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Chapter 11
I turned around just to see Weidal staring at me intently. He is wearing black formal attire. Nanibago pa ako dahil wala siyang suot na hoodie na nagtatabon sa kaniyang mukha. Para akong tanga na nakatulala lang sa kaniya.
God, why I wasn't informed about how hot he is without his hoodie and jacket?! Kulot ang maayos niyang black na makintab na buhok. He has clear skin and white skin tone, dense eyebrow and deep black eyes, perfect pointed nose, and dark red thin lips with his sharp and perfect jawline.
"Rena?" I was brought back to my senses when I heard Tita Josefa. Shit, ito na ang sinasabi ko.
Honestly, I don't know how to face them. Hindi naman kasi ako katulad ni mommy na magaling umarte at magkunwari. I'm not good at lying dahil nakikita agad sa facial reaction ko kung nagsisinungaling ako. That is what my friends always said. I'm visible when it comes to my emotions.
"T-Tita, Josefa? You're here!" I said, trying hard not to stutter. She just s
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