Father, Please.

FATHER PLEASE. I decided I wanted him the moment I laid my eyes on him, there was something about the way his both hands gripped the sides of the chalice, that could easily be my waist, he could dip and touch me anywhere with those hands, my fingers tracing his thick veins that entwined on his even thicker arms. But great Aunt Cheryl was staring intently at me, waiting, i am thoroughly confused as to what she wants me to do, until she shuts her eyes, ah! That's what I am supposed to do then, i tell myself as I shut my eyes to please her. In my mind's eye, the beautiful man with ash blond hair and brown eyes tucked a wisp of stray hair behind my ears. The simple skin contact causes my spine to straighten. My great Aunt Cheryl nudges me with her shoulder and with that, beautiful man disappears, i suppress an irritated sigh, I’m starting to see the reasons she was cut off from the family. When my eyes drop to hers, I see she is pointing at her hymn book and then to the one in

LOOK AT ME 2 I was blinded by desire, no, I literally was. Father Aryan had shown up dressed in the tightest T Shirts ever made, it was at least two sizes too small for those arms. “If you stare any longer you’ll pop holes on him.” Danny whispers as she brushed past me, a box in hand. “I have to pray today, bless the child that threw up on his cassock and whoever made that t shirt.” I murmured to myself as I lift the tiniest of the boxes from the trunk of the bus we arrived in. “One would think you’d be smart enough to lift the heaviest box so Father muscles would offer to help you.” I don’t know where Danny keeps materializing from, but she was right. I dump the tiny box in her outstretched hands and return to the trunk, I select the heaviest box, and it was heavier than I anticipated, I curse under my breath as the weight pulled me closer to the ground. “What the hell is in this thing?”“Dumbbells, I assume.”His voice startles me so much, I take double steps backw

LOOK AT ME 4 He put up a good fight, that much I’d admit. He meant the no he said and was going to stand on business, but even he couldn’t stand the questioning gazes from the nuns, all except my great aunt, and he finally caved. And three days later, I had moved in and was settled. I saw it for the first time when I moved in, a one bedroom, I had neighbours who also rented from Father Aryan. “Are you sure you like the place? I’m certain there are others more suited to your taste.” He sounded desperate as he tried to get me away from his place. I nodded enthusiastically, I didn’t like the place at all. “I love it. I can tell nausea green is your favourite colour.” He sighed, “Why are you doing this? You clearly hate the house. You can rent somewhere else.” I cross my arms around my chest. His eyes are drawn to my chest, I see his tongue dart out and wets his lips for a second before he reminds himself who he is supposed to be and looks up, there is a tri

LOOK AT ME 6 I am a liar, an unapologetic one, and quite frankly it’s his fault for believing me, I was definitely going to use the information to my advantage. So when I show up for one of the bi weekly services, a huge grin on my face, he looks ready to excuse himself from my presence. “What did you do to him?” Danny asks, saddling up to me.“Nothing yet.” And for once that is true, I have done nothing yet. Although my plans for him are deliciously evil. “You and I ought to discuss after this.” I shrug, my eyes on my prey. In his cassock he looked even more sexy, I can see why my viewer count jumped so much, he was absolutely good looking. He moved behind a dark curtain and disappeared from view, letting Father Bernard continue alone. “Where did he go?”“To pray for the people.”“But the people are right here.”Danny snorts, “It’s just a thing.”I haven’t been to a church since I was little, that was the last time great aunt Cheryl came to visit, and it was the

LOOK AT ME 8“That isn’t right..” i mutter to myself, this was the exact thing i have been saying for longer than I’d expect. I said it when Danny sprung up on me at the mart when I finally did my grocery shopping. She had asked me again if she could move in and be my roommate. “That isn’t right..” I had said when she used the ‘I helped you get Father Aryan card.’“I don’t have him yet. Even if I did, it’s a one bedroom, no space for you.” I plugged in my headphones to drown her voice as I finished everything and went home. “That isn’t right.” Was also something I said when I realized I had no car and the small town barely had any cabs running around, I needed to get myself a car. The latest one was said purely because my viewer count dropped. It was hovering somewhere above the twenty million, and then for the past three days it’s been pummelling fast. I thought it was a glitch, but every time I went live, it would start with twelve million and end with eight thousand or