Chapter Three

CHAPTER THREE

 "You really want us to do this?" I asked, wanting to make sure it was what she really wanted.

"Yes!" she replied. 

She kissed me and opened wide. Our bodies already on fire burning with the desires waiting to be satisfied.

She bit her lip. She was letting out a soft moan as I slid in and out, in and out. She danced and wriggled happily as I continued to pump.

"More!" she cried. "More! Harder! Deeper! Oh! Oh! Oh!" She bent her legs. She was beginning to shake. As I continued to pump her, I blew in her ear again.

"Oh yeah!" she exclaimed. "Oh yeah! Keep it up! Keep it up!" Her legs began to shake wildly. She seemed to be shivering. She was sweating. I pumped faster.

She squirmed, grasping my body. She continued to shiver. Her whole body seemed to be vibrating. It felt like she was losing control underneath me.

Her breath was short. I pumped hard and deep, and then my hard organ spasmed and spewed. She continued to shake and shiver as my jism filled her.

"Oh yeah!" she screamed. "Oh yeah!" The stream stopped. I climbed off her. She curled up her naked body beside me and kissed me.

"You should have warned me," Tess said.

"Warned you?"

"Yeah, you should have warned me before you exploded like that. Wow!"

"Well, you're quite the firecracker yourself," I said, smiling. Again, we kissed.

"Thanks," she said. "I try. I can't wait to try again." And we softly faded into the night together.

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“I can’t believe I’m going to be a father in the next few hours.” I said to Tess who was already in her surgical gown, sitting on the bed close to me. I was already jittery. For the first time in my entire life, I was going to be a father. I had no damn idea about how to feel, how to act or what to do. I had that “first day at school” kind of feeling. 

“You going to do just great.” Tess assured, squeezing my hand with a weak smile on her face.

“Yeah, I know”. I said, looking her on her face. “Babe, are you okay?” I asked when I noticed how uncomfortable she was.

‘Do I look okay to you? Matt, I’m the one carrying the baby and would go under the knife soon. At the end of the day, you’d end up being the father of a child you felt no pain for. I wonder who the hell made it to be like this.”

“Hey baby, you need to calm down. Everything’s going to be alright. I’ll be here with you all the way. I won’t leave your sight, not even for a second.” I promised

“Okay babe.” She said, seeming a bit reassured by my words.

“I love you.” I said kissing her on her forehead.

“I love you too. Mum called, she said she’s on her way here.”

“From where? Ohio?”

She nodded

“Hell no. Why didn’t you let me know earlier?”

“We just spoke a few minutes ago when you stepped out to get some air. She said she’s already on a flight down here to witness the birth of her grand-child.”

“Hell no. She aint coming here. You know how it is with your mum and I. I don’t wanna get bossed around by her.”

“But babe, you’d now or later learn how to get along with my mum. You aint gonna cling to that incident. Come on, It’s 2 years already, Matt. You need to let it go.” 

Let it go? I thought. This woman made me hate myself. I had almost decided against getting married to Tess because of her. Hell no, there’s no way I’m gonna allow her step her foot in my house.

“Babe you’d need to call her. There’s no way in hell I’m going to let her come here when I’ve got the whole situation under control.”

“C’mon babe.” Tess said with her soft hand on mine and the other on my cheeks as she stared at me with so much reassurance in her eyes. “You need to let it go.”

“Okay babe.” I sighed.

Just then the nurses threw the doors open with their stretcher. My heart skipped a beat. The defining moment of my life was just a few moments away. I was just a moment away from being a father. The whole feeling seemed a bit new and somewhat awkward. No matter how hard I tried to suppress it, it just shows up anyway. I looked at Tess who was just being helped into a stretcher. She looked a bit anxious and unease. She stretched out her hands reaching out for my hand which I took immediately without hesitation.

“Oh my God! Honey are you okay?” I heard a voice ask as the door flung open. 

I looked up to see Joan, Tess’s mum. She quickly rushed up to hold Tess who was ready to be stretched out to the surgery room. She had completely ignored me. Typical Joan.

“I’m fine mum.” Tess answered.

“Of course, you’d be fine Baby. I’m here now and I’m going to take Care of you.”

“Mum!” Tess cut in immediately. “No mum. Matt has been taking care of me and he’s doing a very good job.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Yeah Mum”

“Well, I don’t see that. You look so pale. I’m going to be with you when you get in there.”

“Hell no, Joan. You aint gonna come here and make decision.” I roared. I had tried to restrain myself but couldn’t hold up anymore.

“And who the hell are you to say otherwise. She is my daughter.” 

“And she’s my wife dammit.”

“Stop! You both should stop this madness.” Tess roared from the stretcher where she lay watching both of us.

“She started it first.” I said to her.

“Mum, you’ve got to understand that Matt is my husband and he is going in with me.” Tess said staring at her mother. “Please can we go, I’m ready.”

“Okay.” The nurse answered and pushed her out to the surgery room while I followed behind.

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I threw my eyes open, only to see the most beautiful face I had ever seen in my entire life. She was there, lying next to me. I smiled to myself not believing how my luck could change within the last 24hours. Just the previous day, I was struggling to concentrate and work on my new book. Just when I thought it could get worst, Tess came around and made all of that go away.

I kissed her. She gradually opened her eyes. Seeing it was me, she smiled and kissed me back.

“Good morning beautiful.” I said to her when she was fully awake.

“Good morning handsome.”

“I trust you enjoyed your night?”

“Yeah, I did. I wish it didn’t have to end.” She said smiling.

“Has anyone told you how gorgeous you look? You look like an angel sent straight from heaven just to show me that love still exist. I wish that little thing we just started don’t have to end anytime soon.”

“I hope so too.” Her face changed almost immediately

“You don’t seem so convinced about that?” I asked her when I noticed her sudden change of mood. 

“Not actually.” she mouthed, perhaps the whole thing had happened so fast.

Indeed, the whole thing had happened so fast that no one actually had time to think about anything.

Looking into her eyes, I saw so many pains hidden in her eyes. She had tried to hide it but it was just there staring me right in the face.

“When I look into your eyes, all I can see is so many pains locked away in there. I know it must be hard for you to say and perhaps it has changed your perception about giving your heart out but I promise you’re not going to regret this.”

Just then, my phone just rang. I picked it up and it was Mr. Lesley, my editor.

“Shit.” I mouthed.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. My editor is calling. I’m way behind schedule on my new book and I guess that’s why he’s calling.”

“Oh, I get it. You should get going I guess?” she asked with a moody face.

“Yeah, but maybe, we could hang out later in the day? Perhaps we could go see a movie?”

“Okay, that would be lovely.”

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  “Dude, I told you were going to like it but your dumb ass kept doubting me. Just look at how you smiling from the both sides of your mouth.” 

This was Greg’s response after I had told him about my experience with Tess the previous day. Even though he didn’t believe that we made love in the first night, he was really happy that at last I’ve been able to get hooked up with a hot girl. At last Lori would finally remain where she is; in the past.

“Yeah, yeah. I get it now. You going to say I told you so and right now I’m not cut out with all that bullshit now. I’m really focused in finishing up this book. Lesley would have my head on the platter if I don’t bring in my work in the next few days.”

“So, have you been able to check out any other hot girl yet? Dude with that dating app, you aint gonna get bored ever again. Like N-E-V-E-R!” 

“C’mon man, what’s wrong with man? Hot girls. That’s all you care about and you could go on and on, all day, talking about hot girls without ever getting tired.” 

“You know me dude, that’s how we roll man.” He said, smiling.

“Dude, this aint what I need right now. I’ve got so much work in my hands so I guess we’ll have to hook up at the bar later tonight. You should go.”

“What the fuck man. You asking me to leave your house? Damn you man. you’re such a dumbass. That’s why Lori treated you like shit.”

I had all the urge in the world to punch Greg in the face after what had just come out of his mouth but for the fact that he had been my best friend since like forever, I was forced to watch him walk out the door and slam it shot unscathed.

Lori was certainly a name I detested so much. She was my Ex that made me think love was such a cruel thing.

Looking back at all those months I dated Lori, it was nothing but pain and sorrow. I loved her with everything I had: my time, energy and resources but I got nothing else in return other than pains and so much pains. I had felt like I would never survive my last encounter with her. Greg was right, Lori treated me light shit, like I was a nobody. The last time I ever got to hear from her was when she broke up with me.  

I felt like whole world was going to fall down on me. I gasped for breath. I reached out for my inhaler, puffing it twice into my mouth inhaling it almost immediately but it couldn't do anything to help. My body shivered as tears rolled freely down my cheeks. My heart has been shattered into a thousand pieces.

"I'M SORRY TO TELL YOU THIS WAY. SHANE PROPOSED TO ME YESTERDAY AND WERE GETTING MARRIED SOON"

I read this text message over and over again trying so hard to make sense what it was all about but my body was already shutdown due to the wave of shock that struck me earlier. I quickly rushed to the bathroom to wash my face as I felt so dizzy. I made sure I wasn’t dreaming.

Picking up my phone, I dialed her number but she wouldn't pick up. I called again and again but all to no avail. It was at this time it dawned on me that Lori was gone for real. She left without a prior notice leaving me so empty and broken even when she knew I had already built my whole world around her.

Almost immediately or perhaps out of impulse, I jumped out of my bed and went in search of her. It was rainy morning but who cares, I was already losing my mind. I left in the rain, wearing just my underpants and a T-shirt (I was already out my mind) straight to her house.

When I arrived at her place, I met her parking some of her belongings.

"So, it's true." I finally said after I stared at her for some time.

“Are you fucking out of your mind? Where the hell are your pants?” she asked as she looked up to see me.

“I had no time to put them on. I needed to be here so you could tell me you’re joking.”

 "Please Matt, you shouldn't be here. I just wanted to be packed and ready before I’d call you to come pick up your keys." she said in a mild tone with her face bent to what she was doing.

 "I didn't come for any trouble. I came here just to hear you say it to my face that it is over between us and you don't need me anymore" I said amidst tears of anguish, my heart filled with so much bitterness.

 "Please Matt you don't have to do this here. Please just go" she pleaded as she dropped what she was doing and tried to lead me to the door.

 I grabbed her two hands firmly and at the same time trying not to hurt her.

"I want to ask you a question. Tell me now how I am supposed to live without you now that I've come to build my whole world around you? Tell me how meaningful life is going to be when you know very well that I laid down for my life just for you to live. Why? Why will you be so heartless to forget all the good days we shared, all the battles we've fought together and all the bullets I've taken for you. You found someone better than me and you just forgot about me in a flash" I cried.

 I poured out my heart to her hoping she would just laugh and say that it was all a joke or that she would just realize the mistake she was about to do.

 "Damn it, Matt." She burst out. “Can’t you see that this has been coming all along? You’re just a dumb ass. I’ve never loved you. I just had to stick with you because I knew you love me and was willing to take care of my bills. How would you expect me to be in love with a weakling like you? Shane is way much better than you. He had to propose to me yesterday coz I told him I was pregnant for him.”

 "Pregnant?" I asked almost immediately, the word, hitting me like a bombshell.

 "Yes, you heard me well. Matt you should have seen this coming all along. Those days I refused coming over to spend the night or spend the weekend. Those days I avoided your touches and kisses. My heart was already sold out to another but you were just so blind to see it. Please just go, Shane will be here soon and I don't want any altercation between you guys." she said and walked back to what she was doing, hitting the last nail on the coffin.

 I stood there like a clueless human being (I was at that time) starring at her parking her clothes quietly. Tears of anguish and despair kept rolling down freely.

 I left when I couldn't bear the shame of losing my woman a long time ago and only just getting to know about it. The pains that accompanied it was so excruciating that I nearly collapsed to the ground as my legs couldn't carry me. All I could just do was to bundle up myself and walk away like the loser I was.