"Huwag mo akomg idamay sa kahibangan mo, Rico. The reason why I always faint it's because I'm just tired, okay?"
I turned my back on him, and went back to my room. Heavy lump inside my throat, and felt how my blood boils on its limit when I went inside my room. Agad kong sinara at nilock ang pintuan, at doon ko ramdam ang panghihina ng tuhod ko, dahilan ng pagkakatumba ko sa sahig.
"Why does this turned out like this!!!" paulit-ulit kong hinahampas ang noo ko habang walang tigil na tumutulo ang luha ko.
I pursed my lips when I hardly breathe from tearing, and saw my phone kept on ringing while Rico's name is on the screen. Kinuha ko ito bago pinahid ang mga luha ko. I ended the call of him, and thought of blocking his number. Tinitigan ko pa ito ng matagal habang ramdam ang pagsikip ulit ng dibdib ko.
Instead of answering his calls, I looked for Alexa's number...
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World seems so cruel when the time that I wanted to get away from them, the time that they will make themselves close.Nang makita nila akong nakatingin sa direksyon nila, agad akong tinawag ng lalaking kasama ni Rico na Lance nga ang pangalan.Saglit lang kami nakapag-usap dahil sa tinawag na kaming lahat to eat dinner with them. Nasa isang rectangular table kami, at isa-isa kaming nilagayan ng mga sine sa sarili naming mga baso, then the dinner with some topic they talk about na tahimik lang akong nakikinig.Kaharap ko sa upuan si Lance, at katabi niya si Rico na diretso lang ang tingin sa pagkain habang tinatanong siya. And this guy beside him always gazing at him like he's comforting Rico.That's supposed to be me.Before.Pagkatapos naming kumain, agad na akong naglakad palayo sa kanila at nakipag-usap na lang sa mga kakilala
This smile of Rico scares me. ‘Yong tila nagiging blanko ang isipan ko at hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Totoong kinakabahan ako sa mga nalalaman ni Rico na maaring gusto ko ring malaman.I know it sound so weird, pero sobrang kating-kati na akong malaman ang lahat ng ito. Mahirap man paniwalaan, but I don't have any choice.I need to know everything. Kung kailangan kong tiisin ang sakit tuwing nakikita ko si Rico dahil lang sa kuryosidad ko, kakayanin ko.We decided to talk sa may park malayo-layo sa streetlight. Kakaunti na lang ang mga rito, at nakailang hikab na rin ako habang nakasakay sa swing."Ano ba talaga ang reason why this is happening, Rico?" I raised my eyes to the night sky, and hugged myself feeling the cold breeze, even though I already wore a jacket."Nilalamig ka? Gusto mo suotin mo jacket ko?" I took a glance on him, and on
After that night, hindi ko na naman nakita si Rico. I realized that night that Rico regret all of the things he did to me. Ang masakit lang, kahit anong sabihin kong ayaw ko na sa kanta, he kepts on wandering inside my head and it makes me gone crazy."Ate, I'll be gone for maybe two weeks? Hindi ko alam. Basta babalik lang ako kapag nahanap ko na ang hinahanap ko. "Malamig na tinitigan ako ni ate sa mata na ngayon ay nakasandal sa may pintuan, pinagmamasdan akong nagliligpit ng mga gamit ko.It's already one in the afternoon, and even though we have a class today, I ditched. It because of this curiousity of mine about Aries and Marc who had an accident at the streetlight before. I need to trace some connections, and find the answers of all my questions. Hindi na kasi ako makakatulog sa kakaisip kung ano nga ang totoong nangyari noon, at anong kinalaman ko sa kanila.
After that night, hindi ko na naman nakita si Rico. I realized that night that Rico regret all of the things he did to me. Ang masakit lang, kahit anong sabihin kong ayaw ko na sa kanta, he kepts on wandering inside my head and it makes me gone crazy."Ate, I'll be gone for maybe two weeks? Hindi ko alam. Basta babalik lang ako kapag nahanap ko na ang hinahanap ko. "Malamig na tinitigan ako ni ate sa mata na ngayon ay nakasandal sa may pintuan, pinagmamasdan akong nagliligpit ng mga gamit ko.It's already one in the afternoon, and even though we have a class today, I ditched. It because of this curiousity of mine about Aries and Marc who had an accident at the streetlight before. I need to trace some connections, and find the answers of all my questions. Hindi na kasi ako makakatulog sa kakaisip kung ano nga ang totoong nangyari noon, at anong kinalaman ko sa kanila.
“I'm happy,” I smiled to the people around me. In fact, I‘m not! That was all a lie. Lahat ng mga ngiti at tawa na ibinibigay ko sa kanila ay hindi totoo. Kung tutuusin, I can be an actor for faking all of this. “How to be you po, Kael?!” one of my ‘fans’ asked me. “Anakan mo ako, Kael!” I almost choked when someone shouted. It's kinda cliché, pero just like to the leading man to some fictional stories na: anak mayaman, matalino, magaling sa kung anong sports, and can play any musical instruments; I have that traits and hobbies, too. I'm happy to have this, but it doesn't mean that I wanted the fame and attention. Kapapasok ko lang sa school, may mga maraming nag pi-picture at nagtitilian na. Nung first year highschool ako, I kinda felt so good dahil people admired me. But then, I realized.
“Isaac came here yesterday.” I stopped when I heard dad's voice when I went outside of my room. It's still eight in the morning, and my day will be ruined this early. Amazing. I kept a serious face and did not mind looking at him. Just keeping my eye on the cold dead floor. “That guy really has the nerve to say, if I should accept who you are. ” he chuckles, which makes my blood boil. Mahigpit ang pagkuyom ko sa kamao ko, at kinagat ang gilid ng labi ko. I tried to calm my mind and preventing myself to talk back at him. I know what will happen if I talk back to him. Everything will get worse. “Kael, my son. Don't ever disappoint me again, okay? That guy coming in the house makes me so mad, son. So, please behave if you don't want me to destroy everything.” he tapped my shoulder, then kissed my head befor
I felt weird. Parang pakiramdam na nakatulog ka ng sobrang tagal pero pagkagising mo, masakit ang katawan mo at nakakapagod? Ganyan ang nararamdaman ko kanina. I wanted to recall everything, but only that old streetlight are always in mind. Pagkagising ko, nakarating na kami at nasa tabi ko lang si Mark na kanina pa tanong ng tanong sa akin kung kumusta na ba ang lagay ko. “Gusto mong pumunta tayong hospital? Pwede akong mag-drive papunta dun.” I slowly let my lousy body sitted and leaned on the chair. I drank the water that Mark gave me. “ ‘Wag na, I'm now okay. I just can't explain why I felt like this... ” I told him what I felt earlier and he was just listening to me. “It started when I saw that–weird old streetlight” “Streetlight?” I glanced at him, now wondering and confused. I awkwar
“Is he gonna be okay, Doc?”“Actually, he's okay though. I don't see any symptoms of him that make us think he's not okay. Maybe, he should drink more water and rest. It might be a sign of stress, ”“Thank you, Doc. ”I smiled at the doctor after talking to Mark, who's still now wearing his beach shorts.“Okay ka na ba?” Tanong niya sabay upo sa paanan ng kama.Tumango ako at dahan-dahan na umupo. Tinulungan niya naman ako at binigyan ng tubig.“Dude! Seryoso ito, ah! Ilang beses ka nang nahimatay nang ’di namin alam ang dahilan. Ang weird,” he looked at me with full of concern and I just tapped his shoulder, assuring him I'm okay.“Nothing serious, dude. Just like what the doctor told us, maybe I just need some rest.&rd