Angelo
Loss
I'm in pain ... Physically, emotionally, psychologically, and mentally. I can't explain the feeling that I am experiencing, and it feels like I've lost two of the most important people in my life.
I feel numb. I feel everything and nothing at the same time. The feeling sucks and I need Cleo right now. I can't do this on my own. I regret how I treated her when I woke up three days ago. I had heard the conversation between her and Daniel, and she was conflicted as to how to tell me what was going on and what had happened.
When I came around I was angry and again Cleo was by my bedside. She was at the receiving end of my rant. I didn't mean to be so mean to her ... I was hurting and I'm doing a very great job at hurting her.
She's always been sensitive, and she has taught me how to be a bit more gentle in the way I approached things but this time I messed up so badly. I lost it at her and she walked out upset. It was only after I spoke to Daniel, that I had realized I was way too hard on her. I called her last night and she sent my calls straight to voicemail. I had also texted her and she didn't respond.
I had two funerals to attend in one day and the first one was Luigi's funeral. Half of me is missing and it's because my brother is gone. I was allowed to be there because as it turned out I am half Massa and half Luca. Nicolai confirmed earlier what Cleo and Daniel knew; that I had inherited the Massa empire. I was at the Luca estate. While I was fixing my tie when the door to the main bedroom opened.
" Massa."
" Daniel, have you heard from Cleo? "
" No. She won't take my calls either. "
" I messed up badly and I love her. "
" She was going to tell you at the right time... Instead you just woke up and asked her to tell you; what was going on, and when she asked for time you kicked her out. "
" I didn't mean to. I was hurting."
" Listen to Angelo; I know that you are hurting and I can only imagine what you're going through because you suffered a double tragedy ."
" You also lost your brother. "
" Luigi and Cloudio loved you. "
" How am I going to get through today without my wife ?"
"She also hasn't checked in with the twins and Ava. My Mom is worried."
I started feeling tried too because it wasn't like Cleo not to call in and check in with the kids
"Where are my little angels? "
" They are with Florence and Nancy. "
"How are you keeping it together."
"Eleanor. She too hasn't heard from Cleo and her phone just rings. Marc too doesn't know where she is. "
I took a deep breath.
" Let me get through today ."
" You've got me. "
" Cleo."
" She didn't leave the country and we have eyes and ears everywhere. She will show up soon remember she also loved Claudio."
" He loved her too. Luigi also loved her and I understand why she can't come. "
" Both your brother and your uncle meant a lot to Cleo too. She wasn't keeping the truth from you. Are you in love with my sister? "
" With everything in me. "
" You of all people should know that she always tries to administer painless painfully. You'll feel it, yes, but she'll take the blow for you to make it feel less severe when it hits. "
" For what it's worth I'm thankful that you're here and Cleo is lucky to have you as a brother . "
Daniel walked over to hug me and let go
" So are you."
" I'm still in denial."
"We are family, aren't we? "
I sat on the chair and cried.
"We are. You are my older brother after all all
" I am. When you are ready to talk to Romano he will listen. "
" Our dad isn't heartless?"
" No, and you also have Salvatore who loves you. He just gives you a hard time because he wanted what you have. "
" My wife is off-limits."
" She'll probably be at your father's service. She refused to speak according to Blake. "
" I just don't know why she wouldn't. "
" It doesn't sound like her but something's going on with my sister and you have to do some major fixing up. For the mess you made."
" I have two funerals to get through and I need her around. "
" Everyone's been busy with a lot and the press is also going to be at your Uncle's funeral too. I've tried all I could to keep the kids out of the papers You have a reputation ."
" Had. I love your sister and with everything that is going on the girls I used to go out with would have bailed."
" Jane is also going to be there. "
" I need to tell Cleo about my history with her now Ex best friend. "
" Please don't fall off the wagon I'm here for you."
" Who's there for you when you are busy taking care of everyone."
" Eleanor and Salvatore. "
I lightly punched his shoulder.
" You have me now too. You are blood and I protect blood with my life."
" You are blood to Michelangelo and I always have your back ."
" You do know that Jane has every right to be at your Uncle's funeral too right?"
" I know and she's seated at the family section. I just hope your sister understands that I was a different person back then. I didn't mean to do what I did ."
" Jane forgave you didn't she? "
" She did. She also cheated on me when I was ready to work things out and she lied to me repeatedly ..."
I heard Daniel's phone vibrate and after one glance he gave me a grim look.
" To be continued ?"
" Yes. "
" Come on we need to go and say goodbye..."
" I'm not ready to say goodbye... "
" None of us are ever ready to say goodbye but let go. Fear holds on."
I wiped tears that were starting to spring out again.
" Love...Let's go."
©#KCMmuoe
Chapter 2 Cleo I don’t like funerals in fact I really hate them. Death is part of life, and through death there is always some sort of rebirth that takes place. Hence the saying by Saint Francis of Assisi ; "it is only through death that we are born to eternal life." I’ve learned that death is not the hardest part; the letting go and moving on after the loss is . Having lost two children at the hands of Rosa taught me that. Angelo is sensitive and he is still scarred from what Nina did . When he woke up from the shooting incident that had happened he accused me of omitting the truth from him. Truth be told I was not omitting anything from him. I wanted a less painful way to tell him what had happened . A double tragedy sucks and feeling like you’ve lost everything in the blink of an eye is even worse . Angelo
Chapter 3 - Truth be toldAngelo" Jane no get off me I'm married."" I know but she should be with you. "Carl came up and gently removed Jane and spoke to her ." Jane I think it's time you go home . "Everyone started making their way to the Villa . Brent had directed them away from what was going on. Jane looked at me and rolled her eyes" Michelangelongelo you can't pretend that MJ didn't exist."I ignored her comment because I knew what game she was playing." I will go to the press and spill the tea . I will also tell them how you threatened to kill the twins. You don't deserve to be happy with Cleo."" So says the woman who cheated on me after we lost our child. I was going to try but you continuou
CleoProtection protocolWhen I got into a relationship with Angelo ; I didn’t go into it with eyes wide open . The lessons that I had learned from being with him and the trials we went through, shot my eyes wide open . There has always been a protection protocol that needed to be followed in cases where I was apart from Angelo.Daniel had made it clear to me that I need to cover up with regards to bullet proof vests and carrying things in my bag that could help me in case I find myself in a bit of trouble or life threatening situations. The self defense classes I had also been taking secretly that he had organized also helped . I didn’t like keeping stuff from Angelo , but I did it because I knew that he would say no to me. He has always had a problem with me starting things without telling him, or when he finds out about something that I am doing by my m
AngeloI am thankful for everything at the moment . I know I messed up with Cleo , but I am trying to show her that I am a better man . It has been a couple of weeks since the attack at the funeral and conversation with Cleo with regards to me and her taking a break and hitting the reset button. I don't want to lose her and another part of me doesn't want to be without her for even a couple of hours . Since I am stubborn, she moved from the main bedroom to the guest bedroom. I don't even get to see her and we live in the same house . Its Halloween week and I am hoping to see her at the office party that I organized .She is clinical in her execution . She wakes up makes sure that the kids are well taken care of and she is out before I wake up at seven in the morning. For the past couple of weeks , make that four ; we haven't touched each other and this is the first weekend that the twins were going to the Luca beach house . In
Chapter 6CleoLike the back of my handWhen I went downstairs for lunch Angelo had set up the table and plated the food . He had foiled the plates and took out a bottle of wine. As soon as he came down he looked out of sorts. I knew something was wrong because; being with him was like being with someone who was predictable in a reassuring way. I can tell when something is on his mind, or when he is either troubled or lying . I know him like the back of my hand ,and with regards to our son being mischievous and causing trouble ... He takes it from his father .Angelo walked downstairs dressed in a black blazer; slacks , a white dress shirt as excited as I was that we were back on talking terms together, something in me told me that ; it was going to be short lived because he was leaving for what I suspected was a meeting
Chapter 7AngeloWhat's in my heartCleo is moody period. There are days when I am able to understand where her cold and hot demeanor comes from, and yesterday afternoon was just not one of those days. Jane has gone from being a medium to hard limit. I didn't know why she was calling me. I decided to let my men deal with her . Cleo was right . I am the boss what I say goes and just after getting Cleo to stay and not leave , I dealt with the call I received from Matteo . He was my cousin and unlike Tom and Duncan , he was deliberate and intentional with execution .I had sent Aaron to the Club and he didn't mind. His report back this morning was that ; Matteo was pissed. He wanted to see me and had actually thought I was married to Jane . I had gotten drunk with him the day I caused the accident . He was the one who confessed to sleeping with Jane . They tried d
Chapter 8CleoI don't know how to deal with Angelo when he pushes me away . When he asked me to stay after I threw his phone at him , I was reluctant to because we were so close to making love after a very ,very ,very long time , but he had to ruin it by still being in contact with that backstabbing, two timing duplicitous , human being I used to call a friend .This morning he emailed me not, called or came through to my study/ home office to tell me that ; he didn't want to be disturbed ,and that I should go out and enjoy myself at the mall . The mall... The bloody mall . Massa knows I don't like the mall . I took my notebook with me and just left. I did have a favourite coffee shop that I hadn't gone to in a while, and they had the most refreshing smoothies . I ordered a mocha and mint smoothie and sipped on it while working until it started raining again. I
Chapter 9AngeloMatteo Massa is a; sneaky son of a very respectable man and woman, who dont know what creature of the devil they bore . He has to date slept with all of my girlfriend's and was also part and parcel of my relationships ending up like the Titanic. Not this time.He took Aaron's access card and copied the incription and made a duplicate access card . He hacked into my email account and caused mayhem. I could have had some much needed sexy time and catch up time with Cleo. Now I feel like I've gone there steps back; because of him. He cancelled all of my meetings including an important one with my lawyer. It had to do with my uncle's assets in Italy. I had to reschedule everything and move it to a week after my father's birthday week which was on the sixteenth. I needed at least a week to fix the