Chapter 1

It is today that my results come out, the results of the baccalaureate. I stress, my heart beats, I can't sleep, actually I'm a little disturbed. I don't even know why, yet I know I worked well.

It's almost 2:30 pm and I'm still in my room stressing like crazy. My mother enters my room

Mom: Ashley, what are you doing? Go take your results

Me: I'm afraid

Mom: what are you afraid of? Didn't you work well?

Me: it has nothing to do with it, I don't know I'm afraid

Mom: you mustn't be afraid, you're brilliant, it's not a small baccalaureate that will scare our little intellectual

Me: hum mom

Mom: don't worry, we know you'll have this exam, your father is hurrying to finish quickly at work, he wants to be home to celebrate your diploma

Me: I'm a little comforting, ok I'm getting ready to get his results

Mom: ok, the driver will accompany you, I'm going to sign some papers at work

Me: ok see you later

Mom: kisses

She leaves the room, mom works in marketing and my father is a great painter. It is thanks to him that we have this bourgeois life.

In short, I dress quickly and go to my establishment, the Lycée Sainte Marie in Abidjan.

I'm coming, the secretary had already started saying the names of the admitted, I saw friends crying because they hadn't had. I was freaking out, there are friends who were supposed to have but they were not called. It's because for me it's dead, I failed it's clear

My best friend already had his results and he was super happy, I was stopped there and my heart was beating

Christ: Ashley, stop trembling, we worked together, I got this baccalaureate and you too will have it

I didn't even listen to him and suddenly I hear my name

The secretary: kessy angel Ashley

I jumped like crazy, I was too happy. I call my mother to tell her the news but she doesn't pick up, I try several times but nothing

Christ: who are you calling?

Me: my mother, she doesn't pick up

Christ: you know very well that she is busy, try to call your father

Me: yes, you're right

I'm calling my father, the phone didn't even ring and he picks up

Me: hello..

He doesn't let me talk

Dad: congratulations my child, I'm proud of you. I love you very much, never forget it. Tell your mother that I love her too, take care of yourself.

And he hung up, I didn't understand anything about what had just happened, his behavior was weird. Why does he tell me all his words? I call him back but his number no longer passes. Too weird but I go out a little with my friends just to celebrate a little and forget all this stress

Around 7pm, I had enough, I was all weird, my heart beat too much, I didn't know why

Me: Christ I want to go home, I don't feel well

Christ: ok, I'm coming back with you

Me: no, have fun. I'm tired

Christ: I, too, let's go home

We say goodbye to our friends and take a taxi, Christ and I live in the same neighborhood, he is a childhood friend, I now consider him a brother

We get home and there are cars parked at home

Christ: it looks like your parents reserved you

A heavy party huh

Me: lol maybe mom is organizing a meeting

Christ: ok, come back I'll greet

We go home and I see my mother crying, she's in my aunt's arms, everyone who sat had a sad face, I didn't understand anything, what's going on in this house? I'm running to my mother

Me: What do you have mom? Why are you crying?

Mom: eh my daughter, your father did that to us, your father left us oh

I didn't understand what she was saying, did my father take another wife? Did he go on a trip? I didn't understand anything about him

Me: Mom, how Dad left us, I'm not following you

Mom: (weeps)😖😭😭your father had an accident, he didn't survive, he died immediately

What she was saying didn't sound in my head, my father? She's joking I think

Me: Mom stops joking, I had dad on the phone not long ago, he told me that he loves me and that he is proud of me and that he loves you too. So what you say makes no sense

Mom: (in tears) .... 😭😭😭

I started shouting, my God my father can't leave me, it's impossible, I haven't succeeded yet, I have this baccalaureate for him, no he must see the number of points I got, he must see that his daughter champion had the baccalaureate, he must see that I had enough points to be a scholarship holder, no I I was going crazy

Mom: my daughter please calm down, if you behave like that, how will I do it?

I couldn't hear anything anymore, everything was blurred in front and there black hole...