Melinda

I am so nervous right now, yet excited at the same time. Tonight is the night I give myself to Jai, not because he's pressured me in any way; he hasn't; in fact, he's done anything but. However, I feel the time is right, and I'm one hundred per cent ready for this.

I might not know a lot about sex because I have no personal experience. But I know that it's okay to be a little scared of what's to come.

I've never seen a penis in my life, apart from Jai's. Even then, I didn't see him standing and only looked for a second. It's intimidating thinking about Jai's penis, what he'll do with it, and what he'll do to me. But I can't think badly when I know Jai would never hurt me.

I want Jai and I to complete the mate bond. This isn't even to do with what Sally said about me needing the mate bond. It's because I love him; I don't have one single doubt in my mind that Jai is my world. My mate is perfect, and he never asks me to do anything I'm not comfortable with. He always puts me first and t