me. We can't compete with her we never could. I go back to my own mind hurting and slowly ease away and go to the kitchen after dressing. I make a cup of tea and try not to sob. I try to keep myself together as I sip my tea.Once he wakes up I'm distancing myself till I figure out how to handle this. I make food still in a low place and jump bad when arms circle my waist. His arms which I don't want on me."Hey baby sleep good?",he says kissing my jaw. I try not to cringe."I'm slept alright. How did you sleep?""good we need to introduce you as Luna the pack wants to meet you",he says kissing me. I moan as he kisses my mark. This is all fake I keep repeating in my head."okay",I murmur."I should of at the claiming ceremony but I didn't and for that I'm sorry. Most of the pack members want to meet you,talk to you and get to know you". Great I say to my wolf so they can hate me as well.I'm nervous now cause I heard most walking in and some weren't to thrilled about me cause they loved Laura. I'm her replacement and I bet hated."okay",I say nervously knowing I'm probably gonna be bombarded with hateful wolves. He kisses my lips and we sit to eat. I eat but mostly pick at my food. Johnathan doesn't notice and I watch him eat and talk about a barbeque taking place later today. After I clean up I head to my room and pick out clothes. Johnathan comes with me and I try to ignore how close his body is to mine. I try to ignore how hurt I am by what I saw in his mind. I get he loved her but I want love as well."her parents will be there and so will her sister",he says making me freeze up."Oh",is all I say going through my tops. I try to pick out something cute but I keep drifting back to what I saw. He was sweet and gentle something I didn't get at first."They won't bother you I will be there but you have to stand up for yourself baby cause if not they can request me to reject you as luna",he says earning a shocked gasp from me. I look at him with hurt as he goes to explain the pack can ask the council to have me removed and a more qualified Luna take my place. My shock leads to a sick feeling and I run to my bathroom losing my breakfast.Johnathan is behind me holding my hair back. He should of told me this before we mated. Now I'm gonna be in front of his pack members being judged. I threw up more and sank weakly to the floor."your probably pregnant baby",he says lifting me up. I brush my teeth before we head to the pack hospital. What if I'm rejected and pregnant with his pup. How will I survive mate less and in this pack knowing my mate is with another. I hold in tears as he walks through the hospital doors with me in his arms.After getting tests done we sit waiting in a waiting room alone."I know you go to her in your dreams I saw you",I utter looking at the wall. I look there to keep from crying. I look at the posters and try to not feel the pain I felt watching him be gentle with her. My first time was something I just want to forget. It is on replay in my mind and I see it every time I close my eyes. I just want out and I really want my mom."Shit Kat I'm..",a knock stops him and a doctor walks in with her portable ultrasound machine. His sorrow filled eyes stays on me as she puts gel on my belly and a wand is placed there.He takes my hand as a loud swooshing fills the room. My eyes widen shit a heart beat already. Is it to late to abort?Now I have more to worry about at the barbeque. I'm going to be judged and glared at. I'm going to have to protect a pup that will probably be more wanted than me.Kat povI lay staring at the monitor as the doctor goes over stuff about alpha and Luna pregancies. Johnathan takes my hand as I lay staring at our baby. I look at him in worry cause he told me I have to stand up to members that may have an issue with me. Dina growls in my head already her hackles rising. She knows most could attack once finding out I'm pregnant. She knows I'm on my own and scared. She knows I'm doubtful of his intentions. "So eat more and get rest Luna the pup will be here in two months",he says wiping the gel off. I nod and sit up. I'm thinking of a way out I have to. I have to run if it comes to it.Once she leaves Johnathan holds me and kisses my head. I keep my arms at my side. He got what he wanted and I'm stuck reeling. He is getting an heir and a small part thinks he is imagining it is her carrying his pup and not me. This small part is slowly killing me mentally. "If the pack doesn't want me I'm leaving",I utter looking up at him. He looks hurt but also wor
Kat povI wake snuggled to my mate and stretch. He pulls me closer and kisses my neck. "good morning baby",he says licking my mark. I moan as his hands wander my body. He kisses my lips after kissing everywhere else getting me excited. When he thrusted in I arch whimpering his name. I'm already healed but I'm still tender. Getting use to a huge cock is gonna take a long time."Johnathan ",I moan. I touch him but I'm still unsure of everything. I feel unsure about everything and it is thanks to his behavior the first time. "fuck baby you feel good",he growls thrusting easy inside me. He is nothing but gentle but what if he is just pretending.He takes my body till I'm absolutely boneless and ready to sleep all day. I snuggle up go him and yawn. I'm exhausted. He exhausted me."Sleepy baby?",he chuckles. He knows damn well I am he fucked me to exhaustion. He kisses my lips as I look at him. I look at him still unsure if this will blow up in my face at any moment. "Your a boob",I stat
Jonathan povWe clashed together in human form but then shift to tear through them. Lisa is nowhere in sight and her parents stand on the porch devastated. "kill them all",I mind link my men as I kill a rogue that bit me. They must think I'm weak.Her mom stands sobbing trying to see her daughter in the chaotic mess but she isn't here. Her dad looks torn on what to do as he watches us fight. As fast as it started it ended the rogues retreated and I stood chest heaving. That cunt. I go inside and head for my office to shower and dress. I see Kat but I'm so mad I can't talk right now as I storm past her."are you okay Jonathan?",I hold in a growl as my emotions run wild. She follows me. "not now Kat",I grit out. I know it isn't her fault but I'm reeling from this shit. I spent a year trying to piece together who and how my mate was killed. Another year after that trying to get over it."okay I'm sorry",I heard her leave fast and I felt guilt. I know I treated her like shit but I'm t
Kat povI woke confused. How did I get here? What happened?"you passed out",a voice spoke up and my eyes slowly opened. Shit did I hit my belly falling?"w-what?...."."happened? You passed out in the kitchen our beta caught you", shit I blinked and looked around. I'm in the hospital and sitting beside my bed is my lovely mate. Jonathan looks at me and I see annoyance. I see a man that doesn't want me but feels stuck with me."I felt so sick",I mumbled. He just sighed. Before he could speak the doctor spoke up."Luna so happy your awake, he moved closer checking my monitors, you had severe nausea and you are malnourished. I started nausea meds and they should help so you can eat instead of puking",I nodded as he checked my vitals."how long.....",I was curious to when I will get out of here."how long you are stuck in here?",I nodded and the doctor chuckled."yes doc, I smiled shyly, how long till I can go back to my room",Jonathan sighed."I'm suggesting two more days just to watch
Jonathan pov"how the fuck did she slip through the patrols?",I growl moving Kat to my lap when she whimpers in her sleep again. "we don't know alpha, a warrior says, we are looking at all security feeds",I'm pissed she came straight to my mate's hospital room."she made it to Kat's room and if I wasn't here she could of killed my mate like she did before. Lisa killed her own sister and she will stop at nothing to kill Kat ",my men stare at Kat with worry. Most look shocked I said out loud that Lisa killed her own sister and our previous Luna."shit Alpha we had no idea that Lisa was so crazy. I swear we will work harder to protect your mate",they said as Duke walked in. He looked at Kat before bringing the laptop over so we could look. At the border Lisa was standing there talking to someone in all black. We couldn't tell if it was a man or woman but someone helped her get in and out. She ran fast and the patrols just missed her."fuck me",I heard many cuss as we watched the two spl
Jonathan povI started our bath and Kat kept her head down messing with her shirt. She looked scared as I turned and pulled off my shirt. She wouldn't look up as I approached and I felt awful for that."Kat come here baby lets get undressed",she sighed. She hesitated as I looked at her."okay",her sad voice killed me and I carefully took off her clothes and picked her up. She was light as hell."so what kind of food do you like?",I was trying to get to know her."pretty much anything except Brussels sprouts, liver and oysters",she kept her eyes off my body. I wanted her to look at me. I craved it."yeah those are gross. What shows or movies?",she looked at the wall and I held in a sigh. The tub was huge and the water was nice and warm way to warm."anything scary like horror. I like shows that are horror or scary. Ghost stuff as well",I tried to pull her back to lean against me but she resisted. "baby come on",I said trying again I wanted skin on skin contact."please don't ",she beg
Jonathan povI knew she went in the bathroom to cry I could hear it. I was pissed I told Duke to transfer them for disrespecting my mate. He said it was already done he didn't care that they cried and begged. If you can't respect your Luna then your gone. They begged and called their families but Duke wouldn't bend."thanks Duke",I mind link. He looks mad."you can go Jonathan ",she voiced again but I refused. I'm not leaving her here alone. She crawled in bed and relaxed a yawn escaping. She was exhausted."not leaving, my wolf says and she looks up at us, we are staying with you",he is infatuated with her. Said she is beautiful and I was stupid for hurting her so much. I want to fuck her he says in my mind and I have to control my cock."you don't have to stay Jonathan I'm fine alone if you have work",I gather her close as Fury recedes and I kiss her. I take her mouth softly pouring myself into the kiss."I'm not leaving. I kiss her again, I'm staying with you",I keep kissing her. S
Jonathan povKat's eyes filled with tears as I sat my cell down. Lisa had Kat's mother and I knew she would kill her if I didn't go.A text popped up and I held in a growl."come to the place you kissed my sister the first time. Come alone or Helen dies",I'm beyond mad as my mate sobs.Kat gets up and tries to leave no doubt trying to go to her mom but I pull her back.no,I growl, your not going I am",I glare down at her. Her chin wobbles."that bitch has my mom",she cried"baby calm down you can't go there your pregnant. We got this I will get your mom back",I cupped her face making her look at me."I can't, she sobbed, I can't lose her",I pick her up and carry her to bed. Sitting her down I mind link my warriors and Duke to come to Kat's room. She looks devastated as I hold her. When Duke and my men rush in I look up mad as fuck and toss Duke my cell. The location is tagged and a picture of Helen tied up and gagged while looking scared stared back at us. Tears are evident on her fac