Awww Manuel is the sweetest. I can see he is anxious, nervous to have me here. Lilah had told me he was not very confident around women, plus Gabe had teased about me being gentle with him. Yet I look at him, he is big, tall and a muscly, strong warrior, handsome and covered in tattoos, I seriously do not understand why he would not be confident, he is gorgeous. I imagine he has had she-wolves queuing up for him, yet the moon goddess had decided he would be mine. I find his uncertainty and nerves quite endearing to be honest… Trying to kiss him to reassure him is difficult when he is a fricking giant! I aimed for his cheek and pretty much got his chin! But it meant he lifted me up. I decided to go out of my comfort zone and do what I had seen Esme do earlier and wrap my legs around his waist to allow us to kiss properly and, wow, had I been rewarded for being brave! The kiss was amazing! See he may be nervous, but I am just as nervous…. I do not have much experience around m

I decided to take her example and slipped off my trousers, leaving me in my underwear, pulling her close to me once more, the contact of her skin against my body was sending shivers all over my body, as her mouth explored mine, the kisses passionate yet tender, needy and wanting….. this is the girl I had been waiting so long for and she was finally here…… I ran my hands down the curves of her body once more, feeling her groan against my lips as I did, so I took that as a good sign and let my hands wander a little further. Lola moved slightly, flipping me so I was now under her, she was straddling me. And my heart was pounding in my chest and I was wanting my mate so badly…. Though I imagine she knew that…. could feel that that from where she was sat….. I could smell her arousal in the air too…. My beautiful mate wanted me…. And beautiful she was…. She looked perfect sat on top of me too….. Suddenly, she had unhooked her bra, and I was able to take in the view of my almost n

I had struggled climbing down from the bathroom window, but I guess all the tree climbing as a young girl had done me good in the end. Who would have thought back then when I was doing all the tree climbing with the boys it would be in preparation for running away from my future mate…. I had got away with only a few scrapes, no doubt a few bruises by morning, but I am sure Kya would help them heal. Albeit reluctantly, as she was not happy with me right now. She was devastated, leaving her mate behind. She had wanted to complete the mating process, so happy to finally have the other half to her. So for me to run out on him she had been screaming in my mind, trying her hardest to push forward and shift to make me stay. I had to struggle with all my might to keep her back. She was now sulking in my mind, a mixture of hurt, anger and pain emanating from her being.Stupidly, all the same things I was feeling, but I had to do what I did, I had to run. I could not let myself become at

After rounding up our group, we headed over to Manuel’s house. He sounded a little stressed through the link I have to say, though maybe that is because he is worried for his cousin. I don’t know. I know I need to be wary about how I do this as I do not want to be too full on and intimidating to Lola and scare her or upset Manuel with it being his new mate. Lilah is doing her best to keep me calm. She loves Manuel like a brother, and she does not want to see him getting hurt or caught in the middle of all of this and right now that is exactly what he is. Manuel opens the door to us. He looks tired, though after a night having just met his mate, I would expect nothing less. Though he is only wearing a pair of shorts and I cannot see a new mate mark on his neck, which surprises me. Dan when he met Indie had marked her as soon as possible, as do most couples, thought I know Manuel had been nervous last night. “Here are the clothes Manny, you want me to take them up to Lola?”

We all look to one another in shock, as Gabe has just walked out of the house, dismissing the whole situation. I thought hearing what he had would make him decide he wanted to go and try to fix things. Everything Lola had said sounded positive, she hadn’t fooled him, she hadn’t lied, she wanted him, she wanted her mate, she was just scared. She had a complicated situation in her pack and the arrangement with her pack for her degree that she was scared it would compromise. I can understand that, so why could he not? Perhaps he was unable to see the logical right now. I know he was hurting but he did not want to throw this away so easily. This was worth fighting for. Seeing them together last night, that was clear to see. We needed him to realise that. We need to speak to Esme, see how we can help her. She may not be part of our pack right now, but she was fated to be, so perhaps we needed to see what we could do to try to help her. In doing that, we would be helping Gabe. Or is tha