Bestfriend

SUNNY POV

“WHAT is with the long face, best girl?” Christian asked me.

“I’m just tired, I guess?” I’m actually not sure why I suddenly feel like this. Could it be because of what I heard and saw earlier?

“I know a way o how to makeyou feel better.” he said while smiling at me. That eye smile.

Huhu. Don’t be like that. You’re making me fall for you more and more. Huhuhu.

“And how, best boy?” friend? I want to add, but it's impossible.

He know me well. The  things that I like. The things that can make me happy, sad, angry, or whatever it is. But there is one thing he doesn’t know.

He doesn’t know how I really feel for him. He doesn’t know that I like him for too long now. And he is the only guy that I will love even after getting married with that small Pol guy.

“Hihihi.”

“What are you giggling at? Here’s your favorite macha flavored ice cream.

Eh? Did I say it loud? Huhuhu.

“Eh? I just saw a cute child sticking his tongue out to me as I made a face. Hehe.” sorry for lying. Huhuhu

“Alright. Eat it before it melts. Though I know that melted ice cream is your favorite. Come with me after this. I’ll make sure that after that, you are feeling much better.” and there his eye smile again.

I’m dying. Huhuhu.

“Eh? What are we doing here? What are we? A high school student having a past time? Hello? College life is waving.” I sad while waving my hands in front him.

“Tch.” he said and grabbed my right hand. “I know how much you love this place. So, come with me and let’s just enjoy killing time. A’right?” he said using his Asutralian accent again. Geez.

“Fine. I’ll use all your money. Haha.”

“My card is all yours. Do whatever you want. Play whatever you like. ‘Kay?” and I nod in response. But he did something that made my heart skip a beat for one second.

He grabbed my hand when I was about to let go so I can find a game to play.

“Eh?”

“I might lose you if I don’t hold your hand, best girl.” he said and smirked. How I wish I am the best girlfriend, instead of just being called ‘best girl’. 

I opened the car window and screamed at the top of my lungs.

“Yaaaah! I’m so tired yet I feel so happy. It feels like all my worries are gone now. Thank you, best boy. You are the best boy friend ever!” 

He ruffled my hair while laughing. “Crazy best girl, ever.” he answered in return before driving again.

I will just treasure every moment we have right now. By next I am already a married woman to a stranger. And he can be the best boyfriend to the girl that he chooses to love.

“Best boy, what if one day you found out that you are arranged to be married to a stranger. But there is a girl that you like. Will you continue with the wedding or will you fight for the girl that you like? But the consequence will affect your own family?” I asked without looking at him. I don’t want him to know what I am going through right now.

God knows how much I am willing to fight for the freedom of marrying the guy that I like. The guy that I wanted to live with forever.

“I will fight for the girl that I like, as long as I know that she likes me too. Because it will be hard to fight for someone when it is only who likes them. And if that girl likes me too, I will definitely fight for her even if I need to go against my family. I can still find a way to help my family to get back on track again, but I can never find another love worth fighting for. If it is you, what will you do?”

Should I tell him? Is this already a sign that I have to let him know how much I like him?

“Well, if I will be in that situation, I will f-” I wasn’t able to finish what I was about to say because his phone rings.

“Hello? Yeah. Sure. Bye.”

“I’ll go now. See you at school tomorrow. Take care on your way home.”

“A’right. See you tomorrow.”

And just like that, my answer to the question was left hanging in the air that moment he drove away. This maybe is destiny’s way of telling me to forget whatever it is that I am feeling for him because he can never return it. What he feels for me is just like a baby sister.

He can love me as his best girl, but it will never go deeper than that. And he finds Bridgetter better than me. Is it about time to bury this feeling that I have for him? He even liked Bridgette when it was their first time meeting each other. Unlike me who have been with him for almost half of my life.

Life will never be fair in love. Someone will always get hurt, and that is the person who fell in love first. And that is me.

*FLASHBACK*

“Hi Bridgette.” he greeted her with a big smile in his face.

“Oh. Hello there, Christian. What brought you here?” she answered, but not the same way how she talks with other guys.

“I came for you. She always mentions you to me every time we talk over Skype. I heard a lot about you, and how you take care of my best girl.” and I feel flattered after hearing that, but at the same time there is this feeling that I can’t name yet.

Or I just don’t want to recognize it even if I already know it.

“Sunny? She tells me about you? And how was it seeing me in person?”

“You’re pretty. Nice. But only to the person you like. Hahaha.” he laughed and Bridgette too.

“But the question is, what brought you here?” my best friend asked again.

“Hmmm. Let’s say because I like you. I like you, that's why I came here. Can it be considered as a valid reason?” and I feel like my whole world crashed in front of me.

I feel like my knees turned into a jelly after hearing what he said. I run. I run but I don’t know where to go. I just run until I get tired. I run until my tears run dry because if the wind touching my face.

I felt like the wind was embracing me as I kept on running. Finding an escape to let this unknown feeling I am having right now. Until I find that spot in the university where no one is, and let my tears run down my face again.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

“Stupid, Sunny. You know what you are feeling right now but you don’t want to accept it because it is  about your best friend.” scolding myself in front of the mirror.

Am I not that pretty for you to like me? Is being with you  half of my life not enough? I know you the most yet I wasn’t able to know how you truly feel for me. Sometimes I feel like we have mutual feelings but it is just me in the end.

I like you, but if it is Bridgette that can make you laugh more than what I can do for you, is enough for me to give up on you. And besides, I am about to get married to that small Pol guy, so we really can’t be together.

But I am still willing to fight for you, if I hadn’t known that you like my best friend. I am more than willing to go against my family’s rule if it is for you. Just like what you said, I can find a way to help my family get back on track again, but I can never find a love that was gone.

Just be happy for them Sunny. Atleast, you can still keep your two best friends, but you also need to keep whatever feeling you have for your best boy.

And I let darkness take over me as my tears keep on flowing like there is no end. If I knew from the start that this is how painful it is to like your best friend, I should’ve stopped it from the first time my heart skipped a beat because of you.