Demise

Sienna, present...

The thing about my life is that it feels as though I have lived many.  From my torturous childhood, to the death of my pack, to being left alone for years. 

I've seen many things someone would barely see in 3 lifetimes let alone my miserable 1. The fact I'm still here still astounds me. 24 years old and all I've known is misery, distaste and cruel people. 

I decided when I was able to shift that I would no longer be this awful waste of space person. 

My road I have had to travel and endure has opened my eyes to alot of things, but I didn't expect my wolf to be the biggest surprise.

She is pure white. A mark on her left rib cage that's a match for a quarter moon. I don't know what it means and I only know it's there because of the person I had my first shift in front of. 

Layton. He's human, but I couldn't hide my secret when he found me mid first shit in the woods just behind his home. I didn't realise I was so close to his territory, but when you are in the amount of pain I was in, all your senses are all over the place. 

I didn't sense him til it was too late. I growled at him and whined, but he still didn't move from the tree he was behind. He helped me that night, and my wolf took a liking to him and his patience. 

When I finished my run, I returned back to him, still waiting where he was when I left, and he told me his name and about my mark. 

Humans aren't supposed to know of our existance, but I had to tell him. It's not like I could kill him. I mean 16 years old scared and alone, in major unfathomable pain and he didn't shy away. He stood there letting me know he was there but not too close to be attacked and he waited. 

But like most things, all good things must come to an end. He let me stay the night at his place. I was too exhausted to argue. But I could only stay til his room mate cake back. Which was only a week. So after that I haven't seen him since. That was 8 years ago. 

Ever since then I've been alone. I'd eat in wolf form just so I wouldn't starve, if bathe at rivers or dams that if come across, and that wasn't very often. 

But I had this dreadful feeling I had to keep myself moving. So here I am, day 5 with no water to clean myself in, and haven't eaten for the last 2 of them. 

I couldn't tell you where I am. I just know it's cold. Very cold. I'm some where far away from the heat of my old packs territory. On my travels, I haven't met or seen another wolf, not a single one. 

I'm currently traveling along a cliff's edge, I came to realise I was at a dead end when I nearly fell over the side. If I follow the cliff in the other direction from which I came, then there's bound to be an end to it somewhere right?

I've been walking it a while now. It looks to be getting smaller. Gradually at least. I can see the bottom now so that's a start. 

I look down again and see a ledge. Maybe I can climb down instead of walking all the way around. 

I get a little ways down when my hand slips from its grip and leaves me swinging. Fuck. 

I can feel my other hand losing its grip too, so I try and swing my other hand back up to get grip, but it's too late, I lost the last bit of grip I had and fall. 

I shut my eyes thinking the worst, but to my surprise I land with a thud on a ledge I didn't see before. 

With my head spinning from the impact and what I think is a broken arm and possibly a sprained ankle, I look up and can still see 5he top, but i can't climb it. 

It's too far and from what I can see, there is nothing to hold onto, anymore atleast. I guess that fell when I did. 

So instead of looking up, i look down. It's still a bit of a drop, but one I won't survive especially with the condition I'm in. 

So I look around me. There's an opening to my left and roots sticking out to my right. 

To get to the opening I'm gunna have to jump, its not far but I'll most certainly break my ankle instead of just straining it. 

I weigh my options. It's take the jump or I'm stuck where I am until I heal. The roots don't look like they would hold me, so jump it is. 

I stand as best I can on a ledge I feel like is gunna break any minute now, and gather enough courage to make the jump. 

I close my eyes and tell myself, breathe in, breathe out. You can do this. 

I open my eyes and without a second thought to second guess myself I jump. 

And just like that I'm hanging over the side. Not quite as close as I had expected but I'm on it atleast. 

I pull myself up and go toward the opening. 

It's pitch black so I call on raven to grant me her eyesight and what I see is a puddle of dripping water, some rocks and a nother opening that leads further into the cliff face. 

No way am I following that in the state I'm in. I'll heal in a day or two. My ankle will be done by morning and my arm will take another day. 

I walk over to the dripping water and gulp down what I can. It's dirty but it's water. It'll have to do. 

It's not the worst I have had, but it's definantly not the best. I hold my good arm out and take some of the water in to the palm of my hand and wash my face. 

I look over at the rocks again, I decide if I can lay them at the opening, itll atleast be one measure against me falling off the ledge if i move too much during the night. 

I can't sleep in wolf form, she needs to focus her energy on healing me, and healed I need to be if I'm going to get out of this to the best of my abilities. 

So with that last thought, I lay down and let the darkness be my guide. 

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I wake up to a noise coming from the direction of the other opening. I see a light in the distance, and muffled voices.

I quickly raging composure and hide on the ledge out the front. There's not much room to hide but it's better than being out in the open of the cave. 

I try slowing my heart down, but it's no use. I'm scared out of my mind. How did someone get so far into the cave. I'm sure they aren't leaving from the cave so there had to be another way in. Which also mean there's another way out. Atleast I don't have to jump. That is if I survive whoever the hell is on the other side of that cave. 

The voices are getting closer, 2 males. My arm isn't completely healed and I'm not a trained fighter. I don't know what I'm gunna do, but im gunna have to do something and fast. 

"Raven, got any ideas?"

Goddess I hope she comes up with something because I am at a loss. I have no experience in fighting, i have barely spoken a word my entire life, this is gunna be bad. Very, very bad. 

"Just stay where you are. I'll share my power with you by fusing us to a half shift. You'll get my claws, eye sight speed and strength. But you have to remember we are at our most vulnerable in this state. Is this what you want to do? We heal slower and we could potentially die if we stay in this form for too long. Are you sure about this?"

I die if I jump, i could climb but then I risk the chance of falling and dying anyway, or I could give myself a fighting chance but could still die from the form i take to try and survive. 

Might as well go down fighting. 

"Let's do it raven. I trust you."

I feel my fingers elongate to accommodate the claws. My vision changes showing me every little nook and cranny, magnifying evry little bug. I can hear their voices more clearly now, thanks to ravens hearing. 

"Did you see the way alpha looked at the new girl? I mean I don't blame him, but I've never seen him like that before" male 1 said. 

His voice is gruff, mean even. 

"It is rather unsettling actually. Hes supposed to be the most reveered alpha. But to see him so pupp dog eyed, is just not the same. He wants to be careful though, showing a weskness like that so openly could be a grave mistake" the second male said. 

His voice is more calm, More laid back.

Wait, they said alpha? Oh shit.

"Yeah i know what you mean, if his enemies catch wind of this, they would use it to their advantage. I mean she's not his mate, but that won't stop him from wishing she was."

"Yeah I know. I thought he'd be waiting for his mate. I've never seen him with a female before. Let alone paying attention to one so openly."

"But theres something about her I just can't put my finger on, she's new and I dont trust her but my gut is telling me she has something to hide."

"I know the feeling. I caught her sneaking around the alphas but. I mean she could just be sneaking from meeting up with him, but the way she was going around it, just irks me. I'll keep an eye on her, see where she lea-"

The second male cut himself off.

"Do you smell that?" The second male says. 

"I do. No one knows this place is here except for us and the alpha. It smells fresh though. Female. Only one scent. Shes alone. Let's take a look around. The alpha will not be happy about this."

I can hear them whisper. They must be close. I hold my breath, no knowing what the hell to do. My heart won't slow down. It's like a stampede is happening in my chest. 

"The girl is still here, Jaxon. I can hear her. Her heart is beating rapidly. She knows we are here. She must be terrified. We have to find her. Alpha will want to speak to her." The first male says. 

I can hear them getting closer. Their footsteps sounds like a crunch in my ears. 

I must have been concentrating on the noise their feet were making because before I know it I'm thrust inside the cave by my bad arm. 

"Argh, what the fuck? Let me go!"

I scream at them. The pain in my arm throbbing like a drum. This can't be good for the healing process. I struggle to keep my balance while I'm wailing my good arm to try and free myself. 

"Oh no you don't, we won't hurt you, so long as you answer our questions and don't do anything stupid."

I stop my movements. There's two of them and one of me. It'd be a miracle if I was to ever survive this. 

"Look Jaxon, shes morph shifted." The first male says.

He looks to have dark hair since there's no lighting other than the opening at the cave to show me what colour but it's dark that's for sure. He's tall and by the feel of his grip on my arm he's strong too. 

I look over to the other male and see he has lighter hair, but not light enough to be blonde. He's standing near the entrance. Hes tall and muscular by the looks of the silhouette he's showing from what little light we do have.

"Nick, show me the light on your phone."

Nick gets his phone out and presses something on the screen and the light comes to life. Nick passes the phone to Jaxon, and steps back again.

"I'm going to let you go. Don't do anything stupid, I just need to see for myself." Jaxon says.

I now my head in understanding, not trusting my words right now. I'm terrified and they know it. The last thing I need is my voice to come a shaky whisper and confirm it. I'm embarrassed enough as it is. 

Jaxon faces the light towards me. Taking in all of what I am. Still thickly thin and short, but with longer hair claws and eyes that aren't mine.

"How long have you been like this?" Jaxon says. 

I don't respond. I don't know these people and I sure as hell do not trust them.

"What's your name?" Nick is the one to speak this time. 

I still stay quiet. If I'm going to die I might as well do it silently, and not giving them what they want. 

"You are going to have to talk one way or another. The alpha will want answers, and if he doesn't get them, he will resort to other methods." Jaxon says. 

I still remain quiet. 

Nick sighs and steps forward.

"You can't be like this for too long. Not alot of wolves cab do this. In fact I have only ever seen one other do this. Our alpha. There is a story behind the how, but we need information from you first before we share anything we know with you." Nick says.

I take a deep breath. If they have something I can use to know some more about who I am then why not. I'm gunna die anyway right. 

"My name is sienna. I'm here because i slipped from one of the ledges when i was climbing down. Ive been like this in a "morph shift" as you said, for about half an hour. When i first heard you."

"Well sienna, you already know who we are. If you have been like this for half an hour that means you heard us from the entrance. That's not normal. But if I was to go by the colour of your eyes, then I would assume nothing about you is normal." Jaxon was the one to speak this time. 

I don't know what he's talking about. Layton never said anything about the colour of my eyes. Or my wolf's. 

I pay no mind to his assumption. 

Instead I ask, "What do you plan to do with me?".

It was jaxon that spoke again. 

"We are going to take you to speak with our alpha."

And with that he grabs my a email again, hands Nick his phone and jolts me forward. 

I start walking and all I can think about is,

I hope I'm not being lead 

To my demise.