As I say that word, everyone freezes, except Coco, the boy is giggling "Oops"
My eyes move to his face "Are you guys actually—"
"He's joking" Cream replies, tone flat.
I let out a relieved breath "Good because— Well, you know why. The law is everywhere. Kinda just escaped from one so I'd rather not put my ass out there one more time"
"There's actually a no cursing policy" Doctor says, her eyes going to Coco "Even though I'm sure some have broken the rules"
The boy only grins at her before she turns to me and says "Not that you have to follow it—"
"But if you're able to not curse for a whole week, Mistress let's you choose what we get to do on Saturday night" Caramel completes, blushing as he looks away "Sorry, I-I couldn't help it"
She only smiles at him "It's alright"
Chocolate rolls his eyes at that "True. I mean, I know the policy is there and all, and I swear, I've tried, but Mel always wins"
"Oh" Not that I'm surprised "I thought it'd be Cream, since he doesn't talk much"
Chocolate grins "There is actually another way to get Cream talking, and that way never has good words coming out"
Why... Why do I have a very demented thought coming from those words?
"You should try winning this time Kitten" Coco suddenly continues "Because I swear, I'm tired of going to the amusement park every fucking time"
Caramel looks at him "There's nothing wrong with amusement parks"
Coco looks at him "Honey, I have to follow you on every ride because you get scared. Do you know how tiring it gets?"
Mel is looking like a real pumpkin right now with how red he's glowing "I-I don't get s-scared!"
"You're stuttering baby, signs of you being uncomfortable"
"I-I'm not!"
"Are too sugarplum"
The whole dinner continues with them arguing, me laughing at some things they say with Cream joining in once or twice before we're all done eating.
As I stand to clear the plates, Doctor does same as well "It's alright Vanilla. Alex will clean it up while I take you to your room"
Chocolate looks completely repulsed "What was she about to do?"
Caramel looks at him, as if he's excited that there's something he knows about me which Chocolate doesn't "She never had a butler"
I'm at Doctor's side as we begin walking up the stairs when I hear Coco ask "So who does the whole cleaning?"
"She does it herself!"
"Good Lord! No wonder she needs a manicure"
I turn at that sentence, a frown on my face as the Doctor laughs, her hand gently leading me up the stairs "Ignore him. He gets carried away sometimes"
I turn forward, mumbling under my breath "My nails are pretty"
"They are"
I look at her at those words, noticing that she's looking at me as well before I realize that I'm blushing and I look away.
Oh shit.
Don't tell me I actually did that to a woman!
I'm trying to run away from it and all she had to say was my nails are pretty and I'm blushing like Pumpkin!
"Here"
We stop at a yellow painted door, as I notice the other doors.
There's a light brown one facing a dark brown one. Then on another column, a red one facing a white one.
The yellow one is facing another door except that one is black.
She pushes the door we're standing infront of open and gives me a nod to go in, and when I do so, my mind blows immediately "I'm dreaming"
I hear her enter and close the door "I bet your dream room would be better than this"
"Actually—" I'm looking at her "This is exactly how I wanted it to be"
My room is the same with Chocolate, except the walls are painted yellow with some words written on them, everything around the place is also yellow which might have freaked some people out except my favourite colour was literally yellow "Did you ask people at the Convent or something?"
She laughs, and I realize I like that sound "No, I did not. Your name reflects your room. Vanilla is a bright yellow colour and it's the same colour of your room"
"Yeah about the name, is that like compulsory?"
She shakes her head "No, of course not. Some of them wished to change their names to have new beginnings because that's what they wish. You can't change what you've done before, you can only try to make yourself better from it. If you wish that I call you your original name, I'd alert the boys to do same"
I shake my head, folding my arms "It's cool. I've actually always hated my name"
Doctor Sweet nods, as if she had expected that before I say "Sorry. I just have some questions"
"Don't apologize dear. You can ask"
"So you're like my Doctor now?" I ask "Asking my questions about what I am, or did back in Vino?"
"I already told you we do not discriminate here"
"I know, I know. It's just that I need to be sure that you know why I got kicked out cause I don't want you getting mad later—"
"Vanilla"
I pause, realizing that my cheeks are puffed before I blow them out "Yes Doctor Sweet?"
"I know" She says.
She sounds so kind, so very kind which contrasts loudly with how Mother Superior acted when she found out.
I still have the scar from the revelation.
"Remember when I said something about new beginnings?"
I nod.
"That's what we're about here" She says quietly "You don't have to worry about me prying into your past or asking questions you're uncomfortable with. I just want you to know that you're safe here, and whenever you need to talk, I'm just a floor away, or maybe a call away if I have to be at the hospital, but I need you to remember—" She comes closer "You're welcome here. Always would be. Do you understand?"
I don't, because why would she say that? Why would anyone welcome me because I'm not actually the best thing that has lived.
I'm sick and corrupted, and maybe a little bit crazy than Coco but I nod anyway.
She smiles, her thumb brushing my face "I know you do not Vanilla, but you will in time"
Then she moves away, smile still on her face "I only have one favour to ask"
"Considering that I'm gonna be here for a while and it's your house" I say "Please shoot"
"There are Vanilla scented soaps and toiletries I would like you to use" She replies "You don't have to, of course, but I'd like it if you do. Tomorrow I shall come and take you to get other clothes in town and then we can talk more, if there are other questions you have"
"That's it?" I ask after a while when she says nothing else "No scrubbing the toilet or giving you a pedicure?"
She smiles "None of that. That's just all I ask"
"Oh" I nod "It's the one thing I can do without messing up. Consider it done Ma'am"
"Vanilla?"
"Yes?"
"You can call me Doctor, or Doc, or anything you want, except that"
I'm nodding again "Yes Ma'am— Sorry, Doc"
Doc smiles at me, and I realize that she's somehow always smiling, because even if it's gone, the smile is back again "Alright then"
She place a kiss on my forehead "Goodnight, beloved" then turns around and begins to walk back to the door before she pauses "And thank you"
"For what?"
"For Dinner"
I have no idea what she means but before I can ask, she's gone, shutting the door behind her.
Vanessa, darling. Where are you? Mommy wants to play.If you tell your Father about our little game, I would cut off your tongue!Stop that blasted crying!I jerk from the bed, panting heavily as I look around the room. The lights are off but the window is open, letting the curtains that are yellow with some Winnie the Pooh characters on them as I stare at the moon.Crescent.I shiver a bit as I realize I've been sweating again but I don't want to stay in this room anymore.I had never liked the idea of staying alone.Mother Superior knew that and when she felt like beating me to pieces wasn't actually going to do much, she'd send me to the cellar, keep me there for days till she knew I was weak from screaming too loud.But of course no one knew.I couldn't dare be ungrateful.Even I, with my big mouth, knew that.I quickly take the yellow blanket on my bed and wrap it around my body then begin to walk outside the room.The whole house is eerily dark and quiet but I don't want to stop
After what had happened last night, all I really wanted was to sleep and not be disturbed.At least, for one more hour.But there's this puppy that keeps drooling on my face and breathing loudly on my ear, doing some licks here and there on mu cheeks no matter how many times I turn and try to push it away.I finally let out a loud groan, taking a pillow and pressing it over my head as I grumble "Who sends a puppy to wake someone up?""Ouuu. Is that my nickname?"I let out a scream as I roll off my bed and land on my butt, my eyes landing on the person that's sitting on my bed with a smile on his face "Good morning!""Chocolate?" I ask, because with that excited look in his eyes, it can't be anyone else "Were you— Were you the one licking me?"He nods and let's out an 'arf'I let out a louder groan "Why is everyone so weird?"Chocolate suddenly falls on the bed, looking at me with his head upside down as he says in a tiny voice "Would you come rub my tummy?"I make a face "Ewww! No!" T
Yesterday, Doc takes me to get some clothes (I had to wear her sweater and sweatpants out but I honestly doubt I'd ever return it) and my uniform.Not that I ever saw it after she bought it.When we returned, she asked what else I'd like to have in my room, as something personal for me since she had been the one who actually made the room and would like it if I left my own signature piece.Chocolate has his personal changing room.Caramel has a mini library.Cream has a water dispenser (turns out he's a fish. Are you surprised? I'm not)And Strawberry has a punching bag in his own room. Obviously, it's a sign of him needing help but I'm not saying a word about it.I, on the other hand, get five teddy bears.Why am I being the creepy teddy girl?Well, I'm glad you asked.Asides from the obvious fact that I'm absolutely terrified of sleeping alone because of the dreams I have, I also wanted to make sure Chocolate never has space to stay on my bed again so I can just sleep in peace.But
"Oh come on, it'd be fun!" "Well, dear Chocolate. Anyone who knows you and I can boldly state that I do because you've been on me like a leech for three days now, would know that your example of fun always has pain involved!" "But think about the sports bike! Who wouldn't like to be on a sports bike? Especially a bike that I'm riding in?" "I don't care!" There had a car they drove to school. An Audi Q5 anyway, but it was Strawberry who drove and it was also painfully clear that if I crossed my limits and entered the car as well, he'd happily run the car off the bridge and kill everyone just so I'd die too. So Coco, kindly, said he'd drive me to school. I mean, at first I was terrified out of my wits. Who in the lord's name would give Coco a car to drive? Did they not even worry about the pedestrians on the street? But no. It had to be a sports bike. Which is clearly worse. "Don't be like this, Kitten" Chocolate says, resting on the bike "We're going to be late. Not that I h
The first person to ever know what I really was, was my Ma.Alistair Montgomery was many things, and one of this things, was her ability to read people. It helped her in gossip groups, rising in fame—Helped her in handling me."Are you alright?"I look up from the book I was dawdling in. Doctor had given me saying I could write whatever I wanted in it, that was if I did not feel okay enough to talk to her myself that was.But I would never write what I felt. What I thought.It didn't help anyone.Kai is sitting some feet away from me, a look on his face that reminds me of how Lily looked at me when Mother Superior brought me out of her basement.I hated it.I chuckle, closing the book "Yeah. My shoulder still kinda hurts though""Wanna go to the clinic?" He asks.I give a brief shake of my head "No. It's just a light bruise, it'd go away"I try to reach out for it again, wincing one more time. I think I hit the handle of the locker and hurt something, I don't even know anymore."Um,
Throughout the whole day, no one talks to me. Though I'd rather they had because the side talks and eye stares were uncomfortable but Kai made it bearable.For one, he tried widening my japanese vocabulary but I was really glad I only knew certain phrases and didn't want that to change."But it makes you look like an idiot" He said"A kawaii one" I replied with a wink.He groaned."But when I realized that school was over, my body tensed.Kai wouldn't be there.Kai couldn't make me feel comfortable.Of course he realized my sudden quietness but I didn't give him an explanation. I know that there was no need for me to worry about going back because I was fine before but that fees so long ago.Kai hd offered me a ride home but I didn't want him to see that I lived with them so I just told him I already had a ride though I doubt I still did after everything that had happened.I walk into the girls bathroom, glad that it's quiet and empty as I stare at my reflection.My hair needs obvious
For as long as I can remember, I have never been brave.I always tried to avoid trouble, always tried to make sure no one got into trouble because of me. Most of the times, I would rather make myself suffer for as long as I could if it meant no one would get hurt.I didn't want to be a burden to anyone anymore.It was why the first time I met Chocolate, I kept running away from him, but he was the most persistent person I had ever met.Sure, there were days he terrified me but instead of me to be scared of what he was, it only made me want to be by his side and help calm him down as much as I could.That way, it would be like an equivalent exchange right?He protects me, and I care for him.But Chocolate was never the type to show emotions, and when he did, it was like he made an enormous mistake and he would replace it with a laugh and a grin.I never told him, but he always made me feel useless.Cream and Strawberry as well.When I tried placating Ber, it always ended up with me alw
I fucked up.I know that. I knew I was going to the moment I felt her hand on my arm and an electrifying feeling nearly shut down my senses.But I didn't feel sorry for what I did.So what? She was the one who broke my personal space first! No one even touches me when they know I'm pissed! Except Chocolate, but he's a maniac.I hiss as a small voice in my head tells me that she didn't know that but I ignore it, my eyes still on the two figures in the yellow painted room.Doctor is on a chair, Vanilla seated on the floor facing her bed while she rakes a hand through her blond hair, each movement so gentle that it doesn't surprise me when I can hear slight snores leave Vanilla's lips.And it also doesn't it surprise me when Doctor uses her other free hand to send a message to me without even looking back.Close the door and go to your room.I clench my fist, the thought of leaving them alone horribly unpleasant but I knew she was already upset with me and I didn't want to push my luck s