AMELIAI finally arrive at my apartment completely weak to my unable to feel or even think anymore. My eyes are completely swollen and my soul is completely broken as I stand before the door staring at it endlessly not knowing what to say or what else to do anymore. This day has officially become the worst day of my life and I don't think I want to go through any second of it. The guilt rocking my system has officially killed me and rendered me so completely weak. I have to end this as quickly as possible. I can't keep on carrying this within me. But what the hell do I have to do to set this out? After a long while I finally managed to lift my hands and knock on the door.I wait for a short while and it doesn't take too long before Mom finally opens the door and the look she gives me is not what I expected. The look she gives me is filled with absolute pity. It looks like she is giving me is just making me want to cry continuously. I just feel so ….I don't even know what to say. I jus
AMELIAWell. it is officially my last day in school. The day before the day I will no longer let my presence be known in this school I have been for almost all my life. It is officially the day my back will be turned on this school never to return probably. Only the heavens know if I will ever be returning here in a million years.I am standing right in front of the building staring at it with a lot of thoughts in my head as my arms remain folded behind me. I have gone through a lot in this wonderful school of mine. Lily? Ishh, I don't think she is ever going to be having any sort of discussion with me in the next 3 months or years to come. There's no need to try to find her attention anymore. It has long been over between us so it is just of no use. I think it's high time I let go of this town. Maybe all this happened for a reason. Maybe my destiny doesn't end here. Maybe I have a lot more to accomplish and this town is just not the right place for it that is the reason for all this.
AMELIAAfter that sizzling hot experience with Miles, I decided to visit my favorite milkshake shop for the very last time before heading home since we were leaving the next day according to the plan Dad erected for our departure. I just have to grab this chance as I'm not sure whatever city we are heading to will have or make this kind of milkshake these guys make. It has this sort of recipe that soothes my soul and makes me calm whenever I am in a tough situation that is why I target it as my favorite.As usual, the whispers surrounding me from every corner of the restaurant are much but I am done worrying about all of that. I decided to ignore them and just act like everything was normal and nothing was happening. I am so not ready to bother myself about that shit anymore. It's just..... it is just over. Thinking about it has granted my head the pleasure of an extreme brain-splitting headache. I don't think I can continue to bother myself about it. This is my last day in this town a
-----~[AMELIA]~-----The late afternoon sun shines through this idyllic town of ours called Willowbrook in a warm, golden glow as I stroll along the tree-lined streets. School has just ended for the day, and the air is filled with the excitement of the approaching weekend. But amidst the carefree laughter and youthful chatter that filled the air, I am currently carrying a heart wrenching secret, one that weighs heavily on my young heart. It's inevitable and ignorable. No matter how hard I try to shove the matter away, I can't. It keeps wrecking havoc in my head.I and Lily Mitchell have been best friends since we were toddlers. Our lives were entangled like the branches of the ancient willow tree that stood proudly in the center of town. We are totally inseparable and indestructible. We share everything—our dreams, our secrets, and even our first heartbreaks. We have kind of an oat-like promise between ourselves that makes us spill out any secret we have within ourselves no matter h
-----~[AMELIA]~-----After trying as much as possible to muster up as much courage as I can to face my fears, I finally push the door open and step in feeling the scrutinizing gazes of the present occupants of the vast living room I am currently stepping into. I smile and shut the door behind me focusing every single of my attention on the only person my mind is forcing me to look at right now at this moment. Lily beams the moment she sees me and she places her hands on her cheeks. "Wow I feel so loved she came to see me." She says and I find myself giggling uncontrollably. Damn. I really missed my friend today. I greet both her parents offering me the most welcoming smiles I have ever received as usual. But at the same time, my mind is in a total chaos trying as much as possible to put as much distance between me and the object of my current nervousness sitting at a distance with his legs crossed in a majestic bossy away staring at me relentlessly. My heart and brain are ver
-----~[AMELIA]~-----She's doing this on purpose. I just know it. She wants me to stay back for her. It is so visible on her face and I know that if I ignore it and just walk home, she is going to sulk and ignore me for weeks. I grit my teeth and facepalm myself within me. I really don't have a choice in this matter. Yeah I really don't. I just have to stay back for my baby. I smile and shake my head. "It's fine. I will stay for dinner Mum." I say to Mrs Mitchell and she beams ecstatically. The pure joy that explores her face at my reply makes me wonder. The issue is not different with Lily as well. The happiness I can see blooming on her face is priceless. What the hell is it about me that is making these people just…. I don't know….. so much to want to keep me at all cost? I am so carried away by my happiness at their happiness that I find myself chuckling uncontrollably with my palms on my flushed cheeks, I didn't know how my head managed to tilt to the right and fall straight
-----~[AMELIA]~-----"I am sorry I didn't mean to, I just..... I just felt the need to meet up with Lily." I say and he raises an eyebrow. " While I was asking you a question? " I grit my teeth with nervousness at my extreme stupidity. Just what the heck is my problem? See what I'm talking about? His presence around me just turns my head in 360 degrees making me make silly insensible decisions. I just..... I feel the urgent pressing need to get away from his presence. He is just choking me so hard without even knowing it and it's... Urghh. "Look at me when I'm talking to you Amelia." He says and I gulp. Oh shit. I clench my fists together and maintain my fixated stare on the ground. I definitely can't do that. Heck no. It's not going to sit well with me. "Amelia." He calls my name softly and my heartbeat pounds rapidly without caution. I slowly lift my head up to look at him before immediately turning my head away. Somebody please help me!!!! Just help!!!! He finally sighs.
-----~[AMELIA]~-----His stare is persistent and soft, filled with the glitters of admiration, want, desire...... What the.... I really don't know if it is my imagination..... But that is exactly what I am seeing in those spectacular eyes of his that have long ago stolen my sanity. I swallow and take a deep breath finding it severely hard to return my focus back to the composed poem Lily is trying to show me as we stare at each other with neither of us backing out. "This particular one talks about meeting the guy for the first time even when........... " Lily's voice beside me slowly drifts into mumbles as I find myself getting engulfed in the flaming oppressive overwhelming aura emanating from the man a few meters away from me piercing me with the most arousing stare like I am some precious treasure that he can't take his eyes off. I myself can't even find any single amount of strength within me to look away. I just..... I...... "Dinner is ready." Mrs Mitchell's voice suddenly jo