I slowly opened my eyes as I felt the morning sun shining on my face before cringing as I tried to sit up because of the pain I felt in my stomach and the area between my legs. I glanced around the room and realized that Kerrick wasn't there so I pulled myself out of bed, the sheets that barely covered my body crumpling to the floor.As soon as I made it to my feet, I went and got a towel to wrap around myself before quickly stumbling out of the room and making my way to the bathroom, my breath hazy as I remembered what had happened.As I showered, recalling what happened, I eventually had to slump down to the floor of the bath because I couldn't stop thinking about it.My breathing was heavy and flashbacks of what had happened came crashing back into my mind, the sound of the water beating down on my body fading.As soon as he began, the pain I felt was so horrible I almost fell apart. I wasn't even sure how everything had ended. My mind eventually sunk away from the mental stress be
I was folding a few items of clothing as I watched Kerrick button up his shirt, his gaze directed toward his reflection in the mirror.I couldn't help staring at his back silently because I was still surprised that he hadn't made any sexual advances toward me in the night.I turned back to the clothes I was folding when I noticed from the corner of my eyes that he was watching me quietly.I didn't utter a single word and only moved to put the clothes away before I noticed he had also moved towards the door before leaving the room.He was just too puzzling for me, his eyes too obscured for me to see the person behind them.I left the room shortly after to meet him downstairs as he gathered his things together. He was already leaving for work even though we had only spent two days together.I knew this was a busy time of year for him as his father had told me - which was partly the reason why we didn't have a honeymoon and only a few days together but I didn't want him to leave yet. Pos
I wasn't strong.I wasn't anything when I was around Kerrick except for a lingering shadow.Since the day I had married him, all I had been capable of doing was cowering and shying away from him whenever he was around. On multiple occasions, I had tried to understand him and his strange ways but my strength was always lost under his scrutinizing gaze. With each day that passed it seemed like I wasn't any closer to unraveling him as the day we'd first met and it was tiring because we were living like two strangers under the same roof.I stared over at Kerrick as I watched him meticulously put his things together for work before sighing as he gazed at me for a brief moment before going back to what he was doing.I didn't know why, but it made me heartbroken to know I couldn't do anything to garner his attention. He didn't seem to care about me in any way and as far as I could see, I did not affect his life.I had given up so much for him, gone through so much, and suffered a lot during
I paced the floor of the living room contemplating what tasks I had left to complete around the house.I was alone at home again because Kerrick was at work, so I tried my best to pass time preoccupying myself with something to do. I already did everything I needed to for the morning because it was only two of us so there wasn't much, to begin with.Three weeks went by since I was in this house, but it still felt strange being here.It didn't feel like my home but Kerrick's, so I always felt like I was intruding in his personal space whenever he was around and I was just a stranger here.I missed my home with my father. I missed the curtains, the carpets, the floors - everything I longed for back at my old house.What was worst of all was the fact I had no one to talk to.Kerrick mentioned earlier that we didn't have any neighbors. From what he knew, they were business people who traveled frequently so they were never around.I missed gossiping and interacting with everyone around me
"One or two?"I lifted the fruits in my hands, trying to figure out which one had better quality and how many I should take.I shoved them in my cart and continued onto another aisle before I stopped and picked up more things.It was refreshing leaving the house after being locked in for so long, I felt so free I didn't want to return at all.I pushed my cart and gazed along the aisles nostalgic for my father's store but it was better than nothing.I decided early in the morning I was going shopping because I was tired of sitting around bored and the house desperately needed a few things.I left as soon as I was finished cleaning for the morning and went straight to the nearest supermarket.I had to admit I was glad I did because I finally felt free again to think coherently and without looking over my shoulder.My shopping cart stopped when I made it up to the cashier, a thin dark haired girl that reminded me of myself as a teenager.She checked my groceries and I swiped my card acro
What was a marriage?What did it mean when I came to this house?What was I supposed to do with this responsibility?I didn't know it was going to be this hard for me but it was.I knew our marriage wasn't built on love so happiness wasn't a high expectation on my mind but neither was disappointment.I didn't know the weight of the title wife, or what it meant but I was slowly understanding it.When I agreed to this marriage I was thinking only about my father, I didn't stop to ask about myself or my well-being.I tried to help Kerrick but all he did was gnaw away at my sanity.I didn't know he could make me cry as much as I did or leave me with feelings of loneliness but it was the reality of our marriage.I was still Delancy and Kerrick was still himself, marriage wasn't going to change that."I'm going to be early from work today.""Okay.""When I return, I'm going to be busy, so don't get in my way."I sat beside him on our bed and contemplated his words.I didn't know if I was hi
Golden sunlight poured through the window at my bedside while I secretly skipped through the pages of Kerrick's photo album.Something had to be in there, something I missed but I wasn't sure what I was looking for, to begin with.In the majority of the photos, he was standing with his father. In another few, a person I suspected to be his mother, besides that nothing crossed the norm.I scratched my head and looked at another picture of him and his mother together.They were exact contrasts.Her face was bright and she was always smiling though it looked a bit forced.Kerrick on the other hand was withdrawn and disinterested."These pictures are old," I whispered under my breath and turned another page. All of them seemed to be taken before Kerrick and his family lived in his father's 'big house'.I closed the album and hid it back where I found it because I felt guilty for going through his personal things.I slowly made my way back downstairs where Kerrick was working since before
I folded our clothes while I watched Kerrick sitting by a window, staring out at the sky.His face was the perfect image of blankness but his eyes were glazed over with what looked like sadness.Each time I folded a new piece of clothing I watched him, but his gloomy expression didn't change."Delancy.""Yes?""We're going to a party tonight.""What?""A business party, my father is throwing it at the office."I licked my lips and furrowed my brows nervously."Kerrick, I've never been to a business party before."He was quiet and he didn't look at me.I went and put our clothes away but he was still looking out the window."I don't have anything to wear."He turned to me slowly and sighed."I'll take you to a store then."I smiled and rubbed the nape of my neck."Um, Okay, thanks."He got up and walked over to where I was, and I averted my gaze but I could tell he was staring at me.A blush colored my cheeks when I realized how embarrassing it was to be avoiding him so obviously but h