Party
"Shot!"Instead of going straight to the coffee shop, we ended up inside a bar. It's called Catastrophe. This is a place where the rich people usually go. Most of the customers here are elites and those who have a say in the society. Let's say a name. A high profiled name."Why don't you drink?" Fabio gave me the glass with just a drink but I shook my head. "You don't drink?" he slightly raised his brow at me. He was sitting on my left while Miya was on my right. We are facing the Coleridge brothers, the owner of Devil's Glass, the liquor that I am currently modeling with Xander, Brandon, and Fabio.Xander and Brandon aren't here. They said they had something to do now so they didn't come with us."I drink, but just not now. I don't feel like doing it right now." I said with a smile. Fabio is actually a gentleman. Well, he's a little bit flirty but tolerable. I think that it's just really his nature. It's his thing.Fabio's a bit tanned and muscular. His muscles are almost bursting with excessive size. And I also think that he's a mixed. I would doubt if he'll say he's pure Filipino because he doesn't look like one."Oh... So, what do you prefer? Juice? Or me?" he let out a smirk and I just chuckled."Are you guys enjoying?" We looked at the person who spoke. It was Gresso Coleridge. I think, between him and his brother, Gresso is the most playful. His aura is bright whenever he smiles, but something's a bit odd with him though. And the oldest, Hades Coleridge. He's a silent type. He spoke only once and he usually nods. They're both equally handsome. But, Hades really hits different. Maybe because he's quite mysterious."We're more than enjoying, Sir." Fabio raised his glass. Gresso just smirked in return before turning to me. I smiled a bit. His eyes narrowed as he stared at me and then he laughed.I slightly elbowed Miya."You know what, earlier in the shoot, I was staring at you because you really look familiar to me. Isn't she, Kuya?" Gresso asked his brother. Hades just nodded before staring at me. I shifted uncomfortably on my seat.It's weird. Even me too, I am familiar with the both of them. I just don't really know where I saw them. I don't know. I'm not really sure. Or maybe it's just my feeling."Now I know why you're very familiar..." he added before laughing again like he already knew me. I winced.I frowned but I didn't entertain much of what he said."That's impossible, Sir. Beautrin's beauty is one of a kind." Miya said making me feel even more awkward.Yes. It's really impossible. Maybe I wasn't the one they saw. I almost forgot that I have a twin."Anyway, a friend of ours is coming here. He's one of our investor too so..." Gresso drawled while his eyes were still on me. I felt Miya lightly pinch my side as if she saw the man's gaze at me."Gresso seems smitten by your beauty..." Fabio laughed softly at my side. Well, that added more of the awkwardness. But I don't think he really is. I feel like he is just curious about me.I drank my pineapple juice.I was surprised to see that some of the women who were dancing awhile ago approached our table. They all flop towards the Coleridge brothers. Three for Gresso and one for Hades.I moved towards Miya's side when the two girls sat on Fabio's lap. He even had the audacity to wink at me before kissing his girls alternately. Well... That's your playboy Fabio right there."I hope we didn't go with them anymore." I said before sighing. I thought that we'll be having a real coffee today. But I was not informed that they will be drinking a coffee that would make us all drunk. Well, if only I had the appetite to drink."That's okay. I might be able to fish a wealthy CEO here," Miya chuckled and I glared at her. She's not allowed to. She can't be ahead of me. I must fish a CEO first or...maybe we can do it together instead. Pft."I'll just go to the restroom..." I informed Miya. She even insisted to come with me but I didn't allow it. I can go there alone, and besides, it's only on the second floor.I didn't say goodbye to the boys because they were all busy anyways.When I was inside the restroom, I immediately did my thing. I don't really plan on staying inside because I smell something really strange.After I retouched and washed my hands, I went out and immediately went down to my table. I was planning on staying on the second floor, but my eyes seemed to be spinning around even though I was only drinking my pineapple juice. Well, the blinding lights made me dizzy, probably.When I saw the table, I immediately approached Miya, completely ignoring the person who was sitting beside Gresso."Miya, let's go home." I told her. I frowned when I saw her eyes widen as she stared at my back and then at me. As if she was trying to warn me or something. She doesn't really have to. I already saw him. I just refused to acknowledge him because that's what we really should do."Miya." I scolded. I started to feel irritated because of my headache, it felt like something was digging inside my stomach, you might want to add that I am also feeling so hungry and feel like eating a steak at Jollibee today."T-Trin..." Miya stuttered."Oh, Miss Beautrin, you're here. By the way, this is my friend, Claus Monteserio. He's one of the investors of the company."I was stoned in my place when I heard his name. Yeah. I thought I was just hallucinating!W-what?! I was hungry so that's why!I don't know what got into my brain and without saying a word, I just grab my bag from Miya's side before running out of the place.Shit!I heard their voices calling me but I didn't listen to it and continued running outside.I only breath a sigh of relief when I finally got out, but that was short-lived when someone pulled my arms, making me face the person whom, I am supposed to be ignoring right now."Yes? Sir?" There. Thank God Beautrin and you didn't stutter. But deep inside I feel like I want the earth's crust to swallow me right now.He frowned while looking at me."You're the model?" he spat out angrily. His face mixed with disgust did not escape me. My stomach churned painfully at the sight. Of course, what do you expect Beautrin?"Yes." my short answer.He violently let go of my hand he was holding before staring at me intently. Anger, disgust, and annoyance were the only things I can see in his eyes."You won't stop, don't you? You won't stop until you get what you want? What else do you want, huh? Did you accept the contract because you know you'll see me?! Is that it, huh?! What? You're going to pay attention to me?! Do you really think that you can fool me?! Well, think again! You'll never get what you want! Please! Just please! Stop being desperate! You just look like a dog who follows me everywhere! I don't like you anymore! Well, guess what? I don't even know if I really loved you when we were together! Because I don't think so! You're nothing but a substitute when Beatriz isn' t around! You are just a second choice!"Dinner"I hope you feel guilty for rejecting your sister several times. She wanted you to be here for dinner and you what? Continue to reject her.""What will be my role be at the dinner, Mom, and why do I need to be there? What? To embarrass me?""You ungrateful child! Your sister is not like that! Go or-"I cut the call before turning my phone off.It's eleven in the morning, I just woke up and I can hear my good mother's voice again. Like, what the hell? Can't they let me rest for a day?I sighed deeply.Last night was what I call a nightmare. I don't want to remember all the things that Claus said because my heart hurts so much. It's like my heart is being torn apart again and again by hearing those words from his mouth. I don't even want to recall it.I was crying the whole night. It was almost morning when I completely fell asleep. I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror because I expected my fac
Help"Mother Delia!" I screamed so loud when I got inside. After a while, someone came out from the kitchen. Her eyes widened as she hurriedly walked towards me. I met her halfway before hugging her."Oh... My daughter grew up beautifully..." her soft voice made me close my eyes as I hugged her so tight. I kissed the top of her hair, smelling her in the process.I miss her. I miss my home..."I miss you, Momma..." I whispered softly. I smiled a little when I felt her hug tightening around me. After a while I heard her sniffed which surprised me. I broke our hug before looking at her. She was already crying. I wiped her tears while stopping mine from falling too. Gosh!"My daughter...I miss you...""Oh gosh..." I hugged her again and kissed her head several times."I really miss my Momma too..." my mouth trembled as I spoke. I was on the verge of crying too. My chest started to tighten but I am very happy. I want to regret why I left her here. I wish I had forced her to come with me so
RegretBut do I have any choice?No."Trin! What wedding dress should I choose?!" I watched my sister as she excitedly showed me the brochure of the wedding dresses. Being here...is killing me.It's painful. What I'm doing is painful but it's okay. I can only be with my sister sometimes, will I refuse this opportunity?I sighed before smiling at her."You should choose something brighter, Triz. It will suit you better." Of course. If she's the light, then I'm the darkness. We're completely opposite. We didn't spend a lot of time together when we were kids because...I avoided her. The reason? It's mom and dad, of course. They told me not to talk to Beatriz too much because she might be influenced. I don't know what kind of influence they were talking about but as I got older, I slowly understood what they meant.The young me was confused b
Trauma"What the hell?! What happened to you?!"Miya was hysterical when she fetched me. Claus left me crying inside the car. Someone picked him up and that's just it. He left me...alone...crying.I don't think that I can even drive in my state so I called Miya. The service van took her here, which immediately left after sending Miya here."Beautrin..." she held my face and tried to wipe my tears but they were still dripping. It just won't stop falling! I've been trying! I've been trying so hard to contain my tears but it just won't budge.I could see Miya's face with intense sadness as she looked at my whole face. I know. I know that my face shows how hurt and broken I am right now. There are no enough words to describe what I am feeling right now. This is just too much for me to handle."M-Mi..." I cried louder. She did nothing else but
Consequences"I have to tell him... I have to tell him... I have to tell him..." That's what I said over and over again when I woke up the next morning inside my condo. I am not sure, and I don't know how he will react on this. But I wish...I am wishing that he'll believe me now. Because honestly, I don't know what to do. I wanna raise the kid alone so bad but...but what if those people come back and hurt me again? What if they take my child away from me again?!No!This is not about me anymore! But also for my unborn child. I have to protect my child...our child. Together. Claus and I will do it together! His child needs him. We need him...I-I can't be alone because I'm scared! I am afraid not only for myself but also for my child...our child.I lazily took a bath before dressing myself up. When I was satisfied with my look, I immediately left the room."Trin...?" Miya immediately noticed me. She was sitting in the living room and it looked like she was talking to someone on her c
Never again Has someone already told me that my life would end up being this hard? I bet no. Because I wasn't prepared. I... No one is prepared. B-but I never thought my life would be this difficult. I never thought that the day would come when I don't even want be alive...that I would rather wish be gone. I didn't think I would choose to be selfish on this. I just want to disappear from the world because of what is happening to me. I know how much my mother and father are angry with me. I know that. Ever since I was a child, I could feel it. I was never the priority. It was always my twin. But even so, I still understand them. I tried to understand them from the very beginning. I...took my time. I took my time and did everything for me to be noticed by them, so that they could acknowledge me, that one day they would remember that their daughter has a twin and isn't alone. I took my time. I was living not for myself but to satisfy my family. But it was never enough. I...was never e
BrokenSadness. Undenial. Angry. Frustrated. It's so sad that I have to lose someone I truly value just so I would wake up in my own daydream. That the daydream, the dream, the place that I've been trying to live on is not at all a dream but a nightmare. I clutched my Momma's dress tightly to my chest as I cried. Memories of her when I was still young washed over me. "You're back in your room. Why don't you come out, hmm? It's your birthday and one of our princesses is sulking already." It was Momma Delia's voice when she came inside my room. I sighed. Any child will probably sulk inside his or her room if your own parents don't greet and pay attention to you. They only greeted Beatriz while when in fact, we're twins. We have the same birthday too so I don't understand why am I treated differently.I'm sad. But...I can't be mad at them. Sulking, yes, but I am never the type of the person who'll invest myself with too much hate.Even if they think I'm cursed, at least I still kno
For goodLeaving may be the hardest thing to do for many. Who would want to leave the place you grew up in, right? No one wants to leave and go somewhere unfamiliar to you.But now, that is the easiest way for me to finally let go of everything. The easiest and the most practical way to do. Leaving is the easiest choice for me right now. Not the easiest escape, because everything won't be easy for me, that's for sure. I guess I've been through all the hardships in life that I am somewhat feeling calm. I don't know. Maybe I'm not yet saddened by what I'm going to go through in the future.nBut at least, now... I can finally be free.Free from pain, from hurt, from all the shits that I've been through, from the people who caused my life so much...pain."Are you really serious? Are you really going to leave? The Philippines?" Tammy asked me one question. I don't exactly know how many times did she asked me that. She looks like she's not convinced yet. We're both leaning on her car while