Chapter 41

She weakly pushed me away but I gripped her waist tighter, afraid that if I would let go, I won't see her ever again. And I'm deeply terrified at that thought.

However, with all her strength, I was shoved away forcefully by her in the end. Now, there was a boundary in our post. Having this few distances away from her makes my eyes sting with tears. A painful tug in my heart gives me a wave of agony.

Everything she does was plain torture for me.

Yet, the look in her eyes made me shiver. The distress and suffering I felt thrived huger without cease.

"Stop being weak in front of me!" she scolded in a firm voice. "I told you to be brave and face everything onward without being vulnerable!"

"Mom... how can I act tough if I'm breaking inside?! How can I face everything bravely if the reason I'm breathing was in front of me... wishing me to run and leave her alone, dying because of me! Mom, how can you be so heartless?!" my voice broke at the same time, my heart shattered bits by bits.

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