Connor POVThe night after he left 1 month from presentI materialized in the stone archway to Nikolai’s castle in Strömstad Sweden, one of many castles the three of us owned threw out Nordic Europe. I didn’t make an attempt to reach out to Nik prior to my arrival I figured he would sense my magic once we were near, giving him no way to run since neither of my sons had magic quite like mine. Nikolai couldn’t run away anymore I was prepared for the backlash from him for choosing to support Dorian in his “traitorous” life. The lines blur heavily between Fenris, and I most supernatural beings have extended lives whereas we are immortal living now for over 1,000 years I think it would be unnatural if we didn’t mirror one another in some kind of way other than physically when we shift. Nikolai and Hati always struggled being bonded. I’d dare go as far as saying he is very much like Fenris where Sköll was like me the human part it was a risk Fenris didn’t consider when he decided to procrea
Releasing them after the forced shift, I catch him as Nik's own voice continued his internal screams"Kill me Connor!!! Just end it all I can’t live like this anymore!!!!” His pleas are frantic, as I hold him his entire body convulses with the emotional turmoil.“I don’t want to live anymore!!! I don’t want to see another sun to rise!! 800 years is long enough!” He continued to sob threw his yelling of obscenity’s begging me to end him, attempting to provoke Fenris saying anything to call him out, but we refused to engage his requests. I know how he is feeling all too well, we both felt the same wanting to rip ourselves apart just to feel anything after his life bond snapped, the numbness he has been pushing away will help him get through this but first he has to feel. We will help him get through this.“Let it in Nik it’s the only way we will get threw”“He won’t come back if I do”“He’s not coming back, he’s dead Nik” saying the words was like rubbing course salt in an open wound bu
There was no right way of doing things when it came to Nikolai so when I found him he was quite literally on the edge of a cliff. As I approached him I could quickly tell by his ridged posture he had no intentions of walking back to the castle with me so we could properly clear the air.“Don’t Connor I don’t want to hear excuses” he calmly yelled threw the wind and over the torrent of crashing waves down below“I will go with you back to America not because I forgive him, her or you..” He left the reason why hanging between us. He didn’t have to say it out loud I already knew why he was coming back, Dorian would have done the same for him. He turned his head to look at me from our side by side position“I will need a few weeks before we can leave”Before I could ask him what he meant he lunged forward into the sea below us. He wouldn’t die from any of the injuries he was going to sustain and as much as I wanted to use magic to retrieve him I knew he would just do it again given the ch
I gently moved a few stray strands of hair from her sleeping face the back of my index and middle finger tracing her cheek, quickly pulling my hand back running the same hand threw my hair. I knew no matter how much I wanted to hold her in this moment there was nothing I could do or say that could take her pain away. I know if she were to let me hold her it wouldn't mean anything to her the way it meant to me. I didn't want her to be alone but I could tell from the sounds and scents coming from her kitchen family members were going to be staying for awhile. Chatting back and forth, cupboards opening and closing they were completely unaware Rebecca had passed out in an upright position on the couch in the front parlor her knees bent to her chest and to the side with one arm gently resting on the arm rest her face lax, pale with red blotches. I could smell the salt from her tears she had cried. She must not be sleeping at night, Not a surprise. As I watched her sleep for what was only a
CONNOR POViPhone ringtoneI groan trying to reach the annoying sound ripping me away from my sleep.Incoming callRebecca StoneI blindly swipe the button"Connor?" I hear softly on the other end. My hair standing up"Rebecca? what's wrong?" I rasp out my voice husky from sleep"oh....im so sorry...nothing oh shit you were sleeping...shit shit shit I'm sorry for waking you"I sighed at the sound of sadness in her voice.IDIOT WAKE UP! Fenris rumbles in my head almost taking control"no no no don't be sorry I'm awake ""you sure?" say asks hesitation in her voice"yeah its fine I promise" unintentionally I go to push some of my aura threw the phone to soothe her.She's human idiot it wont work Fenris grumbled"want to go get some breakfast with me? I feel like I haven't eaten in days"food now?, I don't even know what time it is5:22 am damn I over slept, guess it is time for breakfast"sure where to?" I said trying to sound more awake as I sat up in bed to see the skyline a light blu
*Incoming call*Natalie Vega"Alpha the proposal from Mr. Romero is available in your email now I looked it over and seen he attached everything needed but says it urgent. I'm sorry I wouldn't have called otherwise""I will look at it""She should have just sent a message instead of calling" Fenris mumbles"I'm meeting with him at 10am tomorrow correct?""Yes sir that's correct, again I'm sorry for bothering you""Good evening Ms. Vega""Y-Yes sir I hope you have a good night!" clickI rake my hands over my face I hate when she apologizes. I pay her to keep me on track that's what a personal assistant is for to call me when nobody else can reach me. I guess you can say I'm not really empathetic to an apology hearing the words "I'm sorry" sets my teeth on edge.Leo is on the other side of the door I can smell him, Fenris alerts meknock knock knock"Come in" I snap roughly"Good evening Alpha just checking in""Leo I'm relieving you for the night head home and get some sleep""Alpha unf
Connor POV Its and hour drive back to the penthouse and I'm not sure how to file away that interaction with her. I guess more of a blundering in the dark kind of thing, here I thought Rebecca missed me after spending most of the days since Dorians passing together weather she was sane mind at the time is debatable, but even I had hoped maybe she just wanted to be around me. But what she wanted from me was to to be rid of us. seems I'm only needed for two things money and sex. Both I enjoy but to have the realization come crashing down on me that my life work is boiled down to two things is just a blow to my ego. It actually angers me. I grip the steering wheel until it feels like my knuckles are about to rip out of my flesh."She is sad idiot" Fenris growls lower than normalwhat were you sleeping? Fossil I sneer"actually if you must know I was trying to figure out what is wrong with Bec" he says calmer than I feel"Oh? you were? see anything I didn't?" knowing full well he was damn
BEC POV I wake up to rain tapping on the roof the wind blowing against the windows of my bedroom. Everything is still dark but in my room shadows cast on the walls and ceiling from my phone lighting up Unknown Number I blink with one eye closed at the bright light coming from the screen tossing my phone back over the edge of the bed still faced upI groan at the light still being shown on the ceiling, tugging the covers back up not that I needed them I was so hot lately the blanket was more of a comfort being against me making me feel less vulnerable to the world around me. Like I was safe from it all. The smell of Dorian was still clinging to the sheets as if he just left the bed to start his day, but the coldness of the cotton told me other wise. I missed him so much. You never know how much a person affects your life until they are gone just like that no explanation just gone. I feel tears prick the corner of my eyes as I try and blink them away. I think I've cried enough don't y