Chapter 101ElenaI watch myself shattering like broken glasses. I’m dumbstruck, all I do is laugh a lot like I’m going insane, because I’m too hurt to peel a single tear, too broken to cry, too broken to move my lips, too broken to speak to anyone, the easiest is laughing as though I have a mental illness.I do. I do because at this point I can’t seem to believe what I heard from Tyson, I don’t believe yet that they left me. No, I’m dreaming, I want to wake up.Since yesterday I haven’t shed a single tear, I haven’t cried and I don’t know why. My brain says I’m okay, but my heart says a different thing.I stand numb in the female bathroom, can’t feel myself and the worse part of it I can’t recognize this girl in front of me, I don’t know who she is, this girl in the reflection, with weary eyes, broken self, heavy heart, shattered inner walls.One thing about mirrors, it only shows how beautiful you are from the outside, it hides your inner ugliness so that no one can see it but you.

TysonJesus Christ!Damn, fuck me! I couldn’t hate myself more for saying those words to her. I couldn’t withstand her crying in front of me. I was so tempted to pull her onto my chest and hug her tightly, and kiss those ugly tears from her eyes.I couldn’t even tell her the reason we had to do that. I am so fucked up!I haven’t been able to breathe properly since I clicked on the block button. I had to stop myself from messaging her. I couldn’t just stare at my phone without having the urge to text her. Without having to tell her that I love and I would never leave her.It was so fucking hard to say those words to her. Damn, I feel like roasting myself in a hot flame. I can’t cope anymore without her by my side. God, it is killing me!I rise from my bed and storm out of the room. I didn’t go to school today, I wouldn’t be able to bear it. I can’t have her on the same premises and not speak to her. I would die of hurt and guilt.I walk along the aisle, my throat feels sore after I d

Elena" I will never forget about you, Elen. I know I was a bad cousin but you still didn't despise me." her eyes are teary as they plop her luggage, into her car. " I would never hate you, Ella. You are still one of my favourites and I understood your reasons. Just be a good girl from now on." I smile broadly, she pulls me into a tight hug and kisses me on the cheek. I do the same before waving her goodbye, as she hops into her ride. " Travel safely to the airport love. And ring me once you get back home. I love you." I wave at her. " I love you too, Elen." she stares at me through the mirror, until I went out of sight. " That's so cute of you, Elen," Ryan says from behind me. He has Emerson in his arms, holding up the sucking bottle for him. " Thank you, honey." I get close to him and he kisses me on my lips for a few seconds. I jump a little to his height and kiss him on the cheek before we go inside. " I'm so happy, everything has been resolved between you guys!" Ava shouts a