~Hazel~
It's supposed to be a happy day for us.The day we remind ourselves how it all started.The day we recall how we used to sneak at night when our parents were asleep so that we could watch the moon in the sky together,hold each other so tightly and never wanting to let go while making promises to each other and praying to the moon goddess to fulfill our wishes.He promised me that he would choose me a million times if he is asked to choose someone he loves wholeheartedly and he would like to spent the rest of his life with."Hazel! Please open the door. Please...give me a chance to explain."His husky voice pierced through the quiet air as soon as I walked from the bathroom.I stopped in my tracks and closed my eyes, then inhaled deeply. My heart twisted inside my chest as though someone was piercing it using a two-edged silver dagger and it was becoming hard for me to breathe.The voice that once made my insides tickle sweetly was now causing nothing but an heartache."Hazel..."He knocked on the door again, this time louder than before, his voice strained and pleading.'I need to face this. Hiding or avoiding him won't help anything. 'I encouraged myself.I walked to the door and opened it because I knew he wouldn't stop banging. I saw relief in his ocean-blue eyes as soon as the door clicked open. His jet-black hair was a mess, he looked so worried and afraid. I couldn't recall when was the last time I saw him this way."Hazel...thank godess. I was so scared when Matteo informed me that you had left the ceremony without telling him where you were going."He confessed as he wrapped his hands around my body tightly. I closed my eyes and a single tear dropped from my left eye. It was warm in his arms, I raised my hand to hug him back but my hand hung mid-air.I couldn't bring myself to hug him, my hands fell back on my side."Please let me go! “I pleaded in a weak voice. I wanted to stay in his warm arms some more. However, it didn't feel like a safe place for me to stay anymore."No, there is no way I'm letting you go, Hazel. You're mine. “He said possessively and his grip around me tightened.I wriggled from his warm embrace and he let go. I stepped away from him, creating some distance between us and wiped tears from my eyes using the back of my hand. I didn't feel safe around him, not anymore."What do you want us to talk about when everything is crystal clear? “I asked him."Please don't say that Hazel. “He grabbed my hands and gave it a small squeeze, his voice almost a whisper."We didn't do anything, I swear. I managed to fight my desires for her. “He looked me straight in the eyes, hoping that I could believe him."That doesn't change the fact that you went to her, Sebastian. I saw it in your eyes when you sniffed her scent, Seb. You looked so different, you have never looked at me that way since we started dating. You looked as though someone had put a spell on you. She was the only one that mattered."I paused to catch my breath; tears flowed down my cheeks when the images re-played in my head once again.It was hard to hold back tears. I wanted to be strong. To pretend that it didn't hurt that much, to pretend that it didn't break my heart into a million tiny pieces.But...it was too much for me to take it. All the years we spent together, all the memories we made together, all the promises he made to me were broken.It was just too much for me to forget everything and let go. Sebastian lowered his head in embarrassment."How do you want me to forget about everything and pretend that nothing happened? "I asked and he didn't answer."I saw the effect she had on you, Sebastian. It's hard to pretend. I can't do this. Your heart doesn't only beat for me, it beats for her as well. How do you expect me to feel?"I wiped tears from my eyes."You didn't make even a tiny effort to fight for us, Seb. You promised to risk being weak and reject you’re fated if she ever comes between us. But what did you do? You went to her and made out.I felt every bit of it and it hurt so much. "I said and he was still quiet."It felt like someone was squeezing my heart into a tiny ball and it was becoming hard for me to breathe. "I waved my hands in the as I explained, hoping that he would understand how I felt while he was busy making out with his fated."But I tried, Hazel. "He said in a weak voice and his eyes were misty as though he was about to break down."Today was supposed to be our sixth marriage anniversary but I chose to accompany you to the annual ceremony. But what did you do? You didn't even show appreciation by holding back when you noticed your fated was around. Was that too much to ask? “I asked, looking him straight in his eyes and he looked away."I'm sorry for letting you down, Hazel. I'm sorry. We didn't go all the way. I fought my wolf. I fought knight and he bowed to me. "He said and a single tear dropped from his eyes.He raked his jet-black hair backwards and held onto it so tightly and a frustrated sigh escaped from his lips."Maybe you managed to control Knight this time, but what about next time?. You promised that you'll never touch another woman, Sebastian. I think I was too naive to believe you. “I paused and heaved a sigh because the words were bitter in my throat and tongue."She has a lot of control over you compared to me. I don't want to keep my hopes up. “The corner of my lips curved into a bitter smile. Seb didn't say anything; he just looked away because he knew I was saying the truth.Turning around slowly, I walked back to the room.How am I supposed to forget everything and let go? Fate didn't give me a chance to prepare my mind. I need to start preparing now because it will take me down when the time comes."Please... Hazel, don't do this to me. I love you so much. "He ran to me as soon as I turned around and began walking away from him. He wrapped his strong arms around my tiny waist tightly as though he was afraid that I would disappear into thin air."Please don't leave because I don't know what to do without you. I'm sorry about what happened at the ceremony. "He pressed his lips on my shoulders."I didn't want to go to her. I wanted to continue dancing with you on the dance floor. But...the scent was too strong. I'm sorry that I wasn't strong enough to fight it. I promise that next time I'm going to stand my ground. I will fight for us."His grip on my body tightened. He buried his face in my neck and inhaled my scent deep in his lungs as though reminding himself how I smelled."Please..."He begged and I could feel regret, pain, fear and worry in his voice. His warm breath fanned my neck and I fought the urge to tilt my head to the side to give him full access.It reminded me of so many times that he has done this. He would come to the kitchen when I'm busy cooking and wrap his arms around me so tightly from behind.I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. I wanted all the happy memories that we shared to cloud my mind. However, what happened in the annual ceremony clouded my mind instead~Hazel~*FLASHBACK*My husband Sebastian, the Alpha of the mountain pack and I were invited to the annual ceremony which is held once a year to bring all the eastern packs together.It was supposed to be our sixth marriage anniversary but I chose to accompany my husband to the annual ceremony because I wanted to be a supportive wife.The ceremony was so lively and we enjoyed it so much, we talked to other Alphas and Lunas about challenges facing the East and ways to solve them. When the ceremony was over, we decided to dance and enjoy ourselves to the fullest like in other past years.Sebastian took my hand and invited me to the dancing floor. My heart pounded wildly and all my insides tickled sweetly. My wolf Mia purred in my head and I was so happy. I accepted his invitation and followed him.He wrapped his right arm around my waist possessively and held my other hand in his gigantic hand. The song playing in the background was sweet and slow, he looked into my brown hazel eyes and m
~Sebastian~My hands trembled as I cupped her face, my heart pounded wildly against my ribcage. I couldn't recall when was the last time my heart pounded this hard. I couldn't help but feel scared as I waited for her response. Her silence was killing me."Hazel, please say something. "My voice was almost a whisper and shaky. She closed her eyes and heaved a deep sigh."I don't want to fight a losing battle, Sebastian. "She said and shook her head, then her lips curved into a bitter smile.'She's giving up on us. Our sweet Hazel is giving up on us. 'Knight howled inside my head, the pain was too much to bear. It felt like my heart was being pierced by a silver dagger."Are you giving up on us. "I asked her and I was met with another heart-wrenching silence."I have no choice, Sebastian. I'm on the loosing end. I'm bound to lose. "Her voice a whisper. I looked deep into her brown hazel eyes that I loved so much as though searching for some answers, but all I could see was sadness and u
Chapter 04 The pastHazel"What are you doing in the forest little princess? "I turned in the direction of the familiar voice and smiled.The soothing female voice that sang me a lullaby and read me stories before I fell asleep."I'm looking for mushrooms, mama. It has been a long time since we tasted it. I'm tired of meat and vegetables. ''I said and turned around, then continued to pick more mushrooms."The forest is not a safe place for you or anyone at your age. It's too dangerous. You made me scared. "I saw worry in my mother's eyes and she heaved a deep sigh.Sigh of relief because she had found her missing princess."I'm sorry that I came to the forest without your permission. It's just that...I knew you wouldn't allow me, that's why I decided to sneak. "I confessed, fiddling with the helm of my dress."It's okay. Don't ever do that without my permission, right? "She asked and I nodded, "We can buy mushrooms from the market, you don't have to come all the way here. Come on, let'
Two weeks passed and I didn't hear anything from Sebastian's mate. I did my background check with the help of Monalisa, one of the east Lunas who is my friend.Alexas is Alpha Raymond's daughter from the West. She was invited in annual ceremony by her cousin Alpha Leonard, the Alpha of the Silver Moon pack where the annual ceremony took place.She's the only child of Alpha Raymond. Her mother died while giving birth to her and she was raised single handedly by her father.Monalisa dug deep and even brought me a picture of Alexas. Even though I didn't want to admit it because it hurt damn much. Alexas is a beautiful woman. She has long brown hair, blue eyes which resembled Sebastian's and an hourglass figure."I hope she won't show up in our peaceful lives again," Mia told me and I didn't know how to respond to her statement."I hope so too."I told my wolf and she was quiet. I heaved a sigh and closed the files that I was going through inside my Luna's office.Sebastian was not around,
~Hazel~It felt like time was moving in slow motion.I couldn't believe what was happening. I wished it could be a nightmare so that I could wake up in my bed and Sebastian hug me tightly."Wha...what is she doing here?" I asked, my voice full of worry. Mia howled in my head, sensing danger.It was silent, everyone was silent and it made me more scared. I looked at Sebastian and he looked away. I turned my head to Matteo and I saw uncertainty in his eyes."What are you doing here Alexa?"I asked her and she trembled.My voice was cold,I didn't want to be nice to her."I didn't come to cause harm, Luna Hazel.I'm only seeking refuge in your pack because mine is destroyed. The dark prince attacked our pack and took my father as his captive. He gave up himself to save mine."She said and tears poured from her eyes."Why mountain? There are so many packs you could go to.Why here?"I asked her and she bowed her head, avoiding my questions."Why didn't you go to Silver Pack?.I believe Alpha Leonar
~Sebastian~Hazel turned her back on me and faced the wall when she saw me walk to the our room. She moved on the edge of the bed leaving a big space for me.It was evident that she didn't want me to be any closer to her.Hazel didn't talk to me the whole day.She was quiet throughout the journey to Silver pack and back.I tried to crack some jokes but she didn't laugh,I was met with silence and I kept my jokes to myself.She avoided me at all costs and all I could do was to stare her from afar.Heaving a deep sigh, I climbed onto the bed and moved close to her.Ignoring her reaction from earlier."You'll fall off the bed in the middle of the night. I don't bite."I said, sounding funny to lighten the mood. I tried to touch her and pull her in the middle of the bed but she pushed my hand away."Don't touch me."She woke up and looked at me, pain flashed in her brown hazel eyes. I wanted to stretch my hands and touch her beautiful face but I restricted myself."Are you going to reject her or n
~Hazel~I woke up and went for my morning runs as usual,I took a warm shower and dressed up for the day. I looked at myself in the mirror as I tied my hair into a ponytail and I didn't like what I saw.A sigh escaped my lips when I realised that I had lost some weight. There were dark circles under my eyes because of lack of enough sleep. I had nightmares often about my mother and I found it hard to get some sleep afterwards."Good morning."I heard his husky voice pierce through the quiet air but I didn't bother to look his way.I turned on my heels and walked out of the room without looking back at him.He had come back the shower.It has already been one week since Alexa moved into our house.I have asked Sebastian to tell her to get out of our house multiple times but every time he's about to chase her something would come up and it would become hard for him to do it.Alexa is so dramatic, she would collapse on the ground or go to her knees and start pleading. Sometimes she would
~Hazel~"You can ask me anything on this earth but don't ask me to let you go because I won't, Hazel. I can't let you go."Sebastian hugged me so tightly and soft sobs escaped my lips."You're mine, Hazel. There is no way, I'm letting you go. I love you. I promised your father that I would protect you from anyone who wants to harm you. I'm not letting you go."He shook his head vigorously and clung to me so tightly as though he was afraid that I would escape through the window and run away.I fought to get break free from his suffocating embrace and he let me go. Tears streamed from his eyes as well."You're hurting me, Sebastian. You're doing the exact opposite of what you promised my father. I can't take it anymore, Seb. Please let me go. Please reject me so that I can be free from this chains of fate."I begged for my freedom. I would have rejected him and left the pack if I had the power to.However, I couldn't since rejection needs both parties.He needs to accept the rejection so t