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He came over and leaned down to press a kiss to my head and then moved down to press one to my swollen stomach. “Daddy’s home,” he whispered.“Daddy’s home,” Lily mouthed at me with a hint of amusement.“I’ve told him not to say it like that,” I said.“Like what?” Xander looked up, glancing between the two of us.“It just sounds so… dirty.” Lily flushed.“You do know that’s what I’m going to be right. This kid’s daddy?”“I’m well aware of that fact, babe. But you make it sound sexual.”“Jesus.” He ran a hand down his face, stalking off toward our kitchen.“Love you,” I called after him, unable to hold in my laughter.“Kingsley is off the list,” he yelled back, and I let out a little huff.“I liked that one.”“What does Xander like?”“Clarke, after his dad. Or Galen.”“Galen is cute.”“Yeah, maybe. For a girl he likes Kadie or River.”“River?”“Yeah.” My heart stuttered.“Peyton, that’s—”“I know,” I whispered, painful memories pushing their way to the surface.When Xander had first su
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I’d imagined a son since she broke the news to me. I was terrified, yes. But determined to be a better father than I had been a young man.“And if it’s a girl…”“Then God help me, and God help any guy who ever tries to come within ten feet of her.”“Hmm, why is that such a turn on?”“Oh yeah, you like that? The protective dad routine?”“I don’t hate it.” Peyton batted her lashes at me.She made pregnancy look so effortless. Sure, she was hormonal and grumpy sometimes, but she made it work.Silence settled between us as I stroked her foot back and forth. Until a soft sigh slipped from her lips, and I asked, “What’s wrong?”“Are you scared?”“Scared?”She nodded. “That we’re not ready? That I’m too young? That it isn’t the right time?”“I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. It’s a baby. It doesn’t get much bigger than that. But we’re ready.”It had taken a while for everyone to get used to the idea. But ultimately, it wasn’t their decision what we did with our lives. Besides, Hailee w
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“No, I guess she isn’t.”But she would always be the girl I’d watched live her life unapologetically. Despite everything she went through with her mom, Peyton always lived life to the fullest.God, I’d envied her back then. Her ability to walk into the room and steal the show. Even now, she made pregnancy look effortless. But that was Peyton. She had the ability to adapt. To take everything in her stride.“One day, babe,” Kaiden said, and I frowned over at him.“What?”“One day that’ll be us.”My heart spluttered in my chest. Had he really just said that?“Lily,” he added. “What’s wrong?”“You just surprised me, is all.”“We’ve talked about the future before.”“I know.” We had. But only in the way that most college couples made plans for the future.What-ifs, dreams, and maybes.“Lily, do we need to talk about this?”“I don’t know, do we?”“This was always the plan.” Kaiden ran his hands around the wheel, frustration bleeding from his expression. “Football is…”“Everything to you, I k
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“Everything okay over there?” she asked when the server left us.“Fine.” I grabbed my beer and drained the remainder of the contents. “Just a little hot.”“It is warm in here. The open fire is beautiful, but they could do with better a/c. How was your food?”“Good. It was good.”“Kaiden, look, I know I’ve been—”“Shall we go outside? Check out the singer?”Live entertainment was one of the big draws of the place. People came from all over the local towns to watch their musicians sing, serenade, and play.“But dessert.”“I’ll ask them to bring it out to us.”“Oh, okay.” She smiled again but this time it didn’t quite reach her eyes.If she suspected I was up to something, this would be the last thing on her mind.Part of me hated that, hated that she automatically assumed the worst.I’d never given her cause to doubt me, not once. But I knew it wasn’t that simple. And I knew that me leaving soon weighed heavily on her mind.I waved over the server and ordered our dessert, requesting tha
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“Lily, thank God,” Aunt Felicity said as she and Uncle Jase appeared at the end of the hall. Lily got up and went to them, letting them wrap her up in a hug. I laid my head on Ezra’s shoulder and he gently squeezed my knee.“Anything?” I asked, as the three of them came closer.“Nothing yet. They’ve promised somebody will update us as soon as possible.”“God, this is horrible,” I said.“It’s a waiting game. But they’re in the best place,” Uncle Jase said. “I’m going to call Asher and let them know what’s happening.”“I’ve already texted Poppy,” Lily added.“I wish I could be in there with her.” Aunt Felicity stared down the hall toward the doors marked restricted access.“She’ll be okay, Mom.” Lily reached for her mom’s hand, tears clinging to their lashes.None of our parents had been happy when Peyton and Xander announced their relationship. She had been young—still in high school—and Uncle Xander had been the football team’s assistant coach. But Peyton wasn’t like most other senior
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“She’s in the NICU. She’s so fucking tiny and fragile but the doctors said she’s strong. Just like her mama.”Xander gazed at Peyton with a look of awe. Her eyes found his and the two of them shared a moment.“I can’t wait to meet her,” Lily said, still clutching Peyton’s hand.“You can, soon. You can’t go into the room yet, but they have an observation window. Xander will take you later.”“Oh my God.” My girl was crying, big fat silent tears rolling down her cheeks, our date night all but forgotten.Except, I hadn’t forgotten. The ring had burned a hole in my pocket the entire ride to the hospital.I’d waited too long to ask her, and now, my chance had passed us by. But I couldn’t regret it, not when I knew how much Lily needed to be here for Peyton and Xander.I only regretted that we didn’t have some news of our own to share with them.Maybe it was the universe’s way of saying it wasn’t the right time.I didn’t want to believe that but fuck, if I didn’t believe everything happened
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“I know what they said but she’s not here, with us. Until then, I don’t want everyone…” She trailed off, the tears breaking free.“Shh.” I squeezed her hand. “It’s okay. We can take things slow.”My brother and Hailee had already met River. Lily and Kaiden too. But our family was big and from all the texts and calls I’d been fielding all morning, they were all eager to meet our new arrival.“I just want to hold her. I’m supposed to be the one holding her.”“You held—”“It’s not the same, and you know it.” Frustration bled into Peyton’s words. And I hated it. I fucking hated that she felt anything but the goddess she was.But I also understood.Peyton thought her body had failed her—had failed River. She blamed herself, and no matter how much I tried to reassure her that wasn’t the case, I knew it didn’t matter.“Look at me.” I gently gripped her chin, forcing her big blue eyes to mine. “I’m in fucking awe of you, babe.”“Y-you are?” Her lip wobbled and I slid my thumb along the seam.
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I was at war with myself. On the one hand, I wanted to lose myself in him tonight. To imprint our last night together on my mind so that I could get through the summer. But on the other hand, it hurt too much to think about saying goodbye to him this way.“Mmm, you taste good.” he drawled, dragging me up and onto his lap. His fingers slid into the back of my hair as he deepened the kiss.“Kaiden.” I fisted his t-shirt unsure whether to push him away or pull him closer.Winding his hand into my hair, he gave me a gentle tug. The air turned thick, making it hard to breathe.Or maybe it was the way he looked at me. With pure hunger.“How long until your mom and dad get home, do you think?”“We can’t,” I said. “Not down here.”“You want to move this upstairs then?”“I… okay.”We got up and Kaiden made quick work of turning off the TV and locking up. With every step I took up the stairs, my heart crashed violently against my chest.This was it.The moment I’d been dreading.Our final night
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