It's been two weeks since the parking lot incident.It's the weekend and I am taking myself out on a coffee date. There's nothing like a little lone time when life gets a little overwhelming. The past few months have put me through the ringer. I've gone through enough emotions in the last few months to las me a life time.I pull up to my favorite coffee spot in the city and feel a mix of joy and sadness. Memories flood my mind and cling to my senses. My dad and I used to come here a lot. He made it a point to bring me here at least once a month. I don't think I was old enough to have coffee when he started bringing me here but I loved it because he did.But I stopped coming when he passed away. For a long time I couldn't bare the thought of being here without him. As a matter of fact I stopped drinking coffee alltogther because I would start crying evrytime I smelled the aroma.I get out of the car and head inside
"Sorry."Marlene says and then she looks down at her hands and then she sighs. "Can I buy you another coffee?" She asks and I shake my head no."Actually, I should go"I say reachig for my purse. I don't want to be here anymore. Trust her to ruin a goood thing. My good thing."Wait!" She says panicked. She grabs my hand and it takes everything in me not to jump out of my seat. I look at her hand on mine and then back at her. Why does this girl think she can just touch me like that?"Sorry." She says taking her hand away. I sit back and look at her. I don't care what she has to say but I don't want her to make a scene again so I'll just sit here and let her say her piece. "I just wanted to say thank you for not ratting me out the other day." She says and I nod . I don't have anything to say to that so..."I would have gotten into a lot of trouble"She whispers to herself."I know I've been crazy and I've treated you terribly." She continues and I s
Midnight that same night"I don't think I should be here" Oliver whispers as he walks into my bedroom"You shouldn't be here." I say giggling a little bit. I don't know why I find this funny but it is. He thinks I snuck him in while my mother is around but she's not. I wouldn't do that to either of them. Never mind the fact that my mother would kill me. "You're mother is going to kill me for sneaking in here." He says as I close the door. "She is going to kill you for sure." I say laughing a little louder. Why are you laughing at me?" He asks smiling. He plants himself on his bed and then stares at me. His eyes have a sparkle in them. I still can't get over how beautiful he is. "Because you're worried about something that won't happen." I say sitting at a chair in front of him. "My mother went out with one of her friends. She won't be back until tomorrow." I say in explanation. "You're mean." He says leaning in to place a kiss on my cheek. "You enjoy seeing me squirm." He says p
"Ry this is crazy. I don't want to break up or even think about breaking up." He says as he starts to pace around. "I don't care how crazy she is I won't let her break us up." He says looking back at me."O, we're not breaking up. We're going to pretend that we broke up and...""No!" He says interrupting, his voice firm. "I'm not agreeing to this." He says his voice really shaky. I grab his arms and pull him toward the bed to sit."What are we going to do then? Live in misery?" I ask and he shakes his head no."I hate this. What if we start playing this little game and it backfires on us?"He says grabbing my face in both his hands. "I have a bad feeling about this. I don't like it at all." He says sad"We'll just be pretending. Make her and everyone think we're not together anymore and see if that will get her off our back or not. If it doesn't work we stop." I say and I can tell he's not convinced."So what? We pretend not to fuck with each
I see Marlene walk into the garage and sigh. What is she doing here? "It's nice to see you without a tether," She says coming to stand next to the car I am working on. "I would say it's nice to see you but..." I say and she laughs."Oh, Olie." She says using my mother's pet name for me and I cringe inwardly. I can't believe there was a time when I thought she was fun to be around. I don't recognize the girl standing in front of me. Did I do this to her. "You've grown so mean. I guess we have Ryo to thank for that." She states looking me up and down. "What do you want Marlene?" I asking to change the subject. I don't want to discuss Ryo with her. And there's the small matter she suggested. I've been pretending we never had that conversation for the past 8 hours. A part of me is hoping she changes her mind. "I came to visit you. We used to be friends. I miss those days. Don't you?" She asks and I shake my head no. "I guess we have Ryo to thank for that." She says and this time I fe
“I’m glad you finally decided to come out with me.” Trevor says smiling at me across the small table. I can feel him moving his legs back and forth under the table. That’s how close we are to each other. I should be feeling nervous with his feet touching mine and his face being so close to mine but I’m not feeling any nerves at all. Tonight is finally The day, its date night with Trevor and usually on date nights I’m a mess. But with him I feel no different. I keep thinking about the times I’ve spent with Oliver, it was nerves all around. This feels too calm; I want to pinch myself so I can feel something.He took to a doughnut shop that just opened in town. There are so many people here to check it out, that we can barely move around. It’s a miracle we were able to get a table. Everyone and their grandmother came to have a taste of the many unique recipes. I’m glad we came so I can try some new flavors
“How did your date go?” Kelly whispers next to me. I look ahead at our substitute teacher to see if he heard her whisper so loudly. He looks up at the class but he doesn’t look in our direction. I don’t know why Kelly chose this precise moment to have this conversation with me. She can wait until lunch break to ask me about it. We don’t have to go to detention because she wants to know about a date.“Can we talk about this during lunch? I don’t think this is the right place to have this conversation.” I whisper trying not to be too loud. This teacher I nervous and he has very good hearing. Three people were sent to detention for whispering during class. Anyone can tell this man doesn’t want to be here and he will empty this class out by sending every last one of us to detention. And I don’t want to be one of those people to be sent there.“Lunch is too far, I want to know what happened. And besides he wo
“How are you today?” Oliver says standing behind me. I look up at him and he smiles. “I heard you were in detention today.” He says sitting next to me. It feels weird having him sit next to me after all that’s happened. My body is still very aware of him; every part of my being is in tune with him. My first instinct is to stand up and hug, kiss him and you know embrace him.I want it more now that we’ve been closer to each other. Now that I know what it feels like to fall asleep on his lap. What it feels like to kiss him. No matter how much I tell myself that I don’t want t be with him, the sound of his voice always takes me back to those desires.But the situation is not the same anymore is it? He and I crossed a line we can never go back to. We can’t really be friends because there are too many feelings there. And we can’t really ignore each other because of the same feelings. We’re in a weird place right no