“Congratulations, son.” Jason pulled me in for a one-armed hug, clapping me on the back. “I’m real damn proud of you, kid.”
“Thanks.” I stepped back, running a hand down my face.
“You good?” He studied me, and I desperately tried to school my expression.
“Y-yeah. All good, sir. But I was hoping—”
“There you are. My boy.” Mom swept me into her arms. “Gosh, I’m so proud of you.”
“Thanks, Mom.”
“Where’s Lily? I wanted to get a picture of the two of you.”
“I’m not sure.” It had been kind of crazy since we spilled out of the graduation ceremony to the crowd of friends and family all wanting to celebrate with us, and I’d lost her in the chaos.
“Can you see her?” I asked Jason and Felicity as they scanned the crowd for their daughter.
“Nope. But I’m sure she’s around here… Oh. There she is.” Felicity’s expression softened as we watched Lily approach with Poppy and Aaron in tow.
“Kaiden, my man,” Aaron held out his hand. “Looking good Mr. NFL Hotshot.”
“Babe,” Poppy chided. “We talked about this, remember?”
“Come on, Poppystar. Kaiden was drafted to one of the best teams in the country, you can’t expect me not to—”
“Aaron.” Lily shook her head, nestling herself to my side. “Hey.” She gazed up at me, and I fucking hated the glint of uncertainty there.
The last few months should have been the best of my life after I’d been drafted to one of the top teams in the NFL. But things between me and Lily were strained. My contract with the Kansas Wild would have me move a thousand miles across the country next week for rookie training camp. Then me and Lily planned to spend some time in Kansas, apartment hunting so that we’d be ready for her to join me for the start of the season.
With her cousin Avery getting married in a few weeks, and Peyton seven months pregnant, she wanted to spend some time in Rixon with them.
It made sense for me to make the move alone at first. I needed to gel with the team and fight for my place on the roster. But I didn’t relish the idea of being apart from Lily. Not after four years of having her so close.
“Hey.” I dropped a kiss on her head, wondering how I was supposed to leave her behind in less than a week.
I kept telling myself it was temporary, that it would all be worth it, but I couldn’t ignore the seed of doubt taking root in my chest.
“I can’t believe college is over,” Poppy said, breaking the tension a little. “You did it, Lilster.”
“That’s it now, out in the big wide world.” Aaron grinned. “At least you won’t have to worry about finding a job especially since you’re with Mr. Hotshot over here.”
“Seriously?” I quirked a brow at Aaron. “You’re an ass.”
“Photo time,” Mom called, ushering me and Lily over to a huge tree. “Say happy graduation.”
Lily smothered a laugh, smiling up at me again.
Fuck, I was going to miss her.
We’d spent time apart over the last four years. Football kept me busy. Especially when the season was in full swing. But this was different. This was the start of our lives together. Our future. And we wouldn’t even be in the same state for most of the summer.
“Get in there Jason, Felicity,” Mom ordered, and the Fords joined us.
“Proud of you, sweetheart,” Jason said as Felicity swiped a tear from her eye.
“Mom,” Lily groaned. “You promised.”
“I’m allowed to shed a tear or two, baby. We’re just so proud of you. Both of you.”
My chest tightened. Jason and Felicity weren’t only my girlfriend’s parents, they were family. And they had never made me feel anything less. Which is why I really needed to talk to Jason before I left.
But every time I went to bring it up, something or someone got in the way.
He squeezed my shoulder, leaning into whisper, “This is it, son. Everything you worked for is finally at your fingertips.”
I glanced at Lily and my chest tightened. It had always been football and her. Ever since that seven minutes of heaven in Lindsey Filmer’s boat shed, almost five years ago.
But I wasn’t ready for the day football took me away from her.
“I love you,” she mouthed, eyes twinkling with emotion.
Lily had come a long way in the last four years. She’d grown in confidence, in herself and in our relationship—accepting my endless love for her.
“Love you too,” I mouthed back. Not caring one single bit if we had an audience.
She was it for me.
The love of my life.
The woman I intended to spend the rest of my days with.
The woman I wanted to call my wife.
I just needed to make sure she knew that.
Sooner rather than later.
“What is this?” I asked Mom and Poppy as they wore mischievous grins.
“Your graduation dinner.”
Mom wasn’t fooling anyone, they were up to something. And I was pretty sure that something was beyond the balloon-lined door of the restaurant they had booked for dinner.
“Dad…”
“Don’t look at me,” he grumbled. “I had no part in this.”
I glanced at Kaiden and he chuckled, looking so handsome in his charcoal slacks and white dress shirt. “I’m as in the dark as you are.”
“Hmm.” I breezed past them all, entering the restaurant first like the strong, independent woman I was.
There had been a time, back in high school, when I thought I’d never get here. When I couldn’t imagine living such a happy, fulfilled life. But here I was.
With a degree to my name, a boyfriend who loved me unconditionally, and a family who supported me no matter what.
I should have been walking on cloud nine. Except any happiness I felt was steeped in uncertainty and doubt knowing that Kaiden was about to embark on the next chapter of his life… without me.It was only temporary, but I already felt the permanence in my heart. The idea of not being in Kansas with him. Going to sleep with him at night, waking up with him in the morning.Four years.Four years with him at Penn State, loving and living, and now it had come to an end. I was so proud of him, of the man he’d become, but I couldn’t help but mourn the loss of our college life.College was safe. We had a routine. We had our favorite coffee shops and bars and restaurants. We had our gorgeous apartment.Had.The word clanged through me, realization hitting me again.Our life at Penn State was over.Poppy followed me inside, catching up to me and lacing her arm through mine. “I know you didn’t want a fuss, but Mom and I thought—”“Surprise,” the word rang out in the restaurant that I now realize
And maybe that mattered more in this moment.POPPY“What are you doing all the way over here?” I asked my sister as she sat on the edge of the celebrations, nursing her drink.“Just taking a breather.”“Lily, what’s wrong?” I slid into the booth opposite her and pinned her with a knowing look.I knew my sister. I knew all her little tells, and right now, she was all up in her thoughts.“I can’t believe it’s here.”“What… Oh, Lily.” I reached over and took her hand in mine. “This is a good thing, Lil. You did it. You survived college. You got your degree. You and Kaiden are stronger than ever”—she winced at that and I frowned—“You and Kaiden are stronger than ever, right?”“Yes. I mean, I think so.” She blanched. “Oh God, Poppy. Listen to me. My boyfriend, the love of my life, is heading to the NFL. Instead of celebrating and counting down the days until he gets to live out his childhood dream, all I can think is how it’s going to affect me and our relationship.”“Lily, you have nothin
Tears threatened to fall. Gosh, I was a mess. But the last few weeks had been such a whirlwind. Finals and packing up our apartment. Now graduation was done. Over.“You don’t have to follow him to Kansas, you know. You can stay—”“No,” I said firmly.Living apart, doing the long-distance thing was not an option. But I was scared. All caught up in the fear of being in a new town with no friends or colleagues to lean on. Knowing that Kaiden had a team waiting for him. A team who would make him feel welcome and a part of something while I had to start all over again.“Life is about compromise, sweetheart. You have to work out what sacrifices you’re prepared to make for the person you love. It’s Kaiden’s time to shine right now, but that doesn’t mean you have to be eclipsed by his light.“He’s going to need you to, Lil. When practice is hard, when he’s trying to prove himself and earn his spot. There’s going to be highs and lows and it’s going to suck sometimes. He’ll need you there to gr
ASHLEIGHI laid awake, watching Ezra sleep.Uncle Jason had checked us all into the hotel down the road from the restaurant for the night.It was nice of Poppy and Felicity to try and surprise Lily like that, but she didn’t look so happy about it. Even before we left, when we’d sat crammed into a booth, reminiscing about days gone by, she’d barely managed a smile.I wasn’t surprised though. Lily was worried about what the future held, about her place in Kaiden’s new life.Part of me got it. Ezra’s football career had only gone from strength to strength at Penn State, and success at next year’s draft was a good possibility. But Lily wasn’t like me.Even after the accident, even when I had to learn to live with the fact that I had lost almost a year of my life, I soon realized that I was one of the lucky ones.Life was too short not to embrace it with both hands and enjoy every moment. And with Ezra by my side and my family and friends around me, I had so much to live for.I pressed in
Lily had been quiet last night but when we’d finally gotten back to our room, she’d pressed a kiss to my lips, curled up in my arms and fallen asleep within minutes.“You think you’re ready? Rookie training camp.” Ezra grinned.“I’m ready.”“That’s what we like to hear, Thatch,” Bryan said. “You down there and show them what you’re made of.”“That’s the plan.”There were days when I still couldn’t believe it. The Kansas Wild. The NFL.I’d dreamed of nothing since the first day I’d picked up a football and hiked it to my father.A pang of disappointment went through me, the way it did whenever his name came up. But that was one relationship I had no intention of ever fixing.Lewis Thatcher was dead to me.“The NFL, man.” Gav whistled between his teeth. “It doesn’t get much better than that. Always knew you’d go all the way.”“Thanks.”“It’s got to suck leaving Lily behind though,” he went on.“It isn’t like they’re never going to see each other,” Bryan added. “She’s moving to Kansas af
“It’s no problem, son. We have the guest room all set up—”“Dad!” I puffed out a little sigh.“He’s joking, babe. You are joking, right?”“Yeah, yeah. I’m joking. Your mom warned me that you’re adults now. But you know the deal, Kaiden, this is still my house. And if I catch the two of you—”“Dad, stop.” My cheeks flamed, and a knowing smirk spread across his face.“Nice to know I’ve still got it.” He winked, heading deeper into the house.“I’m sorry about him.” I glanced back at Kaiden.“Almost five years, babe.” He chuckled. “I think I can handle your old man. I was thinking we could go out tonight. Dinner at La Pomme? Maybe check out Riverside for old times’ sake?”“Or we could stay in,” I said. “I’m kind of beat.”“Sure.” Something flashed across his face. “Whatever you want.”I was a coward. Avoiding the difficult conversations. Pretending like everything was okay. But everything felt like it was unraveling, and I was so fixated on the countdown to Kaiden leaving that I couldn’t
Life was a bit like that since my stem cell transplant in senior year of high school. Like I was trying desperately to outrun the inevitable. Cram as much life and love and laughter into the time I had before everything went to shit again.Cole didn’t let me dwell. He didn’t let fear dictate our lives. Instead, he filled every day with the little things. Waking up to breakfast in bed. Telling me he loved me first thing every morning and last thing every night. He’d supported each and every one of my harebrained ideas over the last three years, and there had been a few. He attended every single doctor’s appointment with me. He reminded me to take my medications and vitamins.He was the perfect boyfriend.And I honestly couldn’t imagine my life without him.Cole had given up his shot at stardom for me, but I knew in my heart of hearts that he didn’t regret it for a single moment. He loved teaching. He loved working with my dad. He loved trying new things and meeting new people. And at t
Jason was the kind of father I’d always wanted. Firm but fair. Understanding and supportive.He got it.He knew what it was like to shoulder the burden of greatness. To try and balance your dreams with everything else important to you.He was one of the best men I knew, and I could only hope to be even a fraction as good as him. On and off the field.I dropped my head, rubbing the back of my neck, feeling the weight of responsibility press down on me.“You have my blessing, son.” I lifted my head slowly to meet his certain gaze. “You had it four years ago. You had it yesterday, and you’ll have it tomorrow. But you’re right, Lily doesn’t need a ring on her finger to know you love her.”“I’m so fucking scared.”“Honestly, you’d be inhuman if you weren’t. Fear is good, Kaiden. Fear reminds us that we care. That we have something to lose. Something to fight for. Now, I’ll try to stay out of your business, but you and Lily need to sit down and talk about this before you leave.”“Yeah, you’