Continuation..."You are right; I hate you, but I can't hate you every day; we both have enough reason why we end up like this; I hate when you suddenly avoid me and stop talking to me; still, I am here on my position which my heart is still trying to understand you, you see even we want to do things because it may or might hurt us, but we can't bring ourself into, even you want to be at the hospital and save him you won't be because things happen no matter how we stop making it happen."Amber said that made me stare at her, and I didn't know should I respond to her.I stay quiet and remain myself staring at the ceiling, "There are still a lot of people who need your help, and you can't just stop right now; David is brave and fight for what he thinks is right, and abandoning your work is not appropriate, he won't want that, Esth."I know what she is trying to say, and I am thankful for how much she tries to comfort me.I didn't say any words after that and remained silent until I fel

ESTHER POVTwo years passed and I resigned from the hospital, even I want to ask for information about Amber I couldn't, until now, I am still blaming myself, I hurt her too much though...my heart filled with regret, I should have chosen her, I should have agreed with her, my heart beats only for her, even time and day have gone too fast, nothing changes with what I feel.I turn my back in surgery, in all medical related work, I need to avoid Caleb as well, I know I hurt him, I left him before because I cant lie to myself forever, I am no longer in love with him, every admiration I have is just plainly childish crush for him and so I had to make a decision, I need to let him go and have the person she deserves."Esth, have you finish all the documents that needs to filed?""Three remaining and I am good""Okay better!"It is Sheena my supervisor though she prefers to be called by her first name and throws the formality but sometimes I cant help myself but to call her Maam which she u

I am frozen on my position ... she is, she is here but why? my mind suddenly rumbling with my thoughts, I want to walk towards to at least ask her.I am trying hard not to move a step, I might going to regret if I will talk to her but damn if I do, damn if I dont ... shit, every second is running and she is now moving away towards the elevator.This cant be, I need to talk to her!I walk fast to her and hold her hand that seems to startle her.I am now looking straight to her eyes when she stare at me with undistinguish emotion within her.It took a little minute of staring between us before I get the guts to start a simple talk but ..."May I help you ... doctor?"I am stiffined when I hear that, how come she seem to not recognizing me."E-Esther ... doctor Esther""Oh, do we somehow know each other?"At that point I was stunned, she really dont remember me, I was trying to imagine what had already happened to her when I decided to walk away.She was still in the hospital when I left

Sweets, it is what everyone needs after a stressful event or job you had to take, pouring some liquid sugar in my cup while sitting here in the cafeteria, I nailed my eyes at the food counter, and suddenly my mind travels again to the past... those moments when I used to see Amber cooking all the food we eat, I always find a good spot so I can see her doing her stuff inside the kitchen and then after she sits beside me, those moments...is it gone?I deeply let out a sigh and then look outside the window, I am not sure if I should be happy or be okay that she forgot when I hurt her or still find a way to talk to her even though I knew she is already a different person now.After a little minute of spending time with myself, I receive a message from the ER, same drill, same routine, another set of a story from a different patient.I stand up and start to walk going to the ER, about Ms Perkins, somehow it has already been four days passed when I did surgery on her and Ellaine is now gett

Still thinking about my sandwich, after that moment with Amber I feel like I want to eat something that I am craving and that is that egg and ham sandwich!Since a lot of stuff going on in the ER, I was assigned again for the graveyard shift so probably I will go home again with the sunshine on my face and feeling exhausted again.Going back to the ER, they are all looking at me, of course, who would have forgotten that scene when a great doctor does the rants at the patient! Like what Amber says, not everyone is in favour of what I did, well I don't care, right now, I know my mistakes but I certainly know what I am fighting for!I walk to the station and this bitchy face of Alice approaches me."I hope you at least learn your lesson, it is obvious that the child doesn't know that so you should not have a rant to his parents which is patient, now our job gets more complicated this time!""Complicated?""Ms Holist ordered everyone to be at their modest attitude with the patient even th