Quinn{'The only thing we have to fear is fear itself--nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.'}I had to do it.I had to tell her the truth. They needed to go away from here or that bastard would pull them in his web of wicked games. I wanted her to leave, away from here—— away from danger, even if it means losing her.Despite I had successfully pushed Risa away, hearing those painful words unbuckled my knees as I slid my back against the door, embracing myself together and sobbing in agony. I didn't want her to know what I really was but I knew such desire wouldn't do any good for the both of us because eventually, she would find out. I was just so afraid to the point I was fooling myself.Freak, I thought to myself. Maybe I truly deserved that insult because instead of embracing it, I kept it under my sweet fake personality. I deserved her resentment because I broke our promises to each other, concealing the truth I
{'Chaos is an angel who fell in love with a demon.'}"I am very disappointed..."I closed my eyes tight and leaned my head against the car window as Khloe spoke out finally after an undivided silence. I didn't say anything... I was just gobbling all the pain I was feeling right now even if I didn't want to. I couldn't help it for the reason that it was too strong and I think it would not fade away no matter how. Just hearing those cruel words from Quinn caused me to feel so vulnerable and broken. It was too intense that all of my being shattered. I didn't want to believe all of this but she slapped it in my face, breaking what we had built together.How could she do this to me? How could she keep all of those lies whenever she touches me? How could she say she loves me back if my touch makes her sick?Why she was crying? Was it guilt or she just couldn't take the empty feeling of not being able to feel? It wasn't my fault that she could not sense anything physically but why was she b
{'There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds'}QuinnI had two choices.It was either take all the risk and be brave just what my Aunt had advised me to do or rather what she persisted me to do.Or...Follow that bastard's order and end all my family's hardship including our future.I didn't want to accept that this was all happening and at the same time, I made the biggest mistake of my life by not making sure that they wouldn't go here. But they were here. Here she was, obliviously walking into the pits of hell that was about to crumble down with me all the way back to the deepest.I was scared. I was always afraid but I was trying my hardest to remain standing. It was painful to see my Risa trying to reach out for me but I couldn't and how I wish I could. However, at that moment, she gave me strength and courage. I wanted to survive. I wanted to fight for them. For my parents. For my grandma. For the sake of my family and
{‘Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts.’}The rain was pouring hard over the damp soil of the cemetery. Looking up, the sky seemed in agony and in greatest sympathy. I gripped my black umbrella hard as I refused to accept that the person inside the casket deserved this kind of cry from heaven.I turned to look at my parents beside me, including Aunt Claire who was now crying. I searched for Khloe but she was nowhere to be found as I predicted. Honestly, I didn’t want to be in this place right now but my Dad wanted me to. He wanted to wear something black and go with them as a formality.Watching the coffin slowly pulling down beneath the moist earth, I walked forward and tossed the white rose hard, not even cared if the people around me gasped from what I did. Turning around, I stormed off, throwing the umbrella aside and ignored all the people who were watching me.I didn’t care. Even in the p
Quinn{‘Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.’}My own forestry eyes automatically opened by the sound of exquisite kisses. The sunlight fell against my own sight, making me sigh in warmth inside. Instantly, my lips tugged a smile once I saw my girlfriend watching me slowly waking up to reality.To a beautiful reality.I took a time to cherish the view beside me. Starting from her pink lips who looked so misty from the way we endlessly kiss last night. To her heavenly eyes that I held endearingly to the deepest core of my heart and then to her raven smooth hair that caressed her lovely face magically. My arms found its way around her waist and pulled her naked body closer which caused her to moan silently.“Good morning,” I said, bringing my lips to her own.She giggled through our humble kiss. “Morning, love.”I pulled myself back to gaze at her, stroking her face soothingly with the tip of my fingers and then she closed her eyes softly
PrologueEmptiness— the feeling of missing something like a deep hole was dug down inside your heart. It will slowly push you to complete oblivion, reeling by morbid darkness that will consume you until all you have left is your own voice to be able to call somebody for help.But is someone willing to take the risk? To let themselves sink by my caged emotions? Imprisoned by an unreal pain that I craved more than a pointless knife piercing me down endlessly. Is someone willing to save me from the monster of my own abnormality?For me, the world seemed like a shadow because life itself is too distracting. It will keep you busy and oblivious of what is beyond your surroundings.... to the point that you will miss almost everything.I wish I could smell the flowers my Mom took care of from all those years— how the fragrance would be like the moment of its first bloom. I wish I could remember how awful the food tasted when my Dad tried to cook for me once upon a dinner. I hope I have a photo
{'You know those nights when you can't fall asleep? Well, maybe it's because you are awake... in someone else's dream.'}How could I mess up? How could I forget to invite her to our table?With a loud sigh, I turned my head towards the direction of her golden. I watched her laughing at her newfound friends- totally oblivious of all the students who were giving her looks of admiration.I couldn't understand at all. She never glanced at me even once. She was supposed to give her attention to me after I gave her a free taste of my addictive lips. Why isn't it working?I heard my best friend, Hilary, hum playfully beside me. "You're into this cute new piece, huh?" she asked, giving me a goofy grin."Yeah," I admitted without any hesitation. "You should look closer and trust me she's different."She shrugged her shoulder while playing with her food on her plate using her disposable fork. "Yes. I can totally see that, honey... without even looking at her twice. You're practically ogling you
{'Those who do not believe in magic will never find it'}Great.Ever got the feeling that all things seem to shove you away from the one you crave the most? Like all the gates of hell open up to release every class of demon that wants you to get away from the path of heaven?Khloe was really a demon. How did she dare to take my throne next to Quinn?I was very thrilled to meet her in our shared class but this Khloe really had the urge to wreck my mood this very day. Blessed her, I didn't plan to make myself worse from Quinn's point of view, or else I was going to split her nipples apart.Okay, that was so depraved! I really should get my insanity in check!Clicking my tongue in frustration, I observed them across my seat. Khloe whispered something to her, causing my angel to giggle. She slightly tilted her head to give the Captain Bimbo her attention so I was able to see her dimple on her right cheek.It really made my day brighter— like it was a sun rising up from the horizon, even t