Chapter 7

I patted down the front of my dress as I vaguely looked across the room at everyone that was crossing the floor. I felt the soft silkiness of the fabric against my fingers as I tried to straighten myself up so I could look more presentable because after all, it was my wedding day.

I continued gazing across the room blankly at all the people that were there, everyone looking cheerful and happy as they enjoyed my wedding reception while I on the other hand sat tautly and stared.

It was extremely difficult for me to partake in anything contently because, in all honesty, I didn't know how to feel. I felt so numb and cold towards everything and everyone that I didn't even know myself. No one knew how numb I was feeling, virtually unable to feel anything. I was unable to laugh or even smile at my wedding but more importantly, I didn't feel like a bride. I didn't feel like I was married and It didn't feel like my wedding day.

The tears, laughter, happiness, and overabundance of joy that surr