Finding their mates

*Trigger Warning* 

From Marina 

Happy Birthday to me, I mockingly wished myself.

My Birthday was not a joyous occasion. 

Another reminder that I got to live and my mother didn't serve its purpose. I had nobody with whom to celebrate. I had no family or friends. I was just a girl living in a park, surrounded by strangers who had no interest in me.

My life was miserable and pitiful. My life was in such a shambles. I felt hollow and lifeless inside as if nothing was left for me. He treated me like a loser when I thought I had finally found someone to love me. I was so damaged.

I've occasionally thought that I don't deserve to be alive. If Natasha were here, my mother would reassure me that it wasn't my fault. It never seemed to help me feel any less guilty, no matter how many times I tried to tell myself that it wasn't my responsibility because I wasn't the one who killed her.

I shrugged off my melancholy ideas and focused on something upbeat.

I took a look around the painful area I was in. I had a  bed that was raised in a room corner. The absence of recent painting had left the walls peeling. I had a full-length mirror on one side, and crates held my clothing.

Aside from the clutter, everyone else had put up here and occasionally crept out at night, I had nothing else. Since most of the items up here didn't require storage, they did it on purpose.

I took a shower in one of the shared restrooms with everyone else. I always made an effort to utilize it when nobody was around.

My life stinks.

 I got out of bed and went about my routine day. Everyone was present because it was Saturday today. I hastily fixed breakfast and then swept the house. I do mean the entire house when I say that. I had to clean every room, which was difficult for me because they were watching me.

 Finally, I finished all of my responsibilities. I didn't have anything planned for dinner, so I had the rest of the day to myself.

I had my head down and carefully avoided eye contact with anyone as I returned to my room. As I was ready to leave Benjamin's room, I heard someone utter my name.

  I stopped outside his door, which was slightly ajar, to hear what they were saying. I approached the door and paid close attention. I was aware that listening in on conversations was impolite, but I also wanted to know what they were saying about me. 

I overheard Ray remark, "I'm going to fuck her tonight, and after I'm done, she's all yours."

Another voice adds, "I don't mind tapping that ass."

Someone said, "We could make this even more intriguing, and each have our time with her at once."

"You watch way too much porn" a laughing other voice added.

The previous voice said.

 "Let a dude live out his dreams."

Unbelievably, a voice asked, 

"Your dream is to have a gangbang with one female and all your buddies.

"I fail to understand why the hell not? "he chuckled. Another person said, "It might be fun."

Guys, calm down. Everyone will have a turn, Ray assured.

Ray continued, laughing, "If she doesn't give in willingly, then we'll have to take what we want."

When I discovered what they had in mind, I covered my mouth in disbelief. They had all along planned to eat with me. I knew that neither one nor all of them could be defeated at once.

I wasn't just going to allow them to remove the only valuable possession I still had. I was keeping myself for when I found my partner. I wasn't going to observe passively.

 "Ray asked Benjamin, "Are you okay with this?" briefly afterward.

Are you kidding me, I say? My mother's death is a direct result of that b*tch. Benjamin responded, "I don't give a fuck what you guys want to do with her.

I last heard "Good" as I started to leave.

I went to my room and took a used duffel bag. I was no longer able to remain here. Not that I haven't been living alone for a very long time now, but I was old enough to be on my own. Even though I lived in a house with many people, I was alone.

I chose to travel light and only brought what I needed.

 I decided to pack light things so I could move more quickly and threw in only the needed goods. I tucked the luggage under my bed and decided to wait until evening to go discreetly without anyone seeing me.