Chapter 21

CHAPTER XXI

Kinabukasan, mas naging kuryoso ako sa kung anong nangyayari sa labas. When Kade left, I immediately got my phone and connected it to his internet.

I opened the web to see lots and lots of articles about me. I clicked the latest one.

‘Supermodel Isla Rae de Catalina, mistress of singer Kade Doyle who’s in a relationship with actress, Coleen Heart?

It has been days since the photos of the two was leaked to the public and Isla’s house was broken out by someone the day before the two got back from their trip in Hawaii. The fans speculated that it wasn’t Paul Hidalgo in the photos before but it was Kade. The two were in a relationship two years ago before Kade confirmed her relationship with Coleen Heart on his tour. Fast forward, after the movie release of Infinite War, the two were photograph together many times which people thought at first was Isla’s co-actor, Paul Hidalgo who she was linked to. The fans of the loveteam, #Co-De calls out to Isla’s management and company to cancel her. Coleen has given her statement with this issue while Kade and Isla remained silent.’

I go from article to article.

‘I thought Kade and I are okay. After the premiere night of Infinite War, he was spending less time with me. I didn’t even know that he went on a trip abroad until someone told me and I was hurt. I have been faithful to him but my source says that Isla was the one who seduced my boyfriend. I am still trying to reach out to Kade and heal the wound in my heart. Thank you.  –Coleen’

I didn’t even know that I was labeled as the mistress! My parents, friends and even Mama Honey is sending me text messages about the issue but I can’t answer them kasi hindi ko din alam kung bakit at paano ako naging kabit. I want to ask Kade pero umiiwas siya lagi.

Ayokong maging tanga at walang alam sa mga bintang sa akin. Gusto ko ng sagot. Kailangan ko ng sagot.

“Why are you holding your phone?”

I turn around to see Kade.

“Totoo ba ang nababasa ko?”

“Babe,”

“Kabit mo ba ako Kade, huh?”

“Babe,”

“Don’t babe me, putang*na! Answer me! Kabit mo ba ako?”

Bumaba ang tingin niya.

“I’m sorry,”

“I’M SORRY? Sorry dahil ginawa mo akong kabit, ha?!”

“I didn’t mean to.”

“P-Paano?”

“I was torn of who I really love ka-“

“Kaya ginawa mo akong kabit?! Walang hiya ka!” I slapped him hard and went to get my luggage. Hindi ko na alam kung tama pa ba ang paglagay ko ng mga gamit.

I stormed out of his building until I hailed a taxi and went home.

My house was still the same. It was all a mess but I don’t care.

Pumunta ako sa kwarto ko. Thank god at okay lang ang parteng ito.

I cried and cried and cried myself to sleep. Ganun na lang ba talaga ako?

Dahil hindi niya alam kung sino ang mahal niya kaya ginawa niya akong kabit?

Bakit ganun?

He tried calling me a couple of times pero hindi ko sinasagot.

I’m done with him. I need him to just be honest with me in the first place pero hindi niya nagawa. I asked him if he’s single and he lied!

May kasalanan din ako kasi hindi ko sinigurado mismo kung totoo ang sinasabi niya pero ganun na lang ba talaga?

Magsisinungaling siya para makapagpasya siya? Can’t he just take some time off away from everything and reflect then decide? Kailangan pa bang masaktan ako? People are calling me names. They wanted me dead and I being a dumbass bitch just trusted everything to him tapos simula’t-sapol ay may sala rin siya.

I woke up in the middle of the night with the same woman but now, she has a face. I see Coleen’s face, smiling wickedly at me while strangling me. Nagising ako at hindi na nakatulog.

For days, while sobbing and blaming myself, I was sleepless. I didn’t eat nor sleep. I was seeing Coleen sometimes on my house walking while holding a knife.

Minsan pinapahawak niya sa akin tapos minsan naman may mga binubulong-bulong siya na gawin ko daw.

Sinubukan kong sumigaw ng tulong para alisin siya ditto pero tila wala namang nakikinig.

“Coleen, get out of my house! Iniwan ko na si Kade like you wanted. Can you leave me alone, please?”

She smiled at me and shook her head.

‘Bakit ako aalis?’

Iniwan ko siya doon sa living room at bumalik sa kwarto ko. Kade has been calling me but I shut my phone off. Nakakairita siya!

Habang nakahiga ako, may pumasok sa kwarto. Nang tignan ko, si Coleen lang pala.

“Bakit baa yaw mo akong tantanan?”

‘Eh sa ayaw ko?’

“Ewan ko sa’yo. I left him already.”

‘Diba nami-miss mo siya?’

“Oo but I can’t go there baka pagkaguluhan ako ng fans mo. Baka patayin ako sa daan.”

‘Paano kapag puntahan ka niya dito?’

“Hindi ko siya papapasukin.”

‘Kade would force himself to be with you.’

“How can I make him hate me?”

‘Aalis lang ako dito kapag hate ka na niya.’

“How would I do that, exactly?”

‘How would you want to die?’

“Well, I want to wear the first dress that he gave me and lay on this bed filled with roses. Tapos I will be in my light make-up and curl my hair. Gusto ko ding hawak yung roses na nandoon sa garden.”

‘Then make your dreams come true.’

“You’re right!”

I got up and went to the backyard. Kumuha ako ng mga roses doon. I arranged them in a bouquet. Tapos, kumuha din ako to put on the bed. I filled the bed with the remaining roses. Para na nga siyang kama ni Snow White noong namatay siya.

Naligo na din ako pagkatapos. This is the first time after days that I took a bath. I brushed my teeth and dressed in an off-shoulder white dress that Kade bought me on one of our date before plus did my light make-up and applied lip gloss on my lips. I curled my hair.

Pagkatapos, I smiled contently in front of the mirror. I got the sharp thing on the kitchen to my bed. I laid on my bed, the bouquet on my side and the sharp thing on my right hand.

‘Gawin mo na,’

Dahan-dahan kong inilapat sa left wrist ko ang kutsilyo hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang hapdi at ang pagdaloy ng dugo mula dito. Tumulo ito sa aking kama na naging kasingkulay na ng rosas na inilagay ko. Unti-unti akong ngumiti at kinuha ang bouquet na puro tinik at iniyakap.

Bago pa ako mawalan ng malay, nakita ko ang nakangiting mukha ni Coleen at narinig ang isang boses.