Yumayakap ang malamig na simoy ng hangin sa aking balat. I closed my eyes as I feel the coldness touches my skin. I breathed in and out deeply. Inilagay ko ang aking dalawang kamay sa mainit na tasa na nasa aking harapan. Sumimsim ako nang kaunti sa aking mainit na kape.
Whenever I can't sleep, I just get myself a coffee and feel the cold breeze in the middle of the night. Tumingin ako sa langit na punong-puno ng mga butuin.This is the life I wanted and dreamt for. A peaceful life.But I know that when the morning comes, everything will be back to normal. A stressful life and noisy people. Sometimes I wonder, if everyone was given the privelege to choose the kind of life and family that they live with, would evereyone be at right hands and right path?But if I was given a chance? I think...I will never choose another family to live with...because the family I have in this lifetime, is beyond astonishing and amazing. I might feel unfortunate sometimes but I would always tell myself that it is okay in a family.I smiled at my thoughts.I was trying to call my mother on the phone but she's not answering. I bet they're already sleeping. It's been a week since the party happened. Nakapagpadala na rin ako ng pera sa mga magulang ko. Nakapagbayad na rin ako ng mga pending fees ko sa TSU hanggang sa huling taon ko roon and my fridge is now full of vegetables, meat, and other foods.The money I got from my job is enough to survive. May sobra pa nga.Nang maubos ko ang aking kape ay umakyat na ako upang ituloy ang aking naudlot na pagtulog.The sound of my ringing phone woke me up in the morning.Hindi pa nga ako nakakatulog nang maayos may gugulo na naman?Itinakip ko sa aking tenga ang isa sa mga unan ko.Ngunit tila ata walang balak ang tumatawag na patulugin ako ngayon.Kinuha ko ang phone ko at sinagot ang tumatawag. Handa na akong magalit sa kung sino man ang gumugulo sa aking pagtulog nang maunahan ako nang nasa kabilang linya."Ano ba Ash?! Kanina pa ako tawag nang tawag ah? Ano? Nakuha mo lang yung pera hindi ka na naman sasagot sa mga tawag ko? Aba Ash! Kung ganyan lang din naman pala na saka ka lang tatawag sa akin kung may kailangan ka ay sabihin mo! Para alam ko kung bibigyan pa rin ba kita ng mga pagkakakitaan mo o hindi na!" Mahabang litanya ni Mama Nicole.Napakamot ako sa aking noo dahil sa mga sinabi niya. Hindi naman yun totoo? Hindi ko lang nasagot ang tawag niya ganun na agad ang mga litanya niya sa akin?Huminga ako nang malalim at umupo sa aking pagkakahiga."Mama ano ba? Ang aga aga niyo naman po kasi-" she cut me off."My god Ash! It's already 1 in the afternoon for god's sake!"I widened my eyes and looked for a clock because of what she said. And damn, she is right!"Ma, I'm sorry kung hindi ko nasagot ang tawag niyo. I just couldn't sleep last night that's why," Paliwanag ko sa kanya."And it's my fault?" Masungit na ani niya."Hindi naman po. I know that it's my fault that's why I'm saying sorry right?" marahan kong sagot sa kanya."Ah basta kung ayaw mo nang tumuloy sa line of escorts ko ay sabihin mo! Para makapaghanap na rin ako nang kapalit mo. Hindi ka naman madaling palitan.""I'm sorry again, Ma." I said sincerely.I checked my phone when silence enveloped in the other line. I thought she already ended the call but she didn't. It's still on-going.Isang malalim na buntong hininga ang bumalot sa aking pandinig."Hmm I have something to offer you. Come to the Bar later. Alam mo na kung saan, Ash ah? No buts and no excuses." She then ended the call.Napahinga ako nang malalim dahil sa sinabi niya. Alam niyang tatanggi ako kaya naman inunahan na niya ako.With what she said, I already know what she is about to offer me. Another job means another man to pleasure and entertain. It also means another money.Tumayo na ako sa pagkaka-upo at nagtungo sa banyo upang makaligo na. I planned to clean my house today since it's Saturday but I know I have no time left. Kaya naman inayos ko na lang muna ang loob ng aking kwarto. Bukas na lang ang sa buong bahay.After what happened at the party, Jake never contacted me again. Our last interaction was at the School. Sometimes, we see each other in the hallway but never did he strike a conversation with me. Ganun din sa loob ng klase.Akala ko nga ay hindi na siya ang magiging Prof. namin last week but it turns out that our real Professor is still sick.Pumara ako ng tricycle papunta sa Bar na pagmamay-ari ni Mama Nicole. Balak ko pa sanang hintayin ng driver na mapuno ang tricycle ngunit sinabi kong 'wag na at handa naman akong magbayad.I just don't want Mama Nicole to be mad at me again because I'm late. Alam kong mainit ang ulo niya sa akin kaya naman hindi na ako gagawa pa ng ibang dahilan para mas lumala ang init ng ulo niya.Ibinagay ko ang bayad sa driver nang makarating kami sa tapat ng Bar. I just say thank you to him then lead my way up to the hallway of the Bar.Malalakas na musika, mga taong nagsasayawan, at mga taong gumagawa ng milagro ang bumalot sa aking pandinig at paningin. Tinahak ko ang daan papunta sa opisina ni mama at kumatok ng tatlong beses."Pasok!"Mama Nicole is sitting on her chair habang may kausap sa telepono. "Yes yes, Albert. Okay. I'll just call you again later. Bye." she then dropped her phone on her table.She looked at me and pointed the visitor chair in the front of her table. Agaran naman akong umupo sa itinuro niyang upuan.Looking at mama's face, you can easily identify her beauty. She's 47 already but her body shape and face is still so young and sexy and hot as fuck. Hindi mo maikakaila ang kagandahang taglay niya."Alam mo na siguro kung bakit kita pinapunta ngayon dito," panimula niya.I just nodded my head at her. She's right. There's only one reason on why she called me to come up in her office."There is an offer to you, exclusively. Andrei Carlson wants you to be her date for a week."Napakunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. I already have an idea about what this meeting is, but... I can't understand her. She knows that I still have my contract on Jake and...she accepted another project again?"Mama, don't you think it will complicate my schedule with Jake? I still have a contract with him and that's a month! One week has already passed but there is still 3 weeks! I cannot cut myself into two and pleasure two men at a ti-" pakikipagtalo ko na agad niyang pinutol dahil sa isang tawa."Ash, do you think I'm dumb? Sa tingin mo ba hindi ko naisip 'yan? Of course, I've thought about those things too! God!""Then why are you offering it to me, mama? Can't you give it to other models, mama?""I am offering this to you because the client wants you exclusively! Hindi ka ba nakikinig? Ikaw ang gusto ni Andrei hindi ang ibang escort! I am offering this to you because your contract with Andrei will start when your contract with Jake ends! At anong models ang sinasabi mo? Napakataas naman ng tingin mo sa sarili niyo! Mga escort kayo hindi mga models, estupida!" mahaba niyang litanya.Halata na ang iritasyon sa kanyang mukha. Huminga siya nang malalim upang pakalmahin ang sarili bago itinuon ulit ang atensiyon sa akin."Okay, now I want you to know the contract you have with Andrei. It is far different from Jake. Jake applied for a perfect combo while Andrei just wants you to be his date. Parang alalay. No touching. No kissing. No sex. Understand?""Mama, can't you give it to your other girls-""Oh God, Ash! The client wants you, exclusively! Meaning he only wants you! Damn you are so stupid! Get the contract and leave my office. Now!" nangangalaiti niyang saad."Yes, ma." I only said then leave her office.Masama ang pakiramdam ko nang lumabas ako sa office ni Mama. Lagi na lang ganito. I promise to myself that when my contract ends, I'm not going to sign for another contract anymore. I'm tired of this shit.Pumunta ako sa bar table para humingi ng isang shot ng whiskey. "Oh, Ash ngayon na lang kita ulit nakita rito ah?" tanong ni Bryan."I'm busy, alam mo namang nag-aaral ako hindi ba?" Isa siya sa mga naging ka-close ko rito sa bar na'to. He's 23 years old at mas matanda siya sa akin ng dalawang taon.He smirked at me while getting my order. "Bakit pa ba kailangang mag-aral? Nagsasayang ka lang ng oras mo riyan, Ash." Sabay bigay sa akin ng isang basong whiskey."Hindi ito aksaya ng oras dahil para naman 'to sa pangarap ko at para na rin sa pamilya ko." Simple kong sagot sa kanya sabay tungga sa basong hawak ko. Napapikit ako nang yumakap ang mainit na pakiramdam sa aking lalamunan.Tiningnan ko si Bryan na ipinagpapatuloy ang pagse-serve. I get his point...for him, studying is just a
Jake was kissing me roughly while his hands are massaging my breasts. He bit my lower lip that causes me to moan and he used that as a chance to enter his tounge in my mouth. Ginagalugad ng kanyang dila ang bawat parte ng aking bibig. Pareho kaming hinihingal nang maghiwalay sa paglapat ang aming mga labi. "Good Morning, Ash." Hinawakan niya ang aking mukha at pinaulanan nang maraming mumunting halik ang aking mga labi."Good Morning, too." I asnwered back.His kisses went down to my jaw, down to my neck, and down to my collarbone. He's kissing me in my collarbone now while I'm holding his hair. Nakatingala na ang aking ulo habang kagat-kagat ang pang-ibabang labi dahil sa sarap na ipinaparanas niya sa akin ngayon.Tumingin siya sa akin nang hawakan niya ang dulo ng aking spaghetti strap. Pinunit niya ito na nagpadagdag sa tensiyon na aking nararamdaman ngayon. Fuck, I'm very much sure I'm wet down there already.Pinunit niya rin ang suot kong bra. Tinitigan niya ito ng mga ilang se
"Hindi ba talaga natin sila isasama?" I asked Jake when he said to me that the twins will be left behind their house.Gusto ko sanang sabihin na isama nalang namin sila dahil wala naman silang makakasama rito. However, I know my limits and boundaries. Jake is their brother. He knows what is good for them more than what I know.Huminga nang malalim si Jake at pinikit nang mariin ang kanyang mga mata. Halatang nagtitimpi na lang at anumang oras ay maaari niya na akong sipain palabas ng pamamahay niya."Please, Ash..." Hirap na sabi niya na parang mawawalan na talaga siya nang pasensiya.Well, if that's what he says. Naaawa lang naman ako sa kambal. Of course may mga kasama naman silang kasambahay. But still... Iniling ko na lamang ang mga naiisip ko at sumunod kay Jake palabas ng bahay. Nakita ko pang kumakaway sa akin si Lake habang nakasimangot naman si Take. Nagulat ako nang unti-unting umangat ang labi ni Take. Ngumisi siya!Dahil sa aking nasaksihan ay napangisi rin ako. "Ash, com
Ito na ang huling linggo ng pasok namin bago ang Christmas Holiday. Jake is always messaging me everyday. Sinabi niya na rin sa akin na we will travel on Friday night to go to Assucion, a hidden place in Siquijor.Pagkatapos niya akong ihatid sa bahay ay kinuha niya ang phone number ko. He says that it's just for emergency and future purposes only. Pero sa araw-araw na pag-text niya sa akin, it seems like he has a different agenda...kung hindi ko nga lang alam na may kailangan siya at ganun din ako.He needed me to act as his lover and to pleasure him and make him happy. While me, I need the money to provide for my family and education. It's a tie. Pero parang lugi siya.But well...I can still make him more satisfied in doing something...at bed.Isang tray ng pagkain ang pumatong sa tapat ng katabi kong upuan. I looked at that person and saw Jerkson. He's one of my classmates and one of the transferees. He's also a victim of bullying here. His big eyeglass doesn't suit with his hoode
"Hey, are you okay? Baby, is there something wrong?" He repeated the word baby again that made the situation more awkward for me. I wandered my eyes and saw that some girls looked like they are mad at me. Some are shocked. Sino nga ba naman ang hindi. This is my first time being seen in a public with a man...asking me if I'm okay...with the word 'baby' as an endearment.Tiningnan ko ang dalawa kong kaibigan na gulat din dahil sa nangyayari. Then my eyes came back to Jake. He's stll waiting for my answer. I can see it in his eyes that he's worried. Dahan-dahan kong itinango ang aking ulo sa kanya. "Y-Yes," I bowed my head because I know for sure that I'm looking like a red tomato right now."Then let's go, baby. I'll drive you home." Na agad ko namang tinutulan nang iling."Ah kasama ko kasi yung mga kaibigan ko. Sa kanila kasi ako sumasabay." I told him the truth. Sila naman kasi talaga ang kasabay kong umuwi kung hindi lang siya nagpakita rito.Naramdaman kong unti-unti nang nagsial
"Maayos naman po ang lagay ko rito," Sagot ko sa aking ina. I'm talking to her through phone. Umabot pa ng tatlong tawag bago niya sagutin ang tawag ko. I asked if there's something wrong but she answered none. "Kayo po ba? Kamusta na ang lagay niyo diyan sa Cebu?" Tanong ko."Ayos lang kami rito anak. Ahh s-sige mamaya na lang ulit ha?" Then she ended the call but before she could end it I heard someone screamed.I tried calling my mother again but she's not answering. I also messaged her in which she replied saying that she's busy and that she's in work.Napakunot ang noo ko sa nabasa. Work? Kailan pa nagkatrabaho si inay? Matanda na sila ni tatay kaya naman hindi ko na sila hinahayaan pang magtrabaho. Nagpapadala naman ako ng pera sa kanila buwan-buwan ah? Isn't it enough? And for sure...my father won't agree about my mother working. Huminga ako nang malalim at binura ang mga pumapasok sa isip ko. Inahahanda ko ngayon ang mga damit na binili sa akin ni Jake. He said he will pick m
Sinulyapan ako ni Jake at binigyan ng tingin na humihingi ng privacy. I nodded my head at him and did what he asked me to do. I saw how he gulped and sighed deeply before he faced the girl he called Allison.Allison, she's the girl in the Organization. She was one of that group and...Jake he's also there. They were talking at that time. I knew it! That's why they look so familiar.But...what they were doing in the organization? Maybe they donated? These past days, Jake is being weird, from his actions to reactions, and to the people he's with. It seems like what I'm seeing now is just their...facade.Lumayo muna ako sa kanila habang patuloy pa ring inililipad ng malakas na hangin ang aking buhok. The girl is beautiful, her skin is fair, her long black hair looked so soft, her figures cannot be described, and she's fucking hot. She's wearing a complete black outfit like what Jake wears. Ngayon ko lang napansin na ang kanilang suot ay parehong-pareho. Hindi kaya pinag-usapan nila ito?
We're now on our way to their resthouse in Cebu. I am riding their car with Jake beside me and Allison beside him. Jake's mother and father were also in our car. Nasa likod namin sila. After we left the building earlier, Jake has never spoken to me again. His face was frowning and his face looked problematic. Kung wala siguro si Allison sa sasakyan ay baka mabibingi na kami sa sobrang tahimik dito sa loob ng sasakyan."Tita, my father asked me to visit you because I've heard your family is now running for the most powerful family." She said while smiling even when Jake's mother won't see it because we're in their front. Pakiramdam ko ay may halong sarkasmo ang pagkakasabing iyon ng babae but...the reaction of tita Leonor seemed like it wasn't. Tita Leonor didn't even bother to laugh or even smile at what Allison said. "It's because of Jake." Tita Leonor answered simply."It's really amazing, tita, tito..." She paused them acted like she was thinking about something. "But it's not en