KEVAH'S POVSo here we are, inside my mother's house with Manny. We are here to tell her and Adrian that we are getting married. It is the twins' idea. They claimed that if I got married without Mama's blessing, then I'd never forgive myself. So as I said, here we are sitting in Mama's living room, waiting for Adrian to convince her to come out of her bedroom and face us. I can hear their hushed tones growing louder. Adrian must have won the argument because I see Mama coming downstairs toward us. My body shivers, and Manny squeezes my palm tighter. “Don't be nervous, Principessa, it will all be OK.”I just nod my head and blew out the breath I was holding. Mama is wearing her dockers pants with a caramel flip-flop and a neat white crushed blouse is stuck inside the waist of her pants, accentuating her slim figure. Manny and I stand up as Mama and Adrian enter the living room. Before I can get a word in, Mama starts to shoot out accusations.“You're pregnant, aren't you?” Her eyes r
KEVAH'S POVI am exhausted by the time I stopped crying. My eyes are swollen, but the pain is still there, loud inside my chest. The sky is getting dark now, and I soon have to make my way back to my mother’s house where Manny is waiting for me. But I don't want to see Mama. I just can't deal with her. I don't think Mama likes me. I think she's ashamed of me, the fact that I am on the heavier side, but aren't parents supposed to love their children unconditionally? Regardless of their colour, height, weight or sexual preferences? Mama is such a hypocrite for someone who goes to church and holler out praise the Lord every Sunday. I scoff and my tummy makes a roaring sound. My body is telling me that it’s hungry, but I just don't feel like eating.I am lying on the grass hugging grandma's tombstone when I hear the faint footsteps of someone coming. I smell his cologne before I see him. Manny smiles at me lightly with concern in his eyes. I feel so bad bringing him into my fucked up worl
KEVAH'S POVDECEMBER 25TH, 2011How long does it take to fall in love?It's a simple answer for me because gaping at the exquisitely crafted delicacy in front of me, I'll have to say, seconds. There is a thing called love at first sight, after all.Like a bug-eyed creeper, I gawk at him some more; he is the most magnificent thing I've ever seen. Now I know what tall, dark, and handsome mean.I overhear mama telling Mrs. Shine that he is Brazilian. His thick velvety coat calls out for my mouth to come and caress it.I lick my lips imagining how delicious, how succulent, and how mouthwatering his body tastes.I can't stand this anymore, I have to have him and I have to have him now.I gasp when I feel mama's palm on my back, "Come child, photo time."Oh! brother. I facepalm myself and let mama usher me in front of the cameraman.Two minutes later, and I assume the photoshoot is over, the cameraman points a finger over to my love. "I want one with the entire family, over there." My smil
KEVAH'S POVJULY 9TH, 2016Let me tell you something about myself; I am fat, there I said it.I am a 300lbs, dark skin beauty. You don't have to remind me; you don't have to gawk at my huge ass or frown at my Pudge. It's just not nice.I know I'm motherfucking big, and guess what? I don't motherfucking care what a motherfucker has to say about me.I embrace the way I look, and I'm not one of those big girls who hide beneath blankets of clothes or is hesitant to confront their crush because I think he won't accept me because of my weight. Nope, not this lady.Not Kevah.I spent most of my teenage years cowering from boney-ass mean girls. I've been bullied to the extent that I couldn't look at my reflection in the mirror. Not only that, but I was called many names; Landwhale, Fatso, Porky, and my all-time favourite; Miss Piggy.My mother, who couldn't bear to watch me cry myself to sleep any more signed me up for fat camp when I was 16, but those camp directors only took our parents' m
KEVAH'S POVShit! Here we go.I hold my breath, praying that my sisters will keep their chill. I love myself, so I don't care what anybody has to say about me. The two women quickly avert their eyes when they notice we overheard them. “Girls, take it easy. They're not worth it,” I try my best to calm my sisters. “Eva, what happened to you? Once upon a time, you wouldn't let a bitch get away with saying such shit about you,” Lana questions with teary eyes.“You're too beautiful to let people treat you like this,” Ella says, with tears streaming down her face. She has always been the crier in the family.“Life is way too short to focus my time and energy on what people say and think about me. It's obvious that those girls have nothing else to do than sit and criticize people; their lives only have a purpose when they're bullying others. What's important to me is how I view myself and not how others see me. My opinions of myself are what matters. I've been living by this decree for tw
KEVAH'S POV“Welcome to my office," Victor opens his arms, gesturing to the grandeur structure of the chamber. There is a small bed to the side, adorned with heart-shaped pillows and soft pink silk sheets. There's a mirror above the bed.What is this, Pimpa's Paradise?If this is so, I guess he's the pimp, but I ain't no prostitute.This is a one-time thing, there's no need to become emotionally attached, plus I gotta cum soon, my sisters will come searching for me in — I study the time on the clock to my left — fuck, I've already been gone 5 minutes, so I think I've got at least 15 minutes left before they come looking for me. “Do you want a drink to help you rela —” I smash my lips against his mid-sentence. Why do Victors have to talk so fucking much?My abrupt action causes him to lean back against his expensive mahogany desk. He holds my head between his palms, and he deepens the kiss. My fingers struggle to undo his buttons.“Motherfucker," I mutter between kisses.“What's wro
KEVAH'S POV This is some fucked up shit. I am just standing there looking at the liar with the honey tongue, glaring daggers at him. “Why didn't you tell me you have a wife, asshole?” I rave. “Shh, she might hear you.” he whispers, sweat decorate his face like a murderer on trial. “Open the fucking door, Victor. I know you have some cheap whore in there."Who the hell is she calling a cheap whore?“Honey, I'm on the phone with a very important client.” What a poor excuse for an alibi. “Is there another way out of the office?” I ask him. I don't have time for this.“No, there's only one way in and out."“Well, in that case, Victor, you're screwed."“What?” His voice is shaky.His wife knows he has someone in here, and I'm not about to cover his ass by hiding in a closet or under a desk.Oh! No-sirree.“The sex was nice Victor and your head game was strong. Just next time, don't forget to mention to a girl you're married. We could have avoided all of this if you were truthful at t
EMANUELE'S POV"Are you positive you don't mind me tagging along?" I ask Kevin."It's cool. I already informed my family I am taking a friend home for the weekend.""I just prefer to be certain. I do not like imposing.""Trust me, you're not. I'm the one who should ask you if you're sure you want to do this. My family is a little - how do I put it? - CRAZY," he exaggerates, and I laugh, rubbing a finger over my chin. I glue my eyes to the flight attendant who was glaring at me intensely. She has the 'I yearn to fuck your brains out' look. She winks, and I smirk at her while I flex my cheek muscles.Kevin catches on, his eyes transmit to where the hostess is. She pours wine into the 100-year-old man's flute. The poor man's eyeballs got lost down her cleavage. With her eyes fixed my way, she pours too much wine, wetting the lap of the old man.He gasps."My apologies, sir. Let me grab you a napkin." She hands him the cloth, and the man cleans his crotch. He isn't upset, it's like he's h