Josh has texted me na baka mamaya pa sya makapunta dahil may inaasikaso din sya sa school, sa journal club to be exact. Because he was assigned to be the president when I dropped out, his suppose to be free times from study was spent on the club for planning, and all that. Idagdag pa na sya rin ang head photographer ng club, marami talaga syang kailangang gawin.  I sent him a reply and said it's fine, that I understand. Besides, Shantall is here and currently, we are in the hospital's garden. I am on my wheelchair dahil nanghihina na naman ang mga kalamnan ko, a pole is standing on my side with the IV attached to it, connected to my arm. I belong to some of those cancer patients na kinakailangan ang IV for additional body supliments dahil low blood din naman ako even before I was diagnosed to have myeloid leukemia. My BP was always 80/70 or sometimes 90/80, kaya naman malala din ang epekto sa akin ng leukemia. Kung noon ay maputla na ako, mas

Joshua Enrich Villanueva's Point of View  Unlike what Shantall did to Kyline when she confessed, Kyline did not walk out on me, not that she could. She just stared at me, her tears stop falling from her eyes. She give the stare that she couldn't believe what I just said.  Well, who would?  I was a total jerk back then, masking as a bad boy and man whore just so no one could see my pain, because I don't want people pitying me. May sakit na si mama noon at nakaratay na sya sa ospital, whenever I am with her, mabait ako, ipinapakita ko sa kanya kung sino talaga ako. His smart baby boy, his baby Enrich. When I am with her, I am vulnerable. Madalas akong umiyak sa kanya kasi alam kong anytime iiwan nya kami for good, and who wants to be left by their mother? No one. At dahil mahina ako sa tuwing sya ang kaharap ko, iniba ko ang sarili ko sa harap ng maraming tao. Iilan lang ang nakakaalam ng toto

Kyline Grace Del Rosario's Point of View  Isang araw pa lang na hindi kami nagkakausap at hindi kami maayos ni Shantall ay hindi na ako mapakali. Pakiramdam ko, parang taon na ang itinagal ng lamat naming dalawa. I tried calling her pero madalas nauuwi lang sa voice mail ang mga tawag ko, marami na rin akong ipinadalang text pero wala syang sinasagot ni isa.  Naiisip ko na naman ang tumakas para puntahan sya, nagawa ko na noong una kaya magagawa ko ulit ngayon pero alam kong mag-aalala na naman ng sobra sina mama kapag ginawa ko yon. Wala naman akong problema sa pagliligaw sa kanila para makakuha ako ng tiyempo na tumakas eh, pero alam ko nga na hindi nila magugustuhan ang gagawin ko at lalo ko lang ilalagay sa panganib ang sarili ko.  If I wanted to talk to Shantall, dapat ay maayos ako. Hindi ganito na nanghihina ako. Mamaya pa naman ay naka-schedule na injection ko ng chemo, panigurado

  Coffee was not good for me. But I told myself, minsan na lang naman. Simula kasi nang ma-diagnose na ako na may leukemia, tinigilan ko na ang kape. Pero ngayon, heto. I sneaked out of the room early in the morning to search for a vendo-machine and get a can of hot brewed coffee. Mabuti nga at nandito pa rin ang wallet ko hanggang ngayon, at pinag-iwan din ako ni papa ng pera para daw kapag may gusto akong bilhin ay may pambili ako. May cellphone naman at pwede akong magpadeliver, so being in the hospital is not a problem.  Hindi ako gaanong nakatulog kagabi dahil sa nabasa kong message ni Shantall, pupunta sya dito para makapag-usap kami. I know she'll be here probably later afternoon or by six dahil kailangan pa nyang pumasok, pero heto, mas maaga pa yatang gumising sa mga doctor at nurse sa station. Alam ko rin na hindi ito maganda sa akin, puyat tapos gigising pa ng maaga, but what can I do? I'm too excited. Gusto kong makausap na si Shantal

  Have you been left by someone so dear to you because of a mistake? And when you are more than willing to make that mistake right, that someone so dear to you didn't give you a chance to? It feels like shit, right? You feel like a part of you went missing when you lost your special someone because of one damn mistake. And on a late night, when everyone is asleep, you are curled in a corner, with tears falling from your eyes from your silent cries, wishing that you could bring back time and make everything right.  But then, not every little thing you wish comes true, because it's life. So, you'll end up with those silent cries every night, blaming yourself, full of what-ifs, wishing things that only deaf ears could hear.  And I am thankful that in my case, Shantall gave me a chance. If she didn't, then I don't know what I'd do once she declares that our friendship is over. That is the last thing I wanted to happen, and I w