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Chapter Nine
The summer class has ended a day ago, but still, the pain hasn't. Things are getting absurd and I really don't like what's happening to me.
And us.
If I just didn't meet that guy that life could be much easier for me.
But destiny makes its way to ruin my life.
"Just one more day," I said to myself. Of course. Just one more day of freaking pain and I might just burst out.
Good thing the summer class has ended and all I need to do is to work at Red Velvet's the following day.
I took a deep breath in and entered my room. It was peaceful and quiet and peaceful again.
Why can't my life be like this room?
I sighed and sat on the edge of my bed, then, brought out my Psychology book. I've got the books to explain what's happening to me, but why can't I accept the fact that I have fallen in love with Drey?
So deep, so hard, that I cannot even stand on my own feet. It was too fast. I don't know what to do.<
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