Chapitre 6

The three of us ate at the usual place that we go every time we can’t choose any new restaurants. It’s been hours and the night has come deep and the stars reappeared as we left the restaurant. “At last, weekend, I’m so glad that we don’t have schedules every weekend,” Ciara sighs in relief while we walk to the bus stop. “But we have tons to do because of a certain someone, how is that a happy thing?” James rebutt her and I roll my eyes. “But we aren’t going to campus to see certain people” I looked at James and raised a brow at him and he only shrugged, agreeing, nodding at what I said. 

The bus arrived and both of them got in. I told them earlier that I’ll take a taxi to go to my parents house. I waved them goodbye and waited for the bus to drive away until I couldn't see it anymore. I stood there for a couple of minutes until a car stopped in front of me and the driver got out. “Sorry I took too long, I got us drinks” Xian smiled at me as he opened the passenger seat door for me. “You didn’t need to buy one though” Itell him after he got inside as well. “It’s fine, no big deal anyways” he replies and he starts driving. 

It was silent inside the car while he drove me to my parent’s house. My parents knew Xian so it’s not a problem if they see him driving me home. The problem is how my parents will think about it. They’re going to make a fuss about it, ask me here and there and won’t shut up about it unless I spill everything to them. I roll my eyes mentally and just prepare myself mentally. I can’t change the future anyways. “Is Sunday still okay for us to go? Or you’re still going to stay at auntie’s?” Xian blurted out while he drove past the cars. I looked at him, “well, I don’t want to cram my activities so Sunday is still okay for us to go to that library, I’ll be going back home by Sunday as well since I have many things to do” I smiled slightly at him. 

Xian only nodded at me. I grabbed the drink he bought and took a sip from it. This was what we always were even back then. Silence always wrapped us like a blanket in a cold morning. I looked outside in silence. I feel like I was back from years ago, when I first got inside his car. There’s also a drink that he bought that time and we were filled with silence at that time as well. I turn my head to look at Xian. For some reason, it all feels weird. I feel weird all of the sudden, as if I was back in the past. Even though we didn’t end on such great terms and now we’re back together, it was as if nothing happened at the time when we ended. When he abruptly told me that we should stop seeing each other, for the reasonable reason that we need to focus more on our studies. 

He glanced at me when he realized that I was looking at me. “Something wrong?” He reached for my hand and held it. I shook my head with a small smile, “just thinking what if we didn’t end things back then, I wonder what will happen” I tell him. He looked at me and chuckled, “always with the deep thoughts” he smiled at me, making me roll my eyes at me. “I was just thinking okay, I’m not overthinking it” I tell him while I shift my gaze back outside. “Well, we needed that anyways, I guess it was just a passing thought” I added and the  car stopped at a red light. “I feel like there is something wrong, did something happen?” he asked, turning his attention to me. “I told you there’s nothing, I just feel lost at the moment, I never anticipated that we’d be back together” I tell him, not sparing him a glance or a look. 

Well, it was true that I never thought that we’d be back together. But there’s also something that bothers me and I don’t know what it is. “I never said that I don’t feel anything towards you, all I said back then was we should stop seeing each other because I felt the need to focus more on my academics, and you too as well, I guess it’s a hard thing for me to combine both, and balance both” he confessed and smiled. Such a smart person. “I know you can’t Mr. Overachiever” I chuckle and he rolls his eyes, a laugh escaping his lips as he laughed with me. 

Soon we reached my parent’s house. He stops the car and looks at me, “see you on Sunday?” He smiled at me and rolled my eyes playfully at him. “Sure whatever” I smiled as well before taking my things and before I could get out of his car, Xian placed a small kiss on the back of my hand. A kiss on my hand that gave my heart a huge skip. Then I got out and watched his car move and fade in the distance. I turn to see my parents already standing on the doorway and I smile at them while rolling my eyes. 

“So, you got back with Xian?” my mom whispered beside me as we walked toward the shrine. Last night when I got to them on the doorway, I immediately kissed their cheeks and gave them a hug and told them about my day, about how tiring it was. It was to postpone their questions and make a big fuss about the obvious. I looked at her and she spared me no glance. I chuckled lightly, my father giving me a look that he also wanted to know if I got back with him. “You could’ve adopted him as well if you like him so much” I joke and roll my eyes playfully at them. “Well, maybe, but he’s so perfect for you, so, if you’re back together that’s good” my mom replies and gives me a glance. I chuckled at them and stared at the scene in front of me. 

People got in and out of the temple and there are also on the near side of it where the shrine resided. I frown at the sight of it, I don’t really believe in things like this but my parents bring me here so I come and just pray to whoever or whatever thing or being that can hear my prayers. I stood in between my mother and father, our hands clasped together and I muttered  my words of prayers silently, copying what I had learned from my parents back when they first brought me here. 

Back when I was a kid, back when they adopted me.