I barely slept last night, twisting and turning thinking about that kiss I shared with Chance. Argh why am I letting this mess with my head. I mean it wasn't my first kiss but it sure was the best kiss I've ever had. 'No, no, no stop'  I say to myself while looking at the mirror.'I mean it was just a meaningless kiss, it didn't mean anything' I try to convince myself. That was when I heard a knock on the door. When I opened it it was non other than Lily and Chelsea. 'Sup'  they both say while entering inside my room. At the thought of that I find myself chuckling can't believe this is my fate I am actually considering this place my room. I close the door after them and look at them confused. 'Um what are you doing here guys? Are you even allowed to be here?' I ask confused. 'What you mean allowed?' Lily asks me with one brow raised.&

The next couple of days have been amazing I've made some pretty cool new friends, I even consider Ice my friend even if all he does is ignores me. As for Chance I haven't seen him since our last make out session and I have been so at ease. I went out of my room whenever I wanted and roam around the house freely without the fear of him catching me... I even went outside can you believe it I never thought I'd ever experience the rays of the sun shine ever me again. I even met two little doggies I love dogs and I have become quite attached to them I literally cannot last a day without at least seeing and well playing with them I guess in other words they've become my new besties heh. The best part of this all is that blondy isn't here as well no screaming, no Chance just peace I think to myself and sigh happily. I was currently outside reading a book the sun shining down on me ahh so pea-. 'Zoeeee!!!' a

Like he promised Rodrigo came back, his eyes seemed clouded by sadness and he couldn't look me in the eyes.   'Rodrigo you promised me to take me with you when he does something bad to me' I look at him pleasingly.   'I know Zoe'   'So will you take me with you please'   'I'm sorry but I can't, look what he did was not okay I get it bu-'   'But nothing Rodrigo he locked me up like an animal in that cell just because I didn't tell him who let me out of my fucking room, how the fuck can you just stand there and justify his actions'   He just remained silent and I knew immediately knew that he would never change his mind nor turn on this brother, I mean it's his brother and I'm just a nobody, never have been anyone's first choice and I never will be I guess I had already accepted that.    'Please get out Rodrigo' unable to look at him a

All I saw was red I was so angry everytime a person used that name on me it brought back some unpleasant childhood memories that I would rather not remember. I kept pulling her hair but that was until I was pushed off her and fell on my butt when I looked to see who pushed me it was Chance and he was very angry. He came closer to me and suddenly memories of what he did to me suddenly started coming back and how easily I let him sleep in my bed yesterday what is wrong with me my gosh.  'Don't you ever lay a finger on her ever again Zoe and that is a warning you don't want to fucking mess with me and you damn know what I'm capable of.' he finished and took blondy inside while I was left stunned. Everyone started to head back inside so I followed after them I wasn't aware of what was going on around me my mind was still trying to wrap around what just happened. When we got inside we found Chance on the phone very angry I actually felt sorry

Since my encounter with Chance I have been avoiding him as hard as I can. It really didn't help with the pain. To be used and then tossed aside I felt a single tear rolling down my cheek but I immediately wiped it. Never cry for a man who doesn't deserve it. I wiped my tears and went downstairs for breakfast and when I got there I saw Chance and blondy all over each other but I tried to hide the hurt I was feeling.'Morning.' they then turned their attention to me but they didn't answer me.Moments later the gang joined us and we sat down.'So how many are you in this gang of yours?''We are alot some just live in the warehouse' 'Oh' is all I said then I turned my attention to blondy and Chance. 'How long have you two been together.' 'Like four months.' blondy so eager to answer when I looked at Chance he was scowling at me. 'Oh' is all I said to them too. 'Um Zoe you okay?'&nbs