Chapter 1

No one notice I'm gone that day in the prom. Not even the CCTV as I leave hurrily from the venue able to catch the afterimage of my disappearing figure. They are busy cheering for the grand figures in the spotlight above the head of everyone to even notice!

That moment is unforgettable. The first time the tears can't be hold anymore and is streaming down without end. I sobbed like mad, but strangely feeling good afterwards as I'm confronted by the cruel fact of this world!

“Avoid at all cost this world's common desire,” dad always said this, but now clearly engrave at the deepest of my heart. “You know we can't possibly fling with this ordinary people. Ordinary can't help us to comeback to the Moonless Pack,” he added as he drank the liquid of red, then wipe the remains of it at the corner of his mouth.

I nodded. “You're right, dad,” I said with the hint of regrets, “I shouldn't have fool myself to believe a lie. Ordinary people is easy to express themselves, however there's no meaning behind it.” I barely smile, it appear as bitter as I sounded right now.

It cause dad to pause for a moment. “My daughter, what's wrong?” he ask, face serious. “Are you alright?”

“Of course, dad,” I laugh lightly.

“Sure?” His gaze pierce through and trying to figure out something. “Not even feeling something recently, or come across a change?”

“Change?” I smile bitterly, shook my head before my heart bang harder. “Nothing of sort, dad.”

“Then what's with you?” His voice raised upon receive nothing but frustration, and he sigh disappointedly.

I can only give him a weary stares. “I only agreed with your nonsense,” I said defendingly. “What's wrong with that, dad?”

“That exactly is the wrong!” His palm reach me, gently touch my forehead, and he sigh in relief after. “You're fine, though. Is it because of the change of weather that you feel so strange?” He look outside the open window upon the murmured, and the white world came to view.

I raised my head to glare. “Seriously?”

“Then what's with that change I cannot understand?” He roared, gulp the liquid of red up, and slam the glass to broke into pieces.

His fist tightened, look gently yet remain the natural viciousness behind. He said, as calm as ever, “I'll not going to force you out to things you don't want to. So please...”

This version of him shock me. I look away to hide the bitterness, and force a smile that slightly sincere. I said, “I don't mind if you force me, dad. Is living in this ordinary world doesn't rang your ears?”

This time, dad cough jokingly and awkwardly laugh. “What cunning you becoming to be, daughter,” he said, feeling proud.

“Am I?” I said, for instant feel sligthly better.

“Of course, you are!” He surely said, wipe the bugs that stained with his blood, and groaned slightly after turn to the wounded hand. He smiled sweetly after doing all of this, and once again said, “Well, daughter. Protecting your heart is the first and forever your duty as my one and only child. Understood?”

I wonder that time if dad knows what's in my heart. He possibly saw through my pain, yet he able to hide the concern.

“Dad!” I said in frustration after my eighteen birthday.

He turn to face me with coldness in his entire being. “It's no possible, my daughter,” he said, his voice kinda tired yet he can't possibly abandon the viciousness.

“But...” his glare stop me, and I taken aback with gritted teeth.

Dad face suddenly change into a gentle, yet only lasted a second as if an illusion. He said, “Daughter, you already in the age to need a force that you must provise for the greatest cause. Don't you wants to comeback after all this years?”

“Why would I need such a thing, dad?!” I shouted to his face, feeling defeated when he only use his saddened expression to melt my heart. I shook my head and hardened my heart. I said, “I don't need anyone... I don't need other people for the chance of fulfillment, of doing something great!”

There's a time I felt like he's such cruel, didn't give his all for his child to feel that she's not at all different and alone in this complicated world. But sometimes I realize, he's trying very hard that he don't realize that the world is greatly change.

“Why are you afraid to go back?” I pleaded out, “Let's go together if you really wanted it, dad. Please...”

“No!” His expression greatly change.

“Then I'm going all by myself?” The thought of it strange me, as if this is a dream I would never want to be true. “Seriously, dad? Do you think I'm feeling great leaving you in this despicable place?”

“Shallyeah!” Dad's frustration reach the ultimate height, causing my pupils to shrink. “What's wrong with you?!”

I felt as if I'm being discarded once again by the world. Not even my dad think I'm right, and thought I'm being despicable. I'm being horrible!

“I thought you'll understand, dad,” I said after containing the tremble of my lips. My voice filled with disappointment that time, but I wonder if he felt it?

Then if yes, why he don't say anything? He just let me turn my back from him, and to tears to occasionally stream down my face.

I want to shout to dad. This world is a garbage! No one really is true... and even if they are, they will change to the worst!

“How can I let him leave behind?” I pondered the matter, but for what reason, gives up and accept the fact that I won't have my way to fulfilling life.

Dad sent me off, his face kinda gives me a chill. How can there's a smile in his lips and so bright as he waves his hand excitedly?

“So happy I'm leaving?” I commented without any hint of emotion.

Dad happiness pause for a moment, pondered a bit of it, then certainly nodded. He said excitedly, “My daughter finally have her journey ahead of her. How can't I be happy for you, my daughter?”

This only adds to my bitterness and face the path without him. I able to remain ordinary until the last day in this ordinary world, trying to search the meaning of the word, yet the enlightenment never change.

The ordinary... can't be trusted.

“Only becoming grand one will notice my worth,” I thought as my mind came back to that day, go the grand figure everyone cheers with wow and admiration.

“He befriending me because I'm available, and show his affection after realizing I'm easy to fool,” I realized this after ponder the matter, after watched his sparkled of eyes to trully glow with love and affetion to the woman that just came into picture. “What a jerk he is, yet I'm feeling bitter by that kind of man?!”

I care highly to the love that my heart willed to, and thought the ordinary may not be bad just like I thought it was.

Only to be slapped by the reality. As if I don't exist in those moment with him, this jerk and everyone else don't even remember I'm once the favor of his eyes. Is everybody scheme this horrible?!

That thought rang my ear, cause blood to stream down for the first time from my eyes.

Dad don't know that, but here I am wish he knows my fear... of leaving him behind. Looking back before he already disappear from my sight, I can't help but ponder if he's opposite with me, and actually find the happiness in this ordinary?

“Be happy dad,” I said, sincerely yet the hint of bitterness upon the cost of such a wish. “I'm leaving... for that smile.”