All Chapters of Amara's Diary: When Nothing Free Ever Lasts: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50
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Izanagi
She melted underneath me. Soaking into the bedsheets of our hotel suite. A sigh escaped her. I watched her misty eyes dim and return to their original indifference. She bitterly muttered. "Get off me." I pulled out, tossing the condom before lying next to her. My head turned to check the time. It was past eight. She could still make it in time for her schedule...if she ran. I turned to say something only to catch her glaring daggers at me. "Because of you, I'm late." I blinked. When I wanted to pull out earlier over you wrapped your legs around me and begged me not to stop. Yeah? It was cute on day one but now it was a serious mood killer. "...Sorry." She looked annoyed as she sat up. "Are you really? Because you don't seem sorry at all! Why are you always like this?" Right back at ya. I'm sorry that I can't help not being sorry. I do feel bad that her reputation has gone down thanks to this. She's been late to her gigs lately, whenever we're together like this it's easy to
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Wanted: Heart
Her answer didn't actually matter. If she chose me, I'd probably keep fucking her... I mean it's free cooch. But that was it. But her silent glare and pursed lips spoke more words than needed. "You're not in love with me, sh--, you don't even like me." Her chest heaved, a humph escaped her as she hugged herself. "Don't give me that shit, what about you?!" I liked you enough that's why I fucked you bitch put the pieces together! Of course, I couldn't say that. In situations like this, all she'd be able to hear is "He likes me." Not anymore. Suddenly I had an epiphany. "Ahhhh," I nodded. "Ahhh, I see." She eyed me frustrated. "...What?" "Nothing. Nothing at all." I turned for the door when she skittered ahead to intercept me, planted herself in front of the door. This girl... "What are you doing?" Her eyes shimmered with defiance and determination. Her hand traced the collar of her robe before moving down to untie it, it slipped to the floor. "Are you...trying to be sexy no
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His Neighbor
Her eyes were like cut jewels that scratched you the moment you make eye contact. When she asked me if I wanted to come in my mind froze as it instantly went to a dirty place, but I had to consider possible cultural differences as well as the fact she seemed to personally know Kagami before cooking up an appropriate response. "Sure. Um... Thanks." Describing her simply as a cutie would be an understatement. She was underdressed now but I could already tell from all the girls I've seen before their transformation; she's already this adorable without makeup how much more would she be with it on? More importantly, so I don't fuck anything up. "What's your relationship with Kagami?" I asked as she opened the door. "He's... a friend." Her tone became gentler just now. He's in the friendzone? Hahhh, that guy has always had zero interest in girls. But he's never gone out of his way to befriend one before...my instincts are telling me to sit tight and watch. Let's see how long it takes
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Kagami's Words
"Mmm. I guess. If you like rock." I say that but I get more stares these days, there's nothing you can do not with your face on tv. Amara hummed and walked over to the living room and came back to bequeath the remote to me. "Why don't you put something on? I want to hear what Kagami wrote." Claire tilted her head. "What do you mean what Kagami wrote?" So I explained. "Kagami wrote all our songs." "Sugarboy did?" "Hah?" Sugar boy? Kagami? Well, actually I guess it's fitting. More importantly, are they close? Which one is his squeeze? Don't tell me he never made a move on either? Would he really do that? ... Yeah, he would. Amara ushered me to the living room by pushing my back. "Please ignore her." She walked back to the kitchen to bicker with Claire while I tried to figure out their tv. __________________________________________________________________________________________________ I managed to make something like sandwiches, and edamame. And juice but I could hear Claire's
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Naked
He was my Japanese teacher + I had to see him every day at school. It was a stressful experience as back then he got up early enough to walk with me. I came to hate his face. Whenever he asked me to eat together right after a lesson, I could never decline, because he was always polite even when I messed up my Japanese. To have patience with a person when teaching them... I find people who can do such a thing, an anomaly and it makes me feel like a piece of trash in comparison especially if I slight them or don't cooperate. That's why I couldn't decline him that time either when he invited me to his house. I didn't expect I'd be going up to his room to wake him. His Mother seemed to give up on calling to him from downstairs. When I got to the door, I heard music, a soft and soothing male voice. Did he fall asleep listening to the radio? I thought. When I knocked on the door the music continued, when I opened it, it was as if I caught him naked because when he noticed me he let out
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If I had to pick a day it'd be this one
I think the time our friendship really started was after I learned most of the language. We started talking in Japanese instead of English. On rainy days we'd have lessons in his room when his Mom wasn't home. Those days unnerved me the most for some reason. Being in the open vs a closed-off space, even if we were sitting in the normal spots something felt weird. The sound of his writing made me anxious. The hums he made when I made a mistake threw me off. The leaning over my shoulder even when I wasn't writing anything and thinking made me self-conscious, I was on my period so what if he could smell the blood?! Trying to inch away when he wasn't looking... His long stares to even his fidgeting and breathing made me want to hurl myself out the window and somersault over our fence to the house. I had to ask to use his bathroom as an excuse to get away and compose myself. A: (u - u) Bish stop acting so crazy. Seriously what was wrong with me? Damn period! When I returned he was
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Wet Bomb
Mrs. Fukuda called me over often. I'm not sure why, I used the opportunity to learn cooking from her. When Kagami came downstairs and saw me he'd freak out. I think, that's why every time something happened with him she'd use me. Surprisingly I was fine, since I didn't really have to say much. He got annoying though. Sometimes trying to check my Japanese and other times trying to get me to go up to his room to listen to his songs. He's an innocent guy, it's not like that. That's how I got by telling myself and was able to keep my sanity so far. ---- So listening to Azure Phoenix sing such a suggestive song made me tilt my head. (Your eyes seized my soul, beckoning me to you, had me down to please in ways I never had. Breaking all my rules, crossing boundaries like a fool. I'm in your waters and now, I'm at your mercy. Stabbed my heart with a hook, Didn't want to leave you even if I could. But the second you opened your mouth, the illusion ended. You became ugly. Sicken
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Focusing on the wrong thing
Calm down me. You were once independent too! Hachiro raised a brow. "What? Is there a problem with independent artists?" "Huh? Ah, no. I was also one recently." "Then why'd you ask?" "I was curious as to why you guys weren't on the project event pages." "The what?" Rinko filled him in. "The Project event website. We won't be featured on the page since we're independent, no one will know anything about us since we're rookies." She was able to look at him without looking away when he met her gaze. "This event we'll be able to make a name for ourselves...we had to sign a consent form for camera footage..." Ah, that. I've seen cameras around but they only follow around popular bands. "So it's like that..." They could have made a page for them showing their audition performances at least, that's rather cold. "Yeah, it's like that," Hachiro added. A question sign hung over my head, the pointed way he stared at me ...this guy, he's really starting to rub me the wrong way! "Hmmm....
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Recollection of Bands
It's been a while! So I'm posting a recap in case everyone's forgotten the characters. Thank you for reading if you still are reading. Azure Phoenix (Aoi Phoenix): Aoi's sound was indie while Azure was more on the rock side- but also digestable. Izanagi- a quarter german. His german blue eyes and slightly forreign looking nose easily draws many girls to become interested in him. He bleached his hair in past but currently it's more of a fiery orange with red tips. His natural hair color is an ash brown. Used to play guitar but he now plays bass. One thing that hasn't changed is that he's still a vocalist. Utaka- half french pianist who has always been popular among ladies for his baby face. Is currently dating Momo, an idol from a popular girl group but he's thinking of quitting to attend college, and focus on his dream of becoming a piano teacher so her parents will be less intimidated by him. Gen- drummer, he used to have a mohawk but he shaved it. Got his girlfriend pregnant an
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By the Boot Straps
Reminders: (surname 1st, name last) Yoshida Hachiro- drums Kurata Sosuke- guitar Tani Rinko- electric violin Fukuda Kagami- currently plays the role of vocalist. Honorifics: san-Mr/ Miss kun- semi/formal title for guys of same age as speaker In the end, Hachiro-kun had no power to do anything. Or rather when he came back from allegedly doing it his face was awkward and twisted. I was waiting in the room with Fukuda-san and Sosuke-kun when he calmly asked. "So? How'd it go?" He didn't answer right away as he begrudgingly stood in a corner of the room with his hands on his hips. Finally, he huffed. "...Are you the project event organizer's son or something?" "No." "Don't lie." "Don't go making excuses. It's simple, I'm from an actual band that has already performed at actual locations with others meanwhile no one has ever heard of you. So if you walk up to them saying you can't work with me, they'll naturally think the problem is you and be less willing to listen to whateve
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