Hindi ko akalaing ang panaginip kong madalas noon ay kasalukuyan nang nangyayari ngayon,,pagkasaradong pagkasarado niya sa pinto ng kwarto niya ay walang babala niya akong sinunggaban ng halik..It was a rough kiss at first,marahas at punong puno ng pagmamadali na tila ba naghahabol ng oras at aminado akong nahirapan akong sabayan noong una pero di naglaon naging mabagal na at banayad, tila ako dinuduyan sa gaan ng kanyang halik at haplos sa aking hita.. damn!She was caressing my leg sensually dahilan upang magtayuan ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan, i could feel my thing in between my legs getting wet because of her warm hand doing now at my thigh slowly traveling at my center. I am still fully clothed pero ramdam na ramdam ko ang init na nanggagaling sa kanyang kamay na ngayon ay narating na ang pakay.. i gasped for air when i finally felt her bare hand touching me down there sensually...damn it feels so good, fucking hell..My heart was pounding so hard and fast because of the feel

Madaling araw na ngunit ayaw parin akong dalawin ng antok, I've been trying to call my girlfriend and explain everything but she turned her phone off and even her social medias nakasarado rin,.i never thought na masakit at mahirap pala malagay sa ganitong sitwasyon iyong babalewalain ka ng taong mahal mo dahil sa galit, i must admit i made a mistake when i went out with sir Kevin but i had no idea na mangyayari ang mga iyon, ngayon wala na namang tigil ang mga luha ko, i am so damn scared that kailey might leave me any moment by now, we were just starting but this shit happened damn it.One more try,i took a deep breath and silently praying,.i dialled her number and my heart skip a beat as i heard the line finally ringing, i waited for her to answer my call at nawawalan na ako ng pag asa nang nakailang ring na ay hindi parin niya sinasagot, lalong bumayo sa lakas ng pagkabog ang dibdib ko,, as i was about to end my call she suddenly speak.,"Explain" iyon lamang ang sinabi niya ngunit

Pagkauwi ko sa bahay pinilit kong gawing normal ang bawat kilos at ngiti ko, pinasigla ko rin ang sarili ko at panandaliang kinalimutan ang bumabagabag sa akin.,I also played with Iana with her dolls until she got tired and fell asleep in her play room.,i carried her and put her in our bed..,Nang makitang maayos na siya sa higaan niya ay bumaba ako at inabala ang sarili sa pagluluto ng dinner namin. Wala ang mga kasambahay ko dahil inutusan kong maggrocery. Hindi pa ako natatapos sa aking ginagawa ay bigla na naman akong nakaramdam ng pagkirot mula sa aking ulo.Napasapo ako sa ulo ko, nanginig na naman ang mga kamay ko, nagsisimula naring pagpawisan ang noo ko..damn bakit parang napapadalas na yata ang pananakit ng ulo ko.. My body was trembling because of the pain,my knees were getting weak, nanlalambot at nanghihina na ang mga tuhod ko, nahilo ako at tuloyan na sanang babagsak nang siya namang pagsalo sa akin ng mga bisig mula sa aking likuran.."Shan are you okey?" it was Freian

In life everything that happens has its own reasons ika nga nila but in my case right now i still do not get the reason why is this happening to me, i am all alone in this darkness and i must admit that it scares the hell out of me.,i am so damn scared that i might be stuck in here at hindi na makabalik pa, mahirap mag isa sa dilim na ang tanging naririnig mo lang ay ang boses at iyak ng mga taong paulit ulit nakikiusap na bumalik ako, how i wish they knew that i want to wake up and come back as much as they want to but shit i just couldn't, i can not find the way back. All i could do is to hear them begging and crying, feeling their love for me but no matter how i tried to give them the signs that i can hear them ay wala, no matter how i scream my lungs out hindi nila naririnig, i am losing my shits damn it i am missing them so much specially my baby but i can not do anything but to cry and pray na sana ibalik na ako sa liwanag kasama ang mga taong naghihintay sa aking pagbabalik.

KaileyThat night when Shan left at the resort without any words i must admit that the reality that night hits me,,iyong reyalidad na dapat pala ipinaglaban ko ang pagmamahal ko or i should atleast confessed her how much i love her, how much i am deepy inlove with her.I was planning to confess my feelings to her that night but when i was about to asked her to come with me at the shore she already left, gumuho ang mundo ko hanggang sa hindi ko nalang namalayang napapabayaan ko na pala ang sarili ko.After a week when she left with Jasper i went to the Yu's house and beg for tito to let me pay their debts but damn i felt pity towards Jasper after hearing everything to tito the reason behind the wedding thingy and then that night i made a promise that when the time that kailey comes back i will then tell her my feelings towards her at sa pagkakataong iyon sisiguraduhin ko nang sa akin na siya magpapakasal at bubuo ng pamilya.Sa loob ng mga taon na iyon na wala siya sa buhay ko aminado