"Our friends will all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them has felt this way."
~Plain white ts.
Rory has been shot!!
I gasp and cover my mouth as the event takes place before my eyes and I'm shocked beyond words as the memory of watching my Dad die rushes back into my mind.
"No, no, no, no, no!" I begin to feel my panic crawl up my gut, which I haven't had in six years and I know it's not the place to start getting it, but there is nothing I can do to stop myself. My body begins to tremble and I lean on the car standing close to me. Sweat and fear run over me and I begin to take in deep breaths and mumble a quick passage in Psalm I normally memorized when I was dealing with my panic attacks. Slowly and I begin to recover from the grip of fear that holds my heart captive.
"Taylor..." Comes the fai
"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." - Lao Tzu Taylor's POV With his gaze equally as challenging as mine he says. "You're going nowhere, Ms Snowfall. He says it like some kind of god whose word wouldn't be broken for the benefit of everyone, but then he is no god and there are only two people present in this room, which is the two of us and I wouldn't mind breaking anything with him I'm it. Without saying anything to him I walk away. I make my way through the passageway which I bro
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." ~C.S. Lewis I clench hardly on my shirt hoping to have a grip of my panic, sweat run down my face and I stare at Mycole. "Where is she now then?" Jack asks as Josh
"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."~ (The New Jerusalem Bible (NJB)) My eyes hurt and sting as I peel them open as the ray of sunburn my eyes and I move my legs around, hoping to kick against the tray I've eaten from last night... Yeah I'm that clumsy. But instead of hitting the tray, my legs enter into warm soft and comfortable sheets and my eyes open up in alarm, looking around the room that looks nothing like the closet I fell asleep in. I reach for my chest, making sure that m
"It takes courage to love, but pain through love is the purifying fire which those who love generously know. We all know people who are so much afraid of pain that they shut themselves up like clams in a shell and, giving out nothing, receive nothing and therefore shrink until life is a mere living death." ~Eleanor Roosevelt . The terror that takes over me is greater than any other I've felt in the past five to six years. I am afraid of my past. Yes, I do think of it, but never into details, I kept having nightmares about the night I was raped, I'd wake up panting, shivering, but more than anything wishing I could forget. The nightmares only stop four months ago, after I met Rory and even though I don't dream of it anymor
"The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life." ~Sir Hugh Walpole . Taylor's POV "I loved him." I answer in my defence and I see him give me the most ridiculous look. "and I believed there was still a good part in him. That's what love does"
"Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love."~Erich Fromm. Seven twenty-two p.m. "Going late to your first ever date is not the way to do things, Taylor," I tell myself as pack my hair in a loose ponytail style and apply nude lip gloss on my lips. I groan in frustration as I look around the bed for the paper Rory had written the direction earlier and I don't find it. This shouldn't be happening today, not today. I search around more carefully and going over to the make-up table and find
"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her..." ~Anonymous. . I couldn't sleep last night, not after what we had. Rory loves me and I'm head over hill in love with hi
"It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else, but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you."Unknown~ . The phone in my back pocket begins to ring and I pull it out to see a new number pops up. Who could it be? I think to myself. Seriously? Someone designed your phone so surely he would remember to save your number. Rory. I press on the answer button and place the phone to my ear "Hello." I say with a low voice.